Bye Bye 2009 Hi Hi 2010

Blog And Facebook
Created a blog and a facebook account for myself, though intially at first i did not want either one, thought it was lame..well, guess i joined that lame-ness myself now..and i must admit, having a blog and facebook ain't so bad after all.

Work
Finally it has reached the Semester where we have to take our internship. I had my internship in KL..1 hour and 45 minute journey..work there for 3 month, 350 per month..was really tiring working there but glad it was all over already..

Music
This year totally lack of ne music..really really lack of new music, i had to dig through old songs just to give my ears something different to listen to, but only Eminem's music is worth mentioning since i'm a big fan of him, so glad that he's finally back..more than 20 new songs from him in 2009, another 20 more is coming in 2010, awesome..no new Jay Chou music this year though, he's the only chinese artist i listen to, so would like to hear his new material now please..

Movie
Every year is pack with enormous amount of movie..this year was no different too, except during August till November with lacked any good movies..was dry bored of movie during then, had to watch a bunch of crap ones.
My Favourite Top 5 Movie Of 2009
1. Avatar
2. Transformers 2
3. Star Trek
4. 500 Days Of Summer
5. Sherlock Holmes

Biggest Surprise
There was no dramatic surprises that happened to me this year, but if i had to chose one, i think it will be..me reading book..i hate books, i don't like to read and yet due to boredom, reading was the only way for me to burn time..poor me~

Biggest Disappointment
Eagle Point not hiring me..i really wanted to do my internship at that place, waiting for crazy for a reply, and the reply was "no"..well i guess it's ok cause i guess everything happened for a reason..

Friends
Met a few new friends during my internship, most of them are from MMU-Andrew, Kison, Joyce Alex, Tong, Ling, Jia Yong..those were good time. Had a gathering with my old friends in Melaka Raya, felt quite like high school again with those people, had not seen them for 3 years..though intially my friend's plan was to get all of us talking, together, but instead we're still feel closer to those we talked to the most..Last but not least, met a special friend, J..only through creating this was i able to meet her, she found me first, so this whole friendship thingy..i blame her for it, haha..

2010 Ahead
What i want for 2010, i only want happiness and be healthy, anything else is up to God to decide whether the time is right for me..i let fate decide my life.Stop Worrying and Start Living..

Sherlock Holmes Review

Went to MBO to watch Sherlock Holmes and was impressed again and again by the actor who played Sherlock, Robert Downey Jr..i thought the movie was pretty good and his performance was believable..it's has being a while since any good detective movie has being released for a long time..and i feel so "holmes" again with this movie..overall, it was good and entertaining..wishes to see a sequel as soon as possible..

Old Friends...

Went to Melaka Raya today..to meet old friends..went to Eilyki Music Cafe..chat up with old friends, i'm not really close with some of them, so instead of having everybody chatting with chatting..we all end up chatting with a few all night only..the boys all chat at one corner of the table, the girl all on the other side of the table..

THE GIRLS
THE GUYS

THE GUYS FROM NILAM CLASS
POSIN'

NO CAMERA ALLOW

ME AND MEI YI ME AND RACHAEL

ME AND NANTHA HOLDING HANDS

MIDDLE FINGER

FORMING A BAND

THERE WAS NO MIC AND I WAS NOT SINGING

AFTER CAME HOME
there will be more picture coming soon..as soon as my friends upload it on facebook..i'll post it here..expect to see some surprising pictures

Nicholas Tan April 6 1989

Was diggint thru some old photos and thought i show you a sneak peek of 20 years of my life.

My dad and mum when they were young..before it all became something else..

A natural born pianist..haha, ya right..no no..it's not true, i can't play..tried to learn from sister, but it's so freaking hard..

I spend nearly a year of my life in that damn freaking hospital for kidney operation..my dad spend countless of money and nearly a year of his life staying there with me..i hate that place..My mummy and i..the woman who birth me and nurse me..i will always be a "momma boy" till i die, that way she will never feel alone.

My dad and i..the man who will buy anything i want..Nicholas Sr and Jr..ready to be that dragon's meal..As an example of anything i want from daddy when i was a kid..look at my freaking Ultraman collections..i had Ultraman fever when i was young..crazy ultra maniac..My first bike..with McDonald toy collection..mum taught me how to ride it..

My sister and i..born in Johor..the little girl who will grow up driving her brother crazy eventually..

The dynamic duo..the children that will drive their mum crazy..and their dad, well, he was smart enough to leave the house and rather go to work instead..

Twenty years later..the final version of me..the sarcastic asshole..Nicholas Tan!!

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As for bonus feature..My Sister.......Even i thought she looks cute in this picture..she will kill me if she finds out about this picture being here..

Here 14 years later..no picture..she wouldn't let me take one..so a video instead..

Nokia N97 Mini

After i came back from watching Avatar yesterday, found my dad had bought me a new phone..again..this is Nokia N Series N97 mini..previously i was using N85..He bought two of them, one of him and another for me..i swear to God, i told him to never buy me another phone and he wouldn't listen..

Avatar Review

I went to watch Avatar today..after waited for a so long, and been hearing a lot of hype and praise for this movie..i wanted to see if the hype is real or not..and it was..

Here's the bad and good part of this movie:

Bad~few dragful scene..only a few..

Good~Pandora is an amazing world, funny and sharp script, visual effect is beyond anything i have ever seen, acting performance is fantastic..especially Zoe Saldana who played Neytiri..her acting really blow me away, soundtrack is outstanding and the final battle which lasted about 20 minutes..EPIC!!

Overall for a nearly 3 hours movie, the whole production is superb..even my mum was impressed..highly recommended..must watch it in 3D..

Akward

Define akward~a moment where two people are not comfortable with each other's presence.

Today afternoon, i have to buy lunch for my sister..as always..so as i was paying for the food, i stumbled across one of my old friend who live a few houses in front of my house..we saw each other and gave each other that's "i can't it's you" look..i waved but he just stood there and smile away or something.

Suddenly the feeling of akwardness rush through my whole body so instead of going to him and talk, i just grab my food and walk home..I just couldn't and wouldn't want to talk to him for some reason..it's just feels so akward..and i really don't know why i feel that way.

This is definitely not the first time i walk away after stumbling across an old friend. When i was in Subang, i came across my high school friend, he's a football player..i was walking and we both saw each other, he was with another friend, we both waved...then i walked away without even saying hello or anything to him..again, during that moment, akwardness occurred.

The question is this, is it just me or do others feel like this sometime..if it's just me then i have major problem next time in the future..Before even jumping to a future far far away, i have a gathering with my high school friend on 23 December..will i survive that day, i don't know..

I really don't know man..y'all leave a comment if you like.

Unfaithful

Recently i read about Tiger Woods affairs with another women..it's crazy..the guy's crazy..he ruined his own career. See the thing is that not only did he cheated, but he cheated with 13 different women..13..from what i read is categorized from cocktail waitress all the way to porn star..i'm not totally sure whether it real or not real about these women..but damn Tiger..

See what i don't understand is this, you are famous, you are rich, you have big house, big cars,a wife and kids, people look up to you and respect you..yet you wanna go to all these stupid things[i'm not talking about Tiger]..why would you do such a thing Tiger[now i'm talking about him]..If i were his wife, i would have just leave him forever..i feel pity for the wife and kids..can't imagine how she can pull this through.

See i think some people are just ungrateful and disloyal..Some people just like to do shit like this when they already had someone, and knowing the fact that, shit like this will been exposed someday and it will hurt. Some people just don't know how lucky they are when they found love, cheating behind someone else's back..it's pityful..Guess saying those 3 words means nothing actually, talk is cheap and action speaks louder than words..


Anyway, put the feeling of being cheated aside and let me introduce to you a movie called "Unfaithful"..pretty enjoying movie..not encourage to follow the cheater's footstep though..

and a song from Rihanna's Unfaithful..

6+4=10

Next year is gonna be a good year..i know it will..at least i hope it will..hpping it will, wishing it will, i mean..why wouldn't it be right? just look at my birthday 6 of april 2010..it perfect match..well, just my nonsense theory anyway..

All i wants for next year is happiness and healthy and not really anything else..oh more games..but if God have something good planned for me this year, i of course won't mind having a taste of it..

Anyway..2010, here i come..

I Loved My Wife

haha, bet i got all of you right with the title, i bet all of y'all click and open it just to see what's all the fuzz about Nicholas's wife..suckers..

Actually the real title is "I Loved My Life"..my life, the ups and downs, in and out, left and right, black and white of my life..you know throughtout 20 years of my life, there's a lot of crazy shit i went with..and though sometime all we can think about is how much life sucks. But we hardly ever get our head straight and take a minute to think..our life is so much better than some poeple's life out there..

Some people had suffered more than we had, and do they complain, of course yes, but they still live it like it's okay, everything alright style..that takes a lot of positive attitude. We have a house, a car, food and clothes, education in our school, yet all we do is complain and whine..it's really a bad habit..Life is all about ups and downs, we must give a little to take a little, it's just how it works.

We've all complain about our life not being fair on us..but sometime, try to look at the bright side..i saw this video once about this guy, he has only a torso and a head..the end. No arms and legs and yet, he has no problem being happy and just living..such an inspiration, we all ought to be like him..learn from him..his positive attitude at life is exactly what i'm talking about. If it were to happen to either one of us, i bet we would have just gave up on life, wouldn't we?

So i wanna just take this moment to thank God for everything that happened to me in my life..everything that happened has a reason for it to happen.

Look What My Paternal Grandmother Turn Out To Be

So it turns that my paternal grandmother is a totally bum..that's right, a lame useless bum..

oh dear Nicholas, how could you say such a thing, how rude?

Well i don't care..see turns out today after having a little discovery from my mother, my grandma ain't the real person i thought she was. Actually i don't really know anything at all about her, till now..

My mum said that she used to be spoiled her sons constantly, including my father of course..Last time when one of my uncle did something wrong, instead of her teaching them a lesson, she gave him a few money and him to run away from home and hide for a few days, so my grandpa won't whoop his ass..can't you believe that? And i found that there also a "Chris Brown" in my family..my third uncle, yes..he beat his wife months after she gave birth to their first child and what my grandma said? she said this..

It's okay la, this kinda of things happens all the time, husbands beats wives all the time..

She doesn't know how to do or say anything, OMG..and that uncle of mine..sigh, i can't do anything since he's my uncle, otherwise i would have beat his ass to hell..i hate abusive men! There was this one time when my mum was still pregnant with me, she asked whether it's a boy or girl? my mum said it's a boy, then she said good, boys are better, girls are useless..wow..my mum was so pissed off during that moment, i could even imagine the tension of that second. Wonder what she thought of when my mum had my sister? my sister said she wants to kick her ass too..

Maybe she wasn't taught or bought up right by her parents or something, either way what she said here is just wrong you know, especially that "Chris Brown" uncle of mine..anyway she's still my father's mum, so i will still show respect to her by all means necessary...only because she's my dad's mum...only because of that..

Please Don't Hate Me..Again

So guess what guess what..my previous post..about those kittens..guess what..you wanna know what happened?..well guess what..let me break it down for you..so guess what guess what..

THEY CAME BACK!!!

they freaking came back..i highly doubt that they came back by themselves..the mum bought them one by one..ah, a mother's love~So anyway after discovering this shit first thing in the morning when i woke up, i had no choice again but to?

that right..*those 3 words again*

I'm really sorry again, i can't apologize enough for what i've done in just two days..for two days i've done nothing but evil deeds. But this time i had to threw them away farther..somewhere their mummy can't find..i'm really sorry..i feel so guilty because they're so cute and now their mummy can't be with them anymore and they will probably starved till death..forgive me again for i have twin sin.

I'm gonna have kitten nightmare tonight..life is shit..i mean just imagine..what if you're the mummy cat and someone threw your kids away and you'll never find them again..

Please Don't Hate Me..

There was this 3 kitten in the back of my house..i didn't know what to do with it..i ask my dad what should we do with the kittens..guess what he said..

Throw them away..

I'M SORRY!!!!!!!

I'm sorry to all pet lovers or cat lovers..please don't send people to kill me..if you know my address that is..please don't curse me either..i didn't mean to..but what am i to do right?

I can't keep them..and i can't just keep one of them and throw the rest away, that's insane..i felt so guilty after what i did..

i put the 3 of them in a plastic bag( i didn't tie it up) and put them somewhere outside my home..with their mum..i'm so sorry..please don't hate me..forgive me for i have sin.

What Ever Happened To You?

When i was young, very very young..i think about maybe 4? 5 years old maybe? i met this..Caucasian girl. Her father is a friend of my grandfather..i really don know a lot of anything about them at all..but i remember this girl..this Caucasian girl.

I don't remember how she looks, i don't remember her name, i don't remember if she an Australian, English, or America or whatever, i don't even how old she was back then..but this is how i remembered her..my mum.

My mum keep teasing me..last time..a lot about this girl..she said she kissed me or something..i don't really remember unfortunately..so the point not about the kiss..it's was too young to even call it illegal..it's about who this mystery girl is. She may not be important..but it'll be cool to meet her again..i don't have any foreign friends, so it will be so cool to have one..if only we were still keeping in touch with each other.

Only a fragment of memories about her..so i wonder whatever happened to her?

Make Up Break Up Wake Up

This year is a very unfavourable year for love my people..a lot of my friends are going through break up this year..here and there, everywhere i'm getting that this couple is breaking, those couple are breaking..

Recently some of my friends was torn apart by love..some crazy stuff, such a broken person right now..watching him being like this is difficult..Breaking up can be a real serious pain to anyone, especially if you really thought that that someone is "the one"..and that you love and care so much about her/him.

Breaking up is really not easy, i've been through some break up myself and i can say that it's no east task, getting someone off your mind that you have spend moments of your life with is hard..difficult..in fact..

Today, i went out with my friend who just broke up with his girl..though he act like he's happy, calm, normal and all..deep down, he really broken into pieces. I swear to God i know exactly how he feels..fragile, vulnerable, heartaching, not focus, moody..love can be so beautiful yet it can do so much damage to a human being. Anyway, i just hope he's feels better soon..told him to get occupied with hobbies and job to keep his mind off her. We all have been through his shoes before, haven't we..

But the reason we all do break up is just something we have to go through in life..we shouldn't hate all these people but rather we should thanks them for being our "lesson partners"..Everything happen for a reason and break ups are no different. Everyone we had loved has someway taught us a lesson in life and love both..eventually when it's all set and done, we will guarantee meet the right one..when time is right.

For those who had break up from their love, no worry..love will find it's way to you again..

Insomniac

It's 4.20 a.m. in the morning and i am not asleep..why?

I have no idea actually..it's a bloody habit of mine. This is the second time i have stood up awake instead of being asleep like everyone else. I don't know why sometime i couldn't sleep..sometime i do know why..it's cause of something that bothers me like my family's thing, other time i just don't know why.

I'm up here, typing this post, thinking of a real reason behind my insomnia. Sometime my brain is just too stubborn, it's like it has a little brain inside my brain, that is telling him to stay awake instead of going to sleep. Maybe the reason too could be because i like to think..too much at times. I'm my own little director when i'm trying to sleep..meaning..i like to think of shit everytime before i go to sleep..in result?..

End up not sleeping at all..rolling on bed here and there..

I'm afraid this could turn into something even more worse as time pass by..I don't want to have to take sleeping pill for christ's sake. so please please little brain..let me go to sleep..

Boys With Toys

I was watching this video and realize how much girls hate it when their boyfriend spend too much time on things like this..it's not the first time i have seen this kind of reaction coming from a girl before.

I have this female friend of mine who has this loser boyfriend who came back from some place after being away from her for some time already and he promised her he wants to spend time with her..but..instead..his friend ask him to join them for some games in CyberