Jamie's Rejection

Everybody hates rejection, everybody loves being accepted..

So here's a true story about the only girl i've ever rejected..now i know there's nothing proud to brag about here, but then again people are always intrigue to read about these kind of things, it always seems to get more view than any other subject..and because it's totally surreal for me..you'll see how.

There was this girl called Jamie [ love that name by the way] who i met at my high school, I'm not going to describe how she looks like because there's a picture of her at the end of this post..

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Made you look didn't I, anyway back to the real thing here, so Jamie was in my high school, she was in the first class therefore she is smarter than me, no surprises there..and she speak English, a must have for me..plus she stayed near by my house, but of course i didn't know that only after sometime later.

So if u read my earlier post titled "Ugly" you should know the story about this girl that was in the same class with Jamie that i liked, but rejected me..I was totally cool with it but she bought me to a party to further embarrass me..I am still cool with it. So here's the B side of the story, me and Jamie were at that party with some friends too as well, so me and 2 other guys were men wrestling each other, not serious one but rather just playing in a sense, so..nobody got hurt or broken, please don't stop reading at this point or i will..do nothing..

As we were men wrestling each other, but i think because girls are not used to the fact that boys play with each other this way due to the popularity of WWE Wrestling at that era, so they think we are actually hurting each other, so she just said " don't hurt him la ".. him as in me. So one of the guy said " why, you like him or something " and she actually said " yes "..And that was my shocking part.

The reason it was surreal to me was because a girl from the first class could liked someone like me from the third class, not to mention someone who got rejected by the girl who bought me to that party, she's a fully A student, i'm a one A student..so it was a totally surreal moment and in reply i said this..

" .............. "

That's right, i said nothing..i actually said nothing, not that i have something to said but saying something is way better than just keeping my mouth shut. I total crush Jamie's night after that moment..she didn't say a word after that..and basically just waiting and dying to go home..i was still in shocked mode, if someone touch me at that moment, they could get electrocuted. For someone who talks a lot, i can't put 2 words together for her, pretty much that was the last time i saw her, she transferred to a different school and never seen her since.

They say the silent type of rejection is possibly the worse case rejection one could ever get, is this true..i've received the reply back rejection before, God that was awful enough, so I still some time thinking about that party night, thinking how maybe just maybe we could have at least keep contact if things happened another way, but if thing really did took off, I have a feeling it wouldn't last long because that's just..me..

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Hope everyone can find someone that can make them smile..

Stupid People Stupid Videos

People love to put video of themselves doing unbelievable stupid things, to the point where some would considered as dangerous, disgusting and down right ludicrous, take for example..

There was the infamous video called 2 girl 1 cup that involved 2 girls eating shit, puking into each other mouth, causes a massive fuzz all over the world. I saw the video and was truly disgusting but then again i always knew that Japan is full of weird people despite believing they have a beautiful culture..

Then there was the more famous video wish i never knew, call pain Olympus or something, i forgotten the title sorry..The video involved some guy cutting off his own penis..now that..i couldn't continue finish watching due to intensive graphic violence..i wouldn't recommend any dare devil to go watch it either..cause serious..woo~

Now the recently famous one, girl killing innocent small animal in front of camera..here's what they said:

Recently, the video of a girl senselessly killing a baby rabbit appeared on the Internet. The cruelty provoked Netizens’ great anger towards the rabbit killer girl. Many of you thought this was just an isolated incident, the girl was probably mentally ill. However no, the truth is behind her cruel acts there is an interest group by the name of “Crush Fetish”. Including those other girls appeared in the video are all members of this group of abusing and killing various small animals. The goal of making these sick videos is to make profit; they make the videos into DVD discs and sell them to foreign countries. Prior to this, there were already videos of a mid-aged women abusing and killing cats, rabbits and dogs on the Internet, she was just one of them.

After the rabbit killing video was released to the public, one netizen talked to me in details about these videos of killing small animals and about the insider profiteering group. He said that he had monitored the group secretly for 6 month in order to expose them. Due to the group being very secretive and exclusive, he had no progress for while. After a long period of time, he finally obtained some chat records between the group members, images and also many videos of them abusing and killing various small animals.

http://www.chinahush.com/2010/11/22/uncover-secrets-behind-the-rabbit-killing-girl/

What on earth has earth become?

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Envy / Jealous

+ I envy that..
+ I envy the fact that he's more superior than i am..

- Therefore i hate knowing that i never stand a chance against him..
- Look at him..
- Look at me..

x I'm jealous to the point where i don't like him..
x Everytime i hear his name..
x Despite not even knowing him..
x Fuck him..

* Spending more time with him now..
* Sooner or later..you'll see..
* It will changed..
* You just don't believe me..
* But i do..

For once i will let a song do the talking for me..I just can't find words to say it..Look at my post, Jesus..

There's a line in there that i really liked..guess when you hear it, it's pretty obvious which line is it..

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One Ticket Please

I started watching movies in cinema only when i was around 17 i think..before that, it was either from CD or Astro..and ever since i started watching movie in cinema..it has become a rather tradition way that every new movie comes out has to be seen in the cinema..

The big flat screen, the crowd among us, the popcorn, the surround sound, the entertainment of the show, the laughter together..that's why it's best to watch movie in cinema, if you think watching Avatar through CD is the best way possible, doctor needs to check your head then..

Anyway, i have always watched many movie on my own, and people seems to either find that sad or weird, something like abnormal..i don't know why.

I watched most of the movie alone for many reasons, not their type of movie, schedule conflict, no money and some other shit as well..I prefer to watch some by myself because it's easier to arrange, my choice..my way..having to commit to everyone else favor just takes too much time.

No offend though, it has nothing to do with not liking the company, I'm just used to it..I don't find it sad or weird like my friends do, i'm just used to it..besides, the reason i bought the ticket is to watch the movie i wanted, not to chit chat with people beside me.

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Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows Part 1Review

Beautifully filmed but felt like it could have been shorter cause of some unnecessary scenes..

Let Me In Review

Let Me In is surprisingly good, scary and has a fantastic haunting score..Chloe Mortez [girl in pic] is abosutely brilliant in the movie, and the chemistry between Abby and Owen was well done..me likey overall..

Simple English

One of the thing that bugged me the most is seeing phony act like they know how to speak English, when clearly..well..they don't. Since i grew up in a English educated family, it really bothers me when someone acts like they really do know how to speak English, it doesn't bothers me if you can't, it bothers when you can't yet you act the opposite way..

I met a lots of people whose English are just plain laughable, they can't even speak simple basic English, so instead of being frustrated by their faking performance, i went and have fun with them..I remembered there was this Malay teacher that i "had fun" with..I asked her what time is it..and she said "I'm sorry i don't have the clock" while looking at her wrist..go figure. Here's another memorable scene, a malay guy told me specifically that GIRL is spelled as GRIL..go figure that too..that is when i realized I'm in a school full of dumb broad with no basic English knowledge, don't to sound arrogant but..i felt like a king in English classes.

I remembered that i always ask my mum why are we in Malaysia when we can be in America solely based on the fact that we clearly can speak English better than any of these bums, so why wasting time here..unfortunately no answers were given..It's hard to find people that can speak good English in my neighborhood, cause it's bad enough that none of my Malay friends can speak a single proper word of English, i felt like if i keep rotting Chinese with them constantly, their bad English could have a side effect on me too.. so i was kinda surprised when i first enrolled in SEGi College that 90% of the people there can speak good English, for once in my schooling history, i felt like home.

This post is dedicated to the girl who wore a shirt that says 你为什么看我 which means "Why Are You Looking At Me", instead it wrote "Why You Look Me"..see what i mean

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Learning Chinese

I grew up in a English educated family..my father speaks English, my mum speaks English, my sister speak English and i of course does the same..Growing up i don't know Chinese at all, so i was send to a Chinese kindergarten [ i think ] when i was young, having to learn how to speak Chinese by myself and not being able to have mum's guide on it was..err..difficult i think..

To be honest i cant remember how i was to learn Chinese by myself..tuition perhaps..must have been something like that. Throughout those days i think the kids around me must have trouble understanding my tone and pronounecation of it..But seriously, i can't seem to dig up my brain and find any memories of me learning Chinese, probably because the process of learning it was so horrific that my brain just decided to totally removed any memories of it..

Of course like every normal human beings, boys at least..if we were to learn a language without any guidance or taking classes or learning from books or everything like that at all, we are most likely to only interested in learning the bad words..why, because if someone fuck u up with their bad words, you'll have some weapon of swearing language at your disposal too..Eventually i pick up these word more and more and gradually it just become part of men to men conversation..there won't be a sentence where there won't be a single bad word..so like i said, at least for boys, we tend to learn shit like this faster and more passionately..

But i do thanks my parents for sending me to a Chinese educated school, otherwise i would have some communication trouble with most people, since most people rather speak Chinese rather than English and don't even get me started on goverment with their blind mind thinking that Bahasa Melayu is still the main universal language..

But eventually i repay my parents back by quitting Chinese in Form 3, just feel like i had enough it. It's basically the same thing years after years, and besides, taking Chinese out only give me more freedom to do other dumbass subject like History and Add Math..

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Hospital Mummy

Mummy had a bad sickness today, she woke up looking like Satan's missus from hell..it's weird because she just had this really bad fever, headache, chest pain and what not happened this morning..

SO i drove her to the clinic but turns out it was closed, so i drove her to another clinic and it was close too then the 3rd clinic was opened..but doctor need to go to a hospital to check up and take blood sample because they're afraid it might be Denggi. So i drove Satan's missus to the hospital and the smell of hospital bring back fond memories of my days spending in a hospital..screaming, yelling, crying, bleeding and torturing, it's all coming back to me now..

Anyway, the doctor it might and might not be Denggi but she needs to stay in the hospital for God knows how long so this shit means my allowance will get cut..Anyway, i drove back to my sister and bring her to the hospital as well to stay there for a couple of hour till our next visit tomorrow..I'm gonna be doing lots of driving these few days. She gets a room with only one bed meaning she gets the whole room to herself, and not only that but one of Astro's channel as well..lucky woman.

So everyone of us in the house has been admitted to the hospital before one way or another..it's like a never ending cycle of hospital visitors..me for my operation when i was young, my sister for her asma, my dad for his car accident and now my mum for her yet to be confirmed illness, ah..the tradition continue..but the winner is still me, yes me..me and only me..one and only..for spending nearly a year in a hospital..

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Sibling Rivalry

Why does 2 people who lived in the same house fight..why does sibling always fight..why would God made me then made me another someone to create conflict with me..why would God put a snake and a pig to become sibling..why would God want blood shred to happen between a brother and a sister..why rivalry..

My guess would be because 2 people spend so much time together that lighting and thunder is bound to collide every now and then..the thing is..why must it happen..why can't it just skip that colliding part and just continue..I guess divorce is kinda the same reason why it happened..2 people spending too much time together, especially a Venus and a Mars..shit is just gonna take off..

Me and my sister just got into a fight not too long ago..this shit will last a few days to cool off..I'm a snake and she's a pig..see the terrible irony? The Chinese saying says that snake and pig are mortal enemies, and out of all the animals, the snake ends up wit a pig for a sister..why did it happen..of course something like..everything happened for a reason will be the response if you ask. I guessed maybe because my dad is a dog and my mum is a dragon..therefore i suffered the same fate..Dog and dragon are also mortal enemies according to the Chinese.

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Secret Girlfriend

I have this weird feeling back in 3 years ago and just now the same feeling occured again..It's a feeling that is hard to feeling and yet at the same time disturbing to tell and horrifying to know..You know the feeling when deep down somewhere and somehow you know your instinct is true but sometime you wish it wasn't..but yet it is..this is one of those moment..

I believed that my father has a secret girlfriend, now i called it secret because he never tell me about it, not because he's cheating behind my mum's back, they divorced..so he's a free bird..There is no confirmation about this, but i can just feel it..underneath my skin, inside my vain, within my bones, flowing through the blood..I just have a weird feeling about this..

You know how i think it's true, just now not too long ago, my dad posted some girl picture he knows on Facebook saying " My Beautiful Babe " Now will any normal guy randomly called a girl beautiful babe for no reason other than he's interested in her..exactly my point..this is what makes me feel like my dad has a secret girlfriend that i think only his friends knows about..Here's go the true and false possibility here..

True..if it's true..i don't know if i can accept it..i mean how would you feel if one day you find out your dad secretly has someone else in his life that you're not aware of..and suddenly out of nowhere, it comes out..can you handle it? I don't know if i can, I'm not saying i absolutely can't..just don't know about it. False..if it's false which i highly doubt so then it's ok..everything neutral then..

This whole thing is a bit weird for me, the only thing I'm wondering now is..if he met her 9 years ago..could she be the reason the marriage failed..

I bet most of y'all viewed this post because of the title ain't it..y'all thought was about me..

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