Bye Bye 2011 Hi Hi 2012

2011 was a pretty yin yang year for me.. everything falls right in the middle..balance out left and right.

Blog And Facebook
I post some of my most interesting stuff yet this year and also finally open up topics about sex, wasn't easy but wanted to expand the horizon while Facebook stays Facebook, deleted lots of unwanted people that i have absolute no interest in anymore..

Work
Work basically comes down to the middle, on the first half of this year, I sold more houses and i rent and gained more houses than i've lost, but ya this is the first time i hold a job where it lasted for a year. First time making a living for myself and proud of some my accomplishment too.

Music
What is there to say about my taste in music since it's the same and always will be, still rap, still hip hop..

Movie
This year movie is slagging and it's all just Superheroes movie and animated movie, nothing epic from big director therefore this year movie wasn't as exciting as last year's.
My Favourite Top 5 Movie Of 2011
1. Mission Impossible Ghost Protocol
2. Harry Potter Deathly Hallow Part 2
3. Transformers 3
4. Sherlock Holmes A Game Of Shadow
5. Fast Five

Biggest Surprise
Obviously this year biggest surprise to me is earning 10k for a house, never would i thought that i'll be able to make this amount of money at such age, i always thought that years after years will only i'll be able to achieve but then God work in a surprising way, so i'm grateful.

Biggest Disappointment
The worse thing that can happen to me is losing a chance to sell off a house when i know i could or when i'm close to selling it, but sometime, interfere such as time, fate, distance and basically everything in the world when it gets in the way. Nothing is more disappointing than rejection or failure.

2012 Ahead
All i wished for that is being more successful in my career than i did this year well because obviously after a year i should be able to take one step forward on the stair and go higher with this shit. Therefore success is all i'm looking forward for that year...and money.

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Earned 2011

December i earned about 2150
January i earned about 2200
April i earned about 2500
May i earned about 1000
May i earned about 650
June i earned about 10760
June i earned about 2350
July i earned about 3680
September i earned about 750
September i earned about 1400
October i earned about 1560
October i earned about 800
November i earned about 600
December i earned about 1500
December i earned about 950

Random 29

A fellow student from my college passed away on Christmas night at 8.p.m. due to road accident..leaving memories and a season that will not long be forgotten..

Your physical shell may not be with us anymore but your presence shall forever haunt us on 25th December..Gone but not forgotten..

They said the good die young and when God call it's time to go home.

Requiescat In Pace..

I've Rent My Fifth House

What was initially considered expensive for a single storey corner terrance for 800 end up being rented out for 650..as long as owner is fine and customer is fine with it too I ain't bitching..

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I've Rent My First Shop

This is the first shop I've ever successfully rented out, i said successfully because the last time this year in February i was almost one signature away from renting it out too then suddenly shit happens and when shit happens i end up losing for no reason.

But anyway, lightning strike the same place twice apparently and again i was so close to renting it out till the owner went nuts and want his shop back for his own use so i was frustrated and remembered that there's another one available just around the block. Everything was done today, it was fast and easy and i made 1500 in a day.

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Sherlock Holmes A Game Of Shadow Review

Some very stylist action scene especially the forest escape scene which is my personal favourite, the movie's story this time didn't captivate me as much as the first one did..

Arthur's Christmas Review

Old Christmas story told in a fresh new way with brilliant cast of character and elfs alike in a movie, absolutely funny and adorable..

Mission Impossible Ghost Protocol Review

Fortunately the generic story plot didn't overshadow the spectacular action from one to another

You're My Addiction

You're just one of those thing that will eventually at point appear in my life isn't it? Never knew about you but you always manage to slip yourself through let yourself in and be comfortable on my house's couch sitting there making me wondering what are you actually..

Strive by thirst of wondering the secret of you for you're nothing i've ever met before, you were different and your scent was special it was almost like you were gonna be a part of my life for a very very long time and i was looking forward to it thanks to our love at first sight on the love of first night.

Blinded by shyness as we were on the beginning stage of knowing each other but somehow somewhere you were like a sinfully wrong disease that i know it's bad for me but yet still I'm hooked by you. Greeted by curiosity, I knew you were poisonous for me and yet I'm beginning to like you even more because you shown me things I've never seen before, deep down..i was feeling..strange in a good way.

Sometime I like the way you just standing there in that white clean colour of yours till the moment comes in and sweep you off throwing you off guard..but you liked it don't you? I just relax myself when I'm with you, I'm all me with no armor on letting any harm comes from you to get a chance to dwell deep into your irresistible beauty. As i saw you loving every minute of the moment we're living in, it feels like all hell frozen off to have me wrapping my thought around you, riddling you with words that others can't express because whatever left of me..I'm yours.

At that moment we were ready for every inch of dirty little secret with each other as i grazed upon your true self and not as a disguised angel concealing her wings on her back like art form tattoo. We had each other in arms length filled within the comfort zone..watching the sunlight peeking in from the crack of the window shining on your tender skin,you gently letting your hair down naturally as a smile rises from your face.

Gradually you became impossible for me to let go for I keep coming back to you almost everyday, secretly speaking, I wanted more of you because I had so much but too much wasn't enough of me as I seek help from you all the time, during quiet time. Worse enough is I'm falling down calling out for you as you've become me..you took control of me..you took advantage of me..you took a chance with me..you took me by surprise everytime. You were enchanting to me..

You know me so well that I was your star like you're my night sky and I need you when all eyes are off me.. like a lost soul i surrender myself and gave my all to let you love me. Stand before you a broken man it was you who covered me with tenderness for the second time, as the air was filled with romance that was caressed by the dimmed light burning from every candle's last breath. Silence hushed the sound of the room down till we were ready to speak again but while the enjoyment lasts, such memories will never be remembered again like how it should to be anymore.

Can y'all guess what I'm writing about?

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Rhyme's Syndrome II

I have this unexplainable sick obsession about rhyming, i just love doing it every 10 minute for it has become a part of me since 14 years old and it grabs hold of me refusing to let me go..It's a sick, sick obsession, it's a disease and a sickness that can't be cured.

Hell, I don't want it to be cured either, i love it everything about it, I loved how it sounds, I loved how putting words together can be so much fun, I loved the structure, rhythm and the speed behind the wheel that's driving the force forward..i swear to God it's the 3rd best thing in life behind video games and sex.

I once thought of being a rapper myself but since i can't pronounce certain words properly or hold my breath long enough that that dream was scrapped immediately. However, the love of rhyming stays with me till this day and in fact i personally feel like it's getting worse and worse in term of constantly randomly spontaneous speaking in rhyme..like i said, it's a disease.

For that in return make me love poetry too, to me rap is about able to put as much rhyme as possible in one sentence and make it sounds good and make sense at the same time mixed with a little profanity in it while poetry is all bout beautiful deep metaphoric sensual words, mostly to say to girls..I've written quite a few raps and poetry myself during my spare time and it's a good execuse for me to grease up the gears in my head for not wanting it to rust..it's my way of brain training.

For some reason, in my world rap isn't a things that people around me seems to like to do..when they learn a rap song, they hear a rap song but when i listen to it, i try to catch all the rhyme join in together. Almost all of the time when i was sitting in the bus from my home back to Subang or vice versa, i spend of the time memorizing rap songs for no reason, it goes how far i've went from boyband junk to rap music crap..

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Puss In Boots Review

Fun vibrant color and absolutely stylist cinematic moments, but nothing ground breaking..a fun watch for multiple times.

What The Fish

At one point of the fashion world, someone somewhere invented fishnet stocking and women decided it's theirs to stylize it therefore born the day of fishnet stocking and shit is sexy for some..but then i don't know in what God's name happened to it.

Men fashion style is as casual as average C can be, men fashion is simple and easy and that's it..anything beyond that can either go south or go north and either way it'll go wrong. Take fishnet for example and make it into a T shirt and BAM..we're given another reason why we should wear sunglasses.

I remembered the first time i saw someone wore fishnet T shirt, it was in a shopping mall and the guy who wore it was a malay guy in his early 40's maybe, fat and chubby and ugly looking of course.

To my disgusted moment i was stunned when i saw him wore a shirt like tat outdoor, because no matter the color and design, i can see almost everything underneath that clothes, it kills the need of using imagination of picturing seeing someone naked in our mind..where's the fun in it, don't mind the fun, where's the clothes in that..clothes.

I thought we buy clothes to cover ourselves so who thought of the idea of fishnet T shirt for men? If a woman wears it i ain't gonna complain but it's not..and surprised i've encounter 3 guys wearing fishnet t shirt outdoor and they walk around with such comfort embracing their body look on their face. It's horrifying and quite frankly..violating..will someone think of the childrens?!

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Sex Talk

Okay so this few weeks has been quite a weird weeks for me because lately i've been having alot of sex talk with people that i thought I'll never talk to regarding sex.. funny thing is it just seem to keep happening over and over again..

I don't often talk about sex, you can try to find it in my blog but..there's never been one at all. I felt like that's one subject i wanted to keep out from ever talking about but then again there's always the first time for everything..weird. So anyway, basically talking about sex between a men and another men is common stuff because it's 2 species and it doesn't feels weird but from one guy to a girl is completely different experience for me..

Men and women are 2 opposite different species in many many ways, when me n my male friends talk bout sex, it's like some common crap we always joke about with dirty smile on our way, it's gene, can't be helped.. so lately i've been talking to girls about sex and it's uncomfortable for me but yet somehow at the same time it's curiosity. I mean i was just curious to see how a girls react at things like this..well, what i've noticed is that when you talked about shit like this people tend to reply faster than a speeding bullet.

But it's funny how the kind of things guys only talk about to each other coming out from a woman's mouth, sounds like we're opening the horizon even more wide open by taking it to the next level.. I don't know maybe I'm being naive because sex is a common thing and i sounds like i was born yesterday, like this shit is new..

Anyway i told my friends that i had sex with my client from my previous blog post and that's how the sex talk came to be, it was all just curiosity to see the reaction from people, though one of my friend was pissed because i was joking..weird.

I'd lied..

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Flirtin' Wit You

I kinda did something that i thought i'll never do to a client but ya i kinda did..i actually flirt a little with this customer of mine and this shit a little crazy for my taste..

First off the first time i met the customer at the house i didn't except someone around 18 to call me looking for a house but basically starting off it was like a client and agent kinda relationship..but from the moment i met her i knew she was the kinda of person that was easy and quickly to get along with..so after she moved into the house that when things happened..

At times she starts off with a simple message so i thought i reply back cause i want to maintain good reputation for my clients but at times we weren't even talking about anything regarding the house. She was like just wondering what I'm up to or what I'm doing and automatically i would ask her back the same thing just to keep the flow going and before i realize it i sounds like i was flirting with her already. At least that's how it seems from my side..

Initially i didn't want to keep doing this whole sms-ing back and forth cause i felt like it's wasting money so i asked for Facebook or something but she wouldn't give me..so the sms thing continues.. we learned a few things about each other but i'm gonna only talk about her side of the story.

This girl live quite a sad life such as being the only child in the family and not to mention her parents got divorced when she was only 3 and her mum left her behind and she has never meet her mum since..so she's currently living with her dad and grandmother who acts as her mother. As this year somewhat in August some clown bang her dad while he was on his motorcycle which almost caused him his life therefore she have to dropout from Form 6 to take care of her dad..i mean it's the kinda story that makes you look at your life twice. Admirable..

But she seem happy so i guess there's all that matter right, so about that flirting thing is where we asked each other stuff like relationships, marriage and love..the same old boy girl talk and at one point i asked her out for a movie..i actually freaking did so but she had to take care of her dad so i didn't stop her, like i said..admirable.

Here i am not wanting to get married or date ever again asking a girl out for movie and hanging out, ironic isn't it..man, nature..man nature i guess. Maybe God is trying to tell me that i'm making a mistake..maybe.

Did i mentioned she's Indian..

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50/50 Review

Someone getting cancer is never a laughing matter but yet this movie finds a fine line of comedy and drama, putting it altogether with nice crew of cast with strong performance from all..it's a nice touch.

Rhyme's Syndrome I

I hate rap music, of course that was me saying it before i turned 14 years old..back then i thought the rap genre was one of the dumbest genre ever since all the artists does is..talk. Back then i thought anybody can do it so how is that talented until..

Basically one day i remembered when i came home from school and i turn on the TV to hear some song from 2 music channel and to my surprised at that time all they were playing was Eminem and i hated him back then. But I'm the kind of guy that's willing to check out new shit if there's lots of buzz about it..so i thought i give it a shot. I thought it was kinda cool at first when i noticed how some words sounds similar to another and at that moment, it begins.

Before i know it i was asking my mum for money to buy his CD and mum never expect me to listen to someone like Eminem, rap is profanity, offensive and vulgar and most of it are a target attack towards women but i didn't care because i dig deeper beneath the surface and look at what words can become when it's joined with a great mind..and ever since that day i've been a giant fan of rap music, especially Eminem's.

Eminem's music is like sex in my ear, it's so good that i want more and more of it. I never expect myself to be listening to his music as well but there's something about rap that is just different from all those stupid crappy amateur love pop song with the same goddamn lyric over and over again. I needed something fresh but God gave me something fresher and this train never stop moving since..

To be continued..

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I've Rent My Second Apartment

Finally this place is rented out since it's been about 6 month since i rented out the other apartment in my blog which is actually the front of this building, same floor and all. Credit goes to my dad since he found the customer first.

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Repair Me

My laptop is finally cripple..unintentionally of course..after watching it battle it's disease for 2 years i think if i remembered correctly on when i got my laptop..

Actually it had multiple problem after i used it for quite some time later..after being perfect like the apple in my eyes and all, shit starts happening and quite frankly i don't remember what was the first problem though. The problem i remembered the most however was the first time my screen went pink..yes Chloe's color..it went there.

Speechless as i am, i didn't take much concern to it because if shit can be solved without money involved then why not right..well now my laptop is cripple as fuck but not because of the screen but something regarding my hard drive..shit went crazy last night.

I was listening to music and all and got cut out automatically for no reason then my desktop screen went black and blank, couldn't access document and files anymore, mozilla and internet explorer went missing, it's like an empty vessel laptop with no meat bones and organs in it..but i'm smart..

For some reason MSN was untouch so i used the email button to access internet explorer but because my hard drive is corrupted somehow shit is a bit slow which is something i need to get used to from now on..

P.S. Before someone comment so, it's not porn..it's not virus..it's my hard drive..

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Random 28

I fed some street animals lately..because i have heart and i feel pity that nobody wants to adopt them, I'm talking about cats and dogs only actually..

Everybody wants to feel love and be loved by others, animals included..but the world is changing and nobody gives a shit about street animal no more. Either they get chased or kick off and have stuff throw at them..it's sad to see sometime..i mean, how would you feel if you were them instead.

Having a pet is a huge responsibility and i understand so that's why i just fed them rather than taking them home..at least they don't have to sleep through the night with an empty stomach..homeless on the other hand, I'm sorry i wish i could but i couldn't.

Cocky human bastard aren't we..one of these day if shit goes wrong and animal are standing on a higher ground than us and we're a street pets instead, then I'll see y'all in hell..

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Dim Sum, Insanity..

I once talk about the wonder of tasting one of the best food in my world, Mixed Rice..but what i never mention was that i had a secret weapon keeping at the side, introducing..well y'all already see the picture right..

The food does wonders to my tongue and everytime i bite one..i freaking enter paradise heaven. Funny how something so small can be so fulfilling to the tongue and yet at the same time so brutal to the wallet money lounge, shit is expensive.

Yet somehow everytime one of those bad boys enter my mouth, i forget about everything else..clueless. It's like sex in my mouth..eh wait, what did i just type..

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The Adventure Of Tintin Review

I wasn't expecting much from this movie because when i first saw Tintin..he looks too realistic for my taste..and i swallowed my words back immediately.

The adventure of Tintin is one of the best movie i've seen this year and one of Speilberg's best movie yet. Full of humor, entertaining sequence and excellent performances by all actors. Deserved my full praise

Poor Lil' Rich

"At the moment you have come to a complete dead end. Nothing seems to be progressing and you are tempted to throw in the towel. Consider such moments as a test of your willpower and it will soon become clear how important it is to you that you follow through with your plans. You will then find the energy required to continue over all obstacles. Otherwise you must let it go and start again from a different perspective"

My horoscope is totally right, alot of people was looking forward to November because of the stupid date 11.11.11..where alot of people got married and celebrate while other have the unfortunate side of that date which lead to death and others..

Me..on the hand, things have not been going well so far..November starts off bad for me, real bad..First off, i lost a couple of houses already and by losing i mean lost chances after chances of getting paid. Sometime being an agent sucks because your chances of getting paid got fucked up too by either the customers or the owners or even both..and because of that, i suffered too.

It's always pisses me off when everytime i'm so close to winning and yet somehow losing always able to make it to the finish line first..and according to my horoscope, today was like that, just another one of those days where failure shit on me, literally.. To me, losing chances to make money is more heartbreaking than failing in a relationship, hell i'll probably have more trouble getting over a failed chances at property selling than a relationship.

The second half year for business of 2011 is not as good as the first half, i'm bleeding dry of money and fate still doesn't seems to make any U turn at anytime therefore i'm thinking of becoming a male prostitute and give up this agent lifestyle (kidding by the way). So this is what it feels like living on the edge of being broke..any kind soul want to offer me a hand?

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What If What If

Many times in life where i thought what if the things that happened to me happened differently..what if fate changed and alternate the path that i was supposed to go. I'm sure everybody wonders what if they have taken a different route and see how life plays out..that's why people always talk about time machine right?

What if i didn't went for college and straight to work instead, i would have never met some people share the same taste with me in designing, to be challenged by creativity, to meet friends that treat me like real friends and having me being in a club for the first time promising me that I'll get laid and drunk when neither happen.

What if my dad wasn't around anymore when i finished college, would i be able to have a stable job with good income? I'll probably still be behind a desk struggling with my half ass skill just to scrap food on my plate.. Probably would have never been able to sleep since payment is so low and money will always be an issue no matter how many years i pour into it.

What if i have taken better care of myself, sleep well and eat healthier..hell, i would have been healthier of course and wouldn't have to go through this bullshit of wasting 18k just for the bills. Would have have enough money to do my stuff instead of putting it into someone else pocket. Maybe also due to my childhood kidney problem, therefore this..happens.

What if i was a little more patience and less angry, i could be if i want to be but sometime the feeling took control of itself causing temper explosion to happen. I would have less conflict with my family and friends if i was just a little more patience..but i don't know but i am what i am and this is what i am despite i am.

What if i didn't move around so much and rather stand settle on one location forever, where would i have stayed? Kinda hope that it would have been Kuantan since some of my most remembered memories is at that place. Plus the Kuantan house we had is also the best house i've stayed in.. shame that we moved again a couple of time after that.

What if my parents were still together..i asked myself that question a million billion trillion times a day..

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There's A Cure

Since HIV was discovered 30 years ago this week, 30 million people have died from the disease, and it continues to spread at the rate of 7,000 people per day globally, the UN says.

There's not much good news when it comes to this devastating virus. But that is perhaps why the story of the man scientists call the "Berlin patient" is so remarkable and has generated so much excitement among the HIV advocacy community.

Timothy Ray Brown suffered from both leukemia and HIV when he received a bone marrow stem cell transplant in Berlin, Germany in 2007. The transplant came from a man who was immune to HIV, which scientists say about 1 percent of Caucasians are. (According to San Francisco's CBS affiliate, the trait may be passed down from ancestors who became immune to the plague centuries ago. This Wired story says it was more likely passed down from people who became immune to a smallpox-like disease.)

What happened next has stunned the dozens of scientists who are closely monitoring Brown: His HIV went away.

"He has no replicating virus and he isn't taking any medication. And he will now probably never have any problems with HIV," his doctor Gero Huetter told Reuters. Brown now lives in the Bay Area, and suffers from some mild neurological difficulties after the operation. "It makes me very happy," he says of the incredible cure.

The development of anti-retroviral drugs in the 1990s was the first sign of hope in the epidemic, transforming the disease from a sudden killer to a more manageable illness that could be lived with for decades. But still, the miraculous cocktail of drugs is expensive, costing $13 billion a year in developing countries alone, according to Reuters. That figure is expected to triple in 20 years--raising the worry that more sick people will not be able to afford treatment.

Although Brown's story is remarkable, scientists were quick to point out that bone marrow transplants can be fatal, and there's no way Brown's treatment could be applied to the 33.3 million people around the world living with HIV. The discovery does encourage "cure research," according to Dr. Jay Levy, who co-discovered HIV thirty years ago, something that many people did not even think was possible years ago.

So..

There's a cure for HIV now..with the existence of knowledge for this, people are gonna have even more unprotected sex no?

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Tower Heist Review

Pretty entertaining as most of Ben Stiller films, funny and Eddie Murphy stole every scene he's in.

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1 Year Anniversary

Officially on November i've been working as a property agent for one full year, this means a lot to me as this is the first time i hold a job for this long without having a second thought of changing into another occupation.

So after one year of being an agent, it's save to say that this is my permanent job..nothing else anymore. I probably could go on and on about every layer of my job but that'll probably bore you so i just post the top 3 favourite houses i've sold for the past one year..

Reason being that this was the first house i've sold..after a month of working only. The amount of excitement, joy and nervousness that was going on could not be explain with words..could never be explained.

This house holds a special place in my heart mainly because it was something i never thought i'll be ever to sell because of it's high price..10k and 3 month of working i've achieved the impossible.. I'll probably never be able to sell any houses more expensive than this.

This house will go down in my career history as one of the fastest house i've ever sold..record breaking time is 3 days. First customer to viewed, agreed and purchased it..proud moment for me..

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Hate To Wait

The title basically said it all..I'm a very impatient little asshole and when my patience is put to the test 99% of the time i would fail at it miserably..So here's what happened recently..

I order an item..me and my friend, we ordered an item..so he got it for me too so the thing is over at his place and i ask him to send it over to my place via Poslaju and how hard could that be right, wrong..it's like a fucking impossible task to do because of the constant delay again and again..it's driving me crazy..

The item arrived at Wednesday at his place, send it over on Thursday, i should be receiving it on Friday..i went to work on Friday. 30 minutes after i left my place Poslaju send it over and i wasn't at home and i tried to get it from their place but they were on lunch break, so ya da ya da bla bla i called at 5.30 minute to check again they said the staff are using the computers to key in code so it's booked full.

So ya da ya da again I just thought I'll go over and pick it up on Saturday and to my motherfucking surprised, it's closed some more..i was already at the edge of my meter ready to explode and here i am, again..not being able to receive my crap. So now, i have to wait till Tuesday because Poslaju don't open on Sunday and Monday is some fucking holiday..

I was screaming on the inside and out while i was driving back home..i mean how hard is it just to receive a package, just sign and receive right..but it end up with all this nonsense motherfucking over the top bullshit crap that i don't need. Am i being punk by God? Am i being punished? All i want is my package for the love of Christ!!

Meaning to say..i've been waiting for one whole week just for something..sigh..

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72 Days

Kim Kardashian's Wedding is over only after 72 days, the perfect example of people who get married blindly and stupidly without much consideration and probably due to lots of fear of being left out.

Fear of being alone in this world, fear of dying alone in this world and fear of family pressure probably caused this shit..not that I'm a fan of the Kardashian or anything but news like this definitely caught my attention and i just want to share with the world showing them what's make people do stupid things for love then regret it..

It's getting clearer and clearer to me why marriage and love doesn't last and why divorce rate are getting so high nowadays that maybe being single is still the best way to go.

Married for 3 months and there goes all the effort put into making the wedding as stupidly as big as possible, wasting countless amount of money for no purpose now and well..lying in the eyes of God..

Then again, what can i say..desperate time calls for desperate measures..

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Don't Be Afraid Of The Dark Review

It's so boring that it's scary to watch it the second time around..

Long Night

I think was about a month ago where i had the worse insomnia experience ever in my life, it was so bad that i was aggressively frustrated with myself because all i want to do was just be able to sleep and yet sometime my mind won't let me to..i wonder why..

But first off i want to be thankful that since that bad insomniac experience i've been able to sleep like a baby, 95% at the time..i discovered that why I'm not able to fall asleep is because i spend too much time laying on the bed while the brain is active therefore that in return make the brain "unshuttable".

And there i was thinking that i might need to see some doctor about my sleeping problem and waste unworthy money..same reason why i don't understand why people look for therapist..Therapist and their patients are basically the same person underneath all that tough act dressing up like God's gifted problem solver. I bet half of them can't even solve their own problem let alone others..

But last night, ya..was one of those night where i had a long row of good sleep at night but one lousy night, why..i thought I'm fully healed or maybe it's still in taking the effects in gradually. Sometime it's one of those feeling where you feel like things should have gone your way but it didn't and that feeling..sucks badly.

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Random 27

Isn't just in Malaysia or worldwide because it seems that the goddamn internet connection is having major slowdown which is quite frankly irritating because there are alot of us who wakes up in the morning and first thing we do is pop into Facebook and see what the fucks up with the world around us therefore without the internet connection we are doomed and screwed and that ain't fun especially when it comes down to watching videos on Youtube but that impossible now since the connection is so bad that the damn thing is lagging and dragging on and on so for whatever reason this is happening needs to be resolved, absolved and the technician needs to be involve otherwise we'll get into one big brawl and that ain't cool anymore.

Thank you.

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I've Rent My Fourth House

To be honest with the condition of the house i thought it would never be sold off or rent off in anyway despite the house is really in a old condition..and old fashioned too.

Surprisingly along came this Indian girl who sounds very nice on the phone and all wants to rent it..hmm. Everything was very smooth and easy afterwards like a walk in the park. Customer was nice and owner was nice, the 2 perfect combination in the science of property world.

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Paranormal Activity 3 Review

Suspense and intensely scary..i closed my eye for 80% of the film for being the chicken that i am.

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Dad's Background

Today i was using my dad's computer to do some tenancy agreement for this new house i've rent out so as i was searching for Microsoft Points i stumbled upon a document named after my dad's new girlfriend..

So being the busybody that i was..i clicked on it..

Some might that that's invading privacy, that's being rude and not polite..correct and correct but what i did and end up seeing change my perspective about my dad forever. In it contains the story of my dad's background (hence title) and for the first time in my life, i've discovery things about my dad that i didn't know about nor being able to ask about..well cause my parents were divorced therefore there's stuff that's not able to access..

When my dad was a kid he lived a hard knock life..being the 4th child in the family and the first male in the family, my dad had to be independent around age 8 to help his parents around the house to ease some burden, also mainly due to the fact he lost 4 older sister due to sickness..which i think i never met before. Life was hard for him, having to collect firewood and unwanted vegetable from farmers that didn't want them..it's like eating garbage from trash bin.

My dad had to work part time jobs here and there to help support the family taking lots of job over the course of his life which i cannot remember what are they actually..i remembered he mentioned working for some uncle RM8 a day and never once make more than 500 a month but i guessed back then, that amount is equal to 1k nowadays in modern time..is it or isn't it?

The best part of the whole post that got my attention was between my dad and my mum..for 22 years i never know it's behind the scene story about it. My dad stated that it was the saddest moment in his life and i could imagine why since my mum was his 1st love ever and the fact they've been together for about 16 years together dating and marriage altogether..My dad receive a phone call from some lawyer office calling him about the divorce letter being served, my dad sign the paper reluctantly for the sake of me and my sister, surrender his house and everything because of my mum.

All this time i blamed my dad for being the bad guy cause that's how the media always picture men as..that's why the wife always gets the kids and the house and everything..suddenly i see my mum as the bad person now..

I think I'm gonna accept my dad's new relationship with that Ipoh girl, like it or not..for once in 12 years, my dad was happy again and I'm happy for him.

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A Sick World

http://www.china.org.cn/china/2011-10/17/content_23641415.htm
In English in article form.

The video was uploaded today and outrage the media in China..i truly don't know what to say to be honestly.

The video says it all and the article elaborate even further in the aftermath.

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The Thing Review

One word: suck

I've Sold My 7th House

This is by fat the cheapest house i've ever sold and the nearest too at the same time..the owner of the house was a friend of my mum and i didn't knew it until i met her, small world huh.

Still, it was quite a challenging house to sell mainly because the house is tall but skinny with only 2 rooms rather than 3 like normal.. but for the price of only 78k, it's reasonable..

And reasonable it is when this rich customer bought the house with cash for crying out loud, guess we were all at the right place with right time along with the right customer. Perfect combination to the mix.

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Less The Better

I don't want to think or talk more about animal abuse cause frankly it hurts and nothing is done to save them animals, so either way my words means nothing to the world..the world is cruel, life is unfair and karma's a bitch.

Facebook is no longer safe at least for me, I constantly sees videos or picture of animal being abused like it doesn't matter..stupid people with their stupid videos. What i want to talk about is the fact that i feel tiredless knowing that every second some poor animal is being tortured somewhere somehow..

Therefore, the only way to save my poor shattered mind is stop posting things like that online..

The less i know the better i feel, sometime in life there's a phrase that say something are better left unsaid, well in this case, somethings are better left unseen.. people shared things like this just to show some sympathy on them poor soul in the picture, after half an hour later, we're back to normal like nothing happen.

That's just how we humans are, we share picture and videos like that here and there asking all to recognize them faces and remember to report to police if we see them..honestly we won't because we got too much going on in our life, there's no capacity to store abuser's face in it.. sooner or later, we'll move on with our life.

I have a friend that i added on Facebook, she's a animal lovers, problem is she keep showing pictures, news or videos like i mentioned again and again on Facebook.. funny thing is, after those post, same reaction everytime afterward..sadness. She loves animal and she can't stand posts like this and yet she still clicked on it, it's kinda like if you know some drinks has poison or drug in it, will you still drink it? of course not..

The world is changing..very badly. Obviouly i don't think this is what God has in mind when he build earth..we are our own destruction and we shall destruct ourselves one of these days.

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Youtube, My Enemy..

Does Youtube have some sort of a "Channel Racism" or something because i remember there should to be a time where Youtube allowed videos that i love to watch to be played there, but now seems like searching for anything is bloody difficult..

Youtube is all about users uploading their videos in there for the world's eye's pleasure..i totally understand videos that have nudity to be not allowed in it, but why not even videos that are juz like normal without any parental warning stamp all over it?

I should to remember the good old days where i can search up Youtube for TV sitcoms and movie and actually find what i'm looking for..but now it seems like anyone who upload anything full is considered copyright issue to some company but then..how come some others aren't. Again i totally understand if certain video is leaked out before hand but some aren't.. some are just been there for quite some time and suddenly Youtube doesn't allowed it anymore.

I'm just mad because it's difficult as it is already when i have no control over what TV broadcast can show what and when, therefore i thought Youtube could be my savior..but apparently not too. They allowed lesbian kissing but not normal TV show we see everyday on TV, they allowed old movies with full length in it but not newer movie that have been just released maybe a year ago.. the whole thing is just inconsistent.

Sometime i prefer to sit in front of my laptop with my lunch and watch Youtube instead of television because i can choose what i want to watch rather than the other way around, so when Youtube is being this picky over copyright issue..it's just wierd. I mean it's not like any of the videos shown on Youtube are the same day a movie or TV show is released..but i think maybe it's because of rating and money making, that's why..

Either way Youtube needs to balance out their nonsense..

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Sale Or Rent

This post is dedicated mainly to all property agents out there, if you're not interested in property nor an agent..do not read this post for it will be strictly boring to your attention. Thank You.

There's 2 way to get paid when it comes something to do with property, either by selling or renting, more people will think selling is better because we agents will get more money, while other believe that renting will get fast money.. true and true. I personally like to use both.

When i first started out as an agent i was only interested in selling houses because at that time i got rejected for house rental multiple throughout, that in return killed my interested in renting for a very long time. So i focused only in selling houses instead and one month into the line of work i sold my first house therefore i thought maybe i can survive mainly by focusing on selling only..but i was wrong.

The thing with selling property is that it takes longer time to get paid, with getting the right customers then getting loan approved and then letting lawyer to prepare agreement and all sometimes takes months to do..then only..finally signed and get paid. Logically speaking, if only one case per month and that's how long it takes to get it done..no one's gonna survive long. Sometime to make the progress more challenging, problems might occurred in between stages, adding even more tension than it already has.

It didn't took me long to realized that i can't survive much just by sticking to one way of making money in this sort of work therefore rental is also important, at least if you wanna start off slowly, try out house rental first..like me. Rental is the opposite of selling, it's faster but less payment because quite frankly the reason people rent houses instead of buying is because they can't afford it right?

The thing about rental is that normally if a customer has confirmed they're interested it would take about a few weeks to get money, less but at least one will get paid. Rental's biggest worries is that if the so called customer is not what they seem to be sometime, that in return will causes the agent and the owner alot of problem therefore..headache for no reason. There have been cases where a tenant changed the doorknob and lock itself so that no one can enter the house..yes, some people are just that bad. Trust betrayed..

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500th Post

Ta da..2 and a half years has passed.

Congratulation to UpghostNpersonal for it's 500th post officially.

Through long and short, thick and thin and ups and downs it has finally reached a total amount as much as 500..

another 500 to come perhaps?

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Dream House Review

The script is a nightmare, the plot twist is a nightmare, the whole damn movie is a nightmare..don't watch it

Fright Night Review

Rather entertaining with right balance of scares and humor. A remake by the way

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I almost bang a car with my car's rear end today while reversing

WTF..

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Sleep Deprivation

Why am i having trouble sleeping..what have i done to deserve this misery, this..inability to do one of the simplest thing in life, falling asleep..

Am I being punished for something..Am i only allowed to have one thing on this Libra scale? either only success or hours of sleep, if i take one then I'm destined to lose the other one..

God refused to let me sleep and I'm getting very pissed off with it. The more i lack sleep the more pissed off i get..and when that happened, bad thing comes along..i don't wish for it but look at what God is doing to me..

I'm thinking of popping pill's time..even if it ends up killing me..if that's what it takes..

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National Service Part 3

So this is the finale of my dreadful National Services experience, the last time i left off i mentioned that i was in the program for only 2 days and 2 night thankfully.

Here's the funny thing, as i mentioned previously that all candidates are supposed to do a check up first weeks before saying goodbye to cruel world, but being living in Malaysia..things don't always go according to plan even when suppose to. That day when we went for check up there was supposed to be doctor, but there wasn't..on the same day the letter written that we're supposed to go to this place and meet doctors is also the same day where there's no doctor..can the government be more fucked up?

So anyway, snap back to the camp site, on the 2nd day some of the commander put a few of us into a van and bring to see a doctor..again. Inside there i finally met a doctor as planned before and to my surprise the doctor said some magic words to my ear and turn the whole thing upside down. According to her, candidate with asthma attack are not qualified to participate in this program..i stay calm and cool and steady on the outside acting like i don't understand what she's saying but inside..i was jumping all around.

14 years ago when i went under the knife, having stay nearly a year of my life in the hospital because of some kidney problem and asthma attack has finally come in handy. As the doctor was speaking, my mind went blank and all i can think about is the fact that I'm going home while them suckers continue to stay there at that hell hole with ghosts and cemetery and flies food and everything. I didn't even give the doctor my opinion, i just acted like if she says so then she says so..shut up and full stop.

Basically there's how it all went down, after 2 days there with head shaved, I'm going home.. It's probably hard for some people to believe that i was literally that lucky, i won't missed much of that place since i never like the idea of leaving home and doing all the training just because they think we'll be prepared if Melaka got itself into a war with another country..hell..i'll run off first clown face.

Days before i got up that NS bus i thought to myself on how much life i would be missing, i'll be missing on some media entertainment like movies, song and games..or my own room, nice good food and so many other more things to do besides fighting flies in the morning and mosquitoes at night, i even quit my job just because of this nonsense and i resume back to work the day after i was released. Sounds like prison..

A lot of people find it hard to believe that someone who was into in NS for 2 days have more story to tell than those who spend 3 month trying to type in their first paragraph. i gueesed i'm just me. The End.

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National Service Part 2

So when we last left out i was bitching about how i found out i was chosen all the way to the day i step foot on them soil and them terrible food and swimming lake..life is a bitch and i hear that she bites.

Well what's else i haven't bitch about yet, well did i mention that the public bathroom/ toilet is dirtier than some basement that i've seen where people get tortured in, the male's bathroom is that nasty that i can't imagine what sort of rainbow and sunshine the girl's side have..probably hellish as well. Nevertheless, it's also the place where you have to clean your clothes, scrubbing shit off your fashion like some goddamn stone age people..

Night time is actually pretty crappy due to the fact it's next to a cemetery, plus the dorm's door are not allowed to be closed like what the fuck? that's stupidly scary like horror movie in 3D and what's scarier than ghost..mosquitoes. But we ain't that bad since the girl's dorm is closer to the cemetery and them commanders said before that sometime when they went patrolling..they see "things". Ghost are perverts too perhaps?

I think i don't have to mention how scared them girls were..

I do remember one thing very particularly though, there was a Malay guy in my group that was suffering from some sort of dis capability if i would say so. He was having legs problem that cause him to walk limp..i guess one of his leg wasn't that good perhaps and yet no one and i mean no one offer to help him or even cut him some slack.

No one meaning the nurses from some hospital that we have to attend to before we went meet our death, everyone of us have to go through this procedure like injection and urine sample check up.

I mean ain't it obvious if you see someone with that guy's leg condition, ain't it obvious that he's in physically in no shape to participate in this nonsense crap that we got dragged into..ain't it clearly obvious enough? It doesn't take a genius to figure out that even without a doctor's approval right..some people just are so stupid.

It was a 2 night of hell and when i said 2 nights..i really meant 2 nights only because after that i was..

O.U.T

stay tune for part 3, the finale..

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National Service Part 1

I remembered the day where i came back from work when i was about 17, months after my first job working in a gift shop..i came back to a horrific yet predictable news actually, it was a envelope on the table.

Inside it contains a nightmare i somewhat knew i have to go through, I have been officially selected to join National Service.. moment of silence please everyone..

I passed out for an hour before waking up and passing out again..

I was kinda prepared for this day but then again i mean seriously want to join such crap especially when making money is more important right. Anyway, i shaved my head a month before joining it cause either way I'm screwed so might as well get into the spirit of it in advance.. I even have to quit my job just so that the government doesn't have to send their ass kissing people over to capture me.

Official day arrived and i sat in the bus while watching myself being taking far far away from my parents, after a while first thing i noticed is that there's a bloody cemetery next to the camp..why in God's name will they locate the camp next to a curse place? It's was in Alor Gajah by the way.. Getting down from the bus and the first thought come to me was..I want to go home now!

It was hot and dusty, kinda like from the desert of Mexico..everyone of us looks like some lost cowboy while the commanders looks like freaking cactus because if you touch them, they'll kill you. Nothing about that place impresses me except the large lake in the camp that's closer to the boy's dorm than girl's..because they're closer to the canteen so we get the lake right? wrong..apparently the lake is dirty and can cause rashes on skin if we swim in it..the curse from the cemetery has already begun apparently.

And just when i thought things couldn't get any worse, it did..the canteen that i've mentioned earlier that was closer to the girl's dorm..which makes no sense because girl eats less than guys, and yet we're the one here that needs to walk further for food, jeez. Anyway, that was just a minor, the major problem was that the place is so dirty that if you leave your food on the table longer than 1 minute, millions and millions of flies will be on it like literally covered completely and i ain't lying.

After a long exposing tiring sun burning dust swiping day, it was time for shower and sleep and boy oh boy did it felt good..and this is just day 1 basis..i barely even scratching the surface..stay tuned for part 2 soon..

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Weird Wired

Yesterday was apparently a holiday that i did not know of, some Malaysian Day or something created by some clown who feels like we need more holiday that we deserved..i say well done.

Anyway, yesterday my family is having some sort of a crazy fever to have the needs to constantly off the switch to the internet connection while I'm using it..3 times for crying out loud.

My mum did it in the morning so she could use the switch for her blow dryer, my dad then did it in the afternoon while he went for toilet then to finish the conclusion, my sister did it for the last time before going to bed. I repeat..all this while i was still using the internet, doesn't anybody sees me at all?

To make matter worse, a house owner wasn't a man of his words when he said he can meet me around 1 o clock to pass me a key to his shop. I called and asked if meeting around 1 o clock is convenience for him and he say yes but then sometime nothing is what it seems..i waited for 45 minutes before giving up on this clown and wouldn't bother with him anymore if he doesn't even bother to call back..and he didn't.

Luckily today he did..so i forgave him. Everybody seems to have some screw loose in their head last night. What a bizarre day.

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Secret Operation: Progress

Well it have been 2 month since i had my secret operation and well overall things are going pretty smoothly as i hoped for..

Though my health is getting better my wallet ain't sharing the same fate, i guessed you have to sacrifice one to get another one..oh well. So far all i did was just going over to the place twice a week to get check up and let them people do their things, all girls for some reason.

The place is nice and dark and even gloomy..quiet most of the time, feel kinda haunted if i think about it..not to mention can smell the place from a distance, now that's powerful shit they're using on me. Sometime when i walked up the stair (yes, it's on the second floor) i keep remembering the first time i walked into that hell's kitchen wondering how will all this turn out to be and how much will it cost me, apparently 10k ain't even enough..

So i've left about 8k more to pay, seems like it's taking forever to pay this due, all of my ass kissing, blood sweating, heat soaking hard earn money went down the drain for this crap. Being totally happy for my health condition will always be 50/50 only no matter what..because everytime you think about it, you think about money..and how much of it have u wasted unnecessarily.

Long story short, this is just half of the full story..will update more next time.

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Stupidity At It's Best

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I don't need to say much, u click it and see it for yourself..the true patriotism of carrying more Malaysia flag than our prime minister, this is an act of someone who love his land, sarcastically.

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Mis*Marriage

August time i was talking about marriage..i was talking about how couple should spend more time and effort thinking the real deal in a relationship which is marriage..and i went on and on about what i would do with my marriage if i get myself one, then lately..

Lately..well lately i don't know what have gotten into me but for the first time in my life I'm actually considering the intention of not getting married at all for eternity..hm, i even surprised myself. To be honest i have no explanation on what caused i to think such thing, anyone who knows me long enough would know that i can't wait to have a little girl of my own and i love looking at women..so what's up?

I'm guessing that maybe all these while my interests peek at the thought of being married but in reality, life ain't that easy breezy. I was thinking that i hate doing the most things married couple have to do for or with each other like family reunion during CNY or what not, the wedding itself and other stuff that i don't want to get too into..maybe the problem is me here myself. Am i afraid of commitment?

I don't think so..maybe I'm worried i won't be a good father or husband..or maybe I'm worried about sharing the same fate as my parents because divorce is seriously not an option for me. I'm also worried whether or not i can provide for more than one mouth, wit the current position that I'm in..money is at the top of my fucking skull. I'm stuck at dilemma..having silly thought about future plans when I'm barely even at the next chapter yet.

I spend more time thinking about having a little girl than about having a wife, clearly shows that my interests is not stable whereby I'm just using a woman's body to birth me a daughter, other than that.. the page stays blank..what happened to the wife? i don't know nor do i care, damn. Some might said that when the right person comes along, the mindset will change..but i don't think the problem will stop there, I'm actually seriously considering not getting married at all.

Ignore me..I'm just questioning myself

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Colombiana Review

B rated summer fun movie, undeveloped plot and no character development what sort ever..but Zoe Saldana is one hot killer

Conan The Barbarian Review

Brutal, absolutely brutal, totally brutal, grossily brutal..other than that, crap.

I've Rent My Third House

The house was a God's gift from heaven..beautiful and big and i was chosen to help rent it out, truly grateful I am..there's nothing much to say about the house background story except it all happened so quickly, within a month of holding it on someone want it which I'm not surprised at all if a house looks this good.

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Ghost Month

Let me be clear that August wasn't a very good month for me..life wasn't terrible at all but just was hoping for something decent enough for me to be happy.

I don't want to sound like I'm bitching about life whenever it takes a route that i didn't plan for..but maybe sometime worries and curiosity takes too much of a toll for me.. you know the feeling when certain things isn't going well for you and you just want to know that if it'll ever get better again.. life wasn't at it's best shape for me in August, going through a lot of different shit nearly everyday

August was what the Chinese like to call ghost month festival or something and i got frustrated with sleeping. I find it very difficult for me to sleep but stupidly easy to get woken up by even the slightest noise made by anything or anyone near my radius, so sleeping is super important for me. I nearly lost it over a night of sleep, imagine that.

I got my payment for the last house i sold about 3k plus and only getting 1.8k plus for splitting it with company, not that i don't like it but just that that is the last sale i got in term of selling since June, so ya it's been 3 months since anything new. With that said, I'm just worried about myself not able to make ends meet with this job..p.s, I'm broke again.

Reason for being broke.. paying medical bills, but at least i noticed it's getting better and i feel better so that's most important for me. i have paid about 10k for now and another 8k more to go..feel like I'm bleeding dry on money here. I guess the real major problem i have right now is mostly because of money issue otherwise i would be fine..money is always an issue in life.

I repeat i ain't bitching about life but just getting shit off my chest, keeping it all tight down inside of me can be overloading sometime. So I'm hoping September will be a better month for me..the ghost month because I'm Ghost, get it? No?

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A Nice Lady

I meet someone named Molly today, she is someone that I'm gladly to have the privilege, the liberty and the chance to sell off her house.

Initially i thought Molly is some mid age 30's looking woman that is kinda plum based on her voice (sorry ladies), it's just a feeling based on the conversation we had on the phone..her house is the same place where i sold my first house, a place called Ozana..love them place..so obviously i was excited cuz it's like going back full circle to where i started.

Anyhow the day start off bad because she made the appointment so early in the morning like 8 o clock something, i was still sleeping for crying out loud but i didn't bitch about it. To my surprise Molly is actually a 60 year old looking old lady..but minute within meeting her i can already tell that she was very friendly and i was right.

I bring her to some places where she needs to cut off her electricity and water bills so that she doesn't have to pay anymore and while we were in the car we get to know alot about each other, kinda like mutual understanding between a 20's and 60's. Funny how we bond so quickly..beside it helps me to learn new things too so either way it was a win-win situation for neither for us.

When i said she was nice i meant it..it's hard to have someone this trust worthy and sincere and loyal altogether in one complete package.. I've been stab by customers and property owners before, not litereally though but verbally, so to be able to encounter someone like her is rare..someone who understand the life of an agent and understand that what we do is just our way of making money and strictly business, she teach me some new stuff on how to talk to customers and all, though i don't use it cause i've prepared myself too.

After getting everything done, she even offered me half her snack and drinks because she was afraid i might be hungry and all, i mean..person like this is truly rare like some fossil you'll never find, i meant for real yo.

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Superbad Review

funny as hell with excellent performance from all cast members.

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Red As The Devil Is

On the subject of renting a house, this month I've rented out a nice double story terrace house and it was fast, it was easy and it was quick or so i thought..

Why is it that when it took me awhile to get a house to be sold off the problem normally occurred with the duration of how long it takes to get it done but when it only takes me not more than a week to get it done, major issue problem always happened.

Let's take a look at a house i sold last month, shit took off fast but had lots of landing problem that drove me crazy, metaphorically speaking by the way and now again, it fucking happens again..the house i've rent out this month was no smooth sailing, shit was absolutely insane, it's making me wanna pop my eyes off my head and just explode or something..

I don't wanna get too much into detail because i know y'all probably wouldn't care or understand about it but let's just say that the owner and the customer don't see eye to eye and being the agent sometime, get dragged along even if it's nothing to do with you.. i mean how hard is it to rent a goddamn house. The house is cursed or something, either that or August is really a bad bad month for business everywhere..maybe the legend is true after all.

All i wanna know is what's the reason for this to happen, what is God trying to say to me now..i need a sign or answer or something. How did i get myself into this mess..what a lousy first experience of co broking with a colleague.

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Pineapple Express Review

Absolutely hilarious, laugh my fucking ass off and James Franco as a stoned drug dealer was well cast

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On The Edge Of Poor

Earlier this year around January, i slowly got a taste of hard earn sweat money and it only gets sweeter and sweeter by the month with more and more houses getting sold..suddenly came June, i got a taste of living on the edge of poor..

Growing up i never really have any experience of what it's like being poor all the time, i live in a average life where I'm at the middle of money value..though i was never really thought much of cherishing every penny i have too. Being very lucky to find a father that have decent income to provide for us, money wasn't in my mind because what i want i ask and i get..but then again, i never took advantage nor was i spoiled..

Fast forward 20 years later, here i am working as an agent, property that is..after having month and month of decent sale and slow but good head start suddenly i decided to take a top secret medical treatment and decided to pay for it myself, that's why life turn upside down for me. Suddenly I'm broke as hell, my bank account is not worth looking at, my wallet is constantly empty all the time and suddenly i have to think twice about everything before throwing bucks away on it..

Now i realized how fortunate i've been and how it feels like living poor as fuck..having to sell off houses or what not just to have those commission spend on car installment and medical bills before i can even get a chance to spend it on myself. Now every cent is very important to me..very blood sweat and tears is important to me..i even went as far as to selling off stranger's phone that i've found at some food court just to pay bills.

Everytime i pour a 50 on petrol my heart breaks a little but without it I won't be able to work..compromising. This post is largely just me trying to say that i can't wait for the bills to be paid finish so that i can get back my life and move on to phrase 2..i want my confidence back.

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Icestructor's Birthday

Happy Birthday to my car..officially been driving her around for a full year now, amazing..I called my car Icestructor but personally i named her Jamie, why? i don't know why either.

I remember the first time i lay on her when i came back to Malacca..she was white, she was still, she was shy and she was patience with her. I had to learn how to be patience with her too when i first started out driving again after 3 years without a steering wheel in my hand. After a while of getting used to her, i drove her around back to Subang.

It was a pretty scary the few times when it was just me and her, we encounter many fears and problems together..nearly crashed into a few vehicle and people along the way.

Brings back so much memories on how because of Icestructor i was able to finally have no trouble with transportation to work but then on the other hand Jamie is a pretty heavy petrol drinker..partially broke everytime feeding her.

People said that Viva is ugly and it's a box car, but i don't see it that way because it does whatever car does, taking me from point A to point B and for Icestructor's case, easy to maneuver.

I have amazing one year with my car and i hope to continue having few more great years with her before the world stop spinning.

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Fully Embrace

If anyone has follow my blog long enough to know that my father is currently seeing someone from Ipoh, i don't like her at first..in fact i still don't like her but there was a time when i thought maybe i should be more understanding and happy for other people..especially my own father.

At first it was hard for me mainly because i found out about it by myself and not through him, although i highly doubt he'll tell me either way, so it was a bit of a shocker. Initially i don't mind till i keep seeing him driving back and forth like some mad cow disease for this bitch..and i don't like it because my father is in his early 50's and in no shape to do things like this anymore and of course i worried for his safety but it seems nobody else except me care about this issue..therefore i hated her. I hated her because she doesn't seem to realized the man got kids, a son that loves him enough to not wanting anything to happen to him..

but not her..sadly enough..and even more sadly..not even him..

But some part do want to look at this with open mind and arms because one of these day[if] I bring home my girlfriend, i would want my parents to welcome her with open arms too right..how can my dad be happy for me if i can't be happy for him. This open minded person of me was a short period, the more i think about it the more i get fed up..fed up to the point that if i ever meet her..God only knows what will happened to her.

Sometime i really tried to be as supportive as i could for my father or anyone i know that found so called "someone special" because i know the feeling and the moment and the joy when it happened.. but sometime it hard to do so when every inch of your body and your instinct says otherwise. As much as you want to tell that person that it ain't gonna work, one have no choice but to sit and watch helplessly.

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Cowboys & Aliens Review

The director from Iron Man was not able to bring the same magic into this movie neither could Daniel Craig because his character is just plain empty..Harrison Ford is the only thing worth watching.

The movie is decent paced and shallow and dry just like the desert of their location..Disappointment

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I've Rent My Second House

I rent out this house in early August and a week later after calling the owner for the first time, my first co-broke ever with my colleague.

He has the customer but i found the house and together we collide to 450 per month, pretty cheap for a double story terrance house

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The item that always come to bed and sleep next to me every night..

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At World's End

We are living 2011 to the fullest for next year might be the last year of human civilization..after that, we're roasted to ashes as we hold our loved ones hand and kiss our ass goodbye. Needless to say, half of the people in the world don't believe this while the other half does the opposite..to be honest, i was it does..

Looking at the world for skyward high..looking down and the world is not like how it used to be anymore, it's getting dirtier and more gruesome and there ain't nothing we can do because we human are the destructive machine that cause such catastrophe. The world is no longer a place where walking down the street at nighttime is safe anymore, not for men, not for animal and especially not for women..look at what we have become..

Recently there's been alot of videos on the net showcasing humans demonstrating brutality on animals, most noticeably puppy. The heart breaking videos that i've seen breaks my heart personally to see us treating animals like that, and they said dogs are men's best friend..if only the animals knew..I don't want to get into detail but y'all know what I'm saying. It's such a sad place now for me to see that 20 years ago when i was born..the world was at least a place where i can live, now i can't even breathe anymore.

Not that I'm being sentimental but just being realistic..this ain't the same world i grew up in therefore to make my connection between all these crap and world's end is that i somehow somewhere selfishly wish the world will end next year so that innocent life including animals won't have to survive anymore. There's no way to get rid of all the evil in this world so the only way to kill all of them off is by destroying the main core..earth..we'll die too but at least we're in heaven, i think.

What got me thinking about this was one of my female friend was harassed at a train station the other day, nothing serious at all..just some pervert taking her picture without permission..but things could have been alot worse right. This is exactly what i mean was i say that the world is not what it should to be anymore..I wouldn't want it to happen again nor do i want this to happen to anyone else in the world.

I understand that it's truly selfish to think this way, killing off every other human being who have a life going on but I'm being the bigger person here saying that the world will just keep getting worse and worse from year after year and so on..What is scarier than supernatural stuff like ghosts, us..humans..

This is maybe just me..maybe against the world..

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Farewell James

A soldier in our company has desired to put his rifle here and deploy to another station in Kuala Lumpur, he's may not be the best but we still lost a good soldier..

I can never see myself working as an agent in KL, with the constant battle with traffic and hot weather..making appointment will be bloody impossible.

I read that KL market value is insanely high compared to here in Melaka..example for a double story terrance house here in Melaka is only about 200k while in KL is maybe around 400k above..see the difference..

Anyway, my colleague James will be leaving us and the company behind for a life in Kuala Lumpur, i wished him all the best though only know him for about 9 month..time flies, stay sharp..

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Marriage

Anybody who knows me long enough knows that i think about having a little girl of my own more than anything, anyone who knows me enough knows that i think about marriage more than wedding..

I will officially say it..i hate wedding, i think they're stupid and a waste of money with time..it's brainwashed, it's too much chick flick with popcorn and too much wedding article around..completed brainwashed. Like the wedding post i mentioned, wedding to me is not important at all, i would rather spend all my money and effort or thought into my marriage A.K.A the life that me and my [wife] build together..soon..

I don't think i need to tell y'all what is a marriage but i would like to point that how many fail to see that this part of life is the most important one rather than focusing so much on wedding. Marriage to me is the real actually wedding..the time where life will be a roller coaster ride going up and down and how it ain't like all fancy dressing, wine drinking, laughter and expensive food those kind of thing, it's the real deal..

Spending so much money on one day putting up fake smiles and inviting thousand of weirdo who comes only for cheap food and cheaper wine..when one is getting married, they'll come but when one is going through a divorce, will they come? I laughed at people who married fast, thinking marriage is a walk in the park..snap them back to reality.

I take marriage very seriously, given the fact that my parent's marriage drop dead in front of my eyes, i got lots of prove to myself and the whole world that i will not share the same fate as my parents..divorce is not an option at all. Despite so i'm not planning to get married anytime soon since i'm barely surviving with my jobs and all..if i never find the right girl then i'll never get married as simple as that..

I cared bout marriage more than wedding..fuck wedding.

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Downhill

I'mma cut to the chase..July has been a terrible month for me, i don like it and hated it. I had high hope for July to be honest, given how June starts off with a bang i was expecting something as good or nearly as good as before..boy oh boy was i wrong..

Pretty much after i gotten the 10k cheque, life slowly went down the toilet like a quick flush..I only managed to get half a commission for one of my house, dad was acting like a bitch, business was dry like grass, i lost a few houses and a lot more to elaborate. I grateful for the 10k and i kinda have a feeling that with a huge number coming in like that..some sacrifice will definitely be made.

I had secret operation in July which costs me a fortune, after 8 month of hard work..gone and it's painful, in term of losing money. I had a lot going on in my life in July, it was a patience testing moment for me to endure so much in a month..i don't know what's more worse, dad acting like a bitch or having no business at all..winner, no business.

Given how I'm already broke as fuck and to pour salt into my wounds..no business was added in the mix. Guess it's a wake up from God asking me to work harder than ever since i told myself that i want to work harder not only to gain more money but also prove to myself that i can do it by myself in the future..maybe God is actually helping, in a mysterious way?

Anyway, August is tomorrow..and i hope things will be better than July..

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Captain America Review

Captain America is actually better than Thor, entertaining summer fun and have a much better ending than most Marvel movie..

I'm Supposed To Die Tonight

I was walking down the street today when out of no where this giant ass car from the right reverse her car so fast, it nearly killed me..and yes i said HER..

Female drivers.. the most notorious wrecking vehicle machines and human killing prototype on the road, men's most fearful arch nemesis, high competitive and reckless..anyway, that bitch just thought reversing her car without bother to see if anyone's behind, but luckily my spider sense was tickling fast enough for me to slow time down and dodge her incoming..

The bitch just acted like nothing and continue driving off like I'm not even there, i keep staring at her over and over. Now when i think about it, i should have throw at rock at her car hoping the smash at least a window and scratch her door or something..or even kill her..anything to make me feel good.

As my life flashes before my eyes, i thought of all the mixed rice I'll never get to eat anymore, all the beautiful green vegetable, all the delicious meat, and eggs, and squid and potato salad and all. Drool as i may, I'm over exaggerating. Today proves to me that men are better driver, women and vehicle control just don't seem to go together for some reason..

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Somehow, somewhere, somewhat..

I kinda missed Subang Jaya..after spending three years there..

I missed the land where people actually can speak English..

I missed all the hormone rage teenage girls who seems to stop getting themselves pregnant..

I certainly don't miss the traffic..

November..

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Introvert Like Me

Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.
This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.

Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.
Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.

Myth #3 – Introverts are rude.
Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.

Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people.
On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.

Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public.
Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.

Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone.
Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.

Myth #7 – Introverts are weird.
Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.

Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds.
Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.

Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun.
Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.

Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts.
Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race.

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I've Sold My Sixth House

This house was considered sold in April..yes that long ago but..problems keep occurring until finally currently it's done..

First off, this house was sold to the very first customer who saw the house, so hands down this is the fastest selling house in my career so far.

Then first problem was the loan, the customer loan is approved but wasn't as high as he expected so switch from one bank to another till finally he use the owner's bank..this wasted 2 month..

Third problem is that customer will not sign agreement till damage to the house is done, owner finally completed the house for me..wasted another month..

So in conclusion, customers are a bitch..

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Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows Part 2 Review

One. It's good like super duper magical casting spell binding good
Two. The final battle between Harry and Voldermort is over way too quickly
Three. Emma Watson is still freakishly hot

Nicholas:Ice:Ghost

I was born Nicholas Tan Heng Tiam on April 1989..21 years ago..I was born Ghost in my high school year some class in 2004..7 years ago and i was born Ice in college by someone in 2008, therefore Nicholas IceGhost exist in very day as we speak..

I realize that every human being has many different side to themselves and i have divided those personality of mine into 3 different persona.

Nicholas is the kind of guy that is casual, everyday normal ordinary guy doing ordinary stuff in daily life..This is the side of me when I'm just chilling and hanging or doing my own stuff when i'm alone, it rare that i ever act normal but when i do, it's because of this side of me.. basically it's just me being me.

Ice is the kind of guy that like to make people laugh, he's funny and goofy and quirky and silly all in one package and nothing should be taken seriously. This is the side of me that likes to just have good time with everyone around me, laughter is the best medicine after all and not to brag but i think i inherit this joker side of me form my father, the way we both like to talk crap sometime, calling people not by their names..come join the like father like son comedy club, basically everything that anyone loves about me it's this guy's doing.

Ghost is the kind of guy that nobody likes and everybody hates usually when in a bad mood time, pissed off and easily ticked off..not the best type to linger around with. This is the dark side of me that i don't know how to get rid of or at least control it, it's really bad actually..this is the side of me where i realized i have anger issue and maybe it's due to trauma and bullies that i became this way. Sometime it's hard to cage in such emotion when it's part of me despite trying to..luckily i don't turn green though.

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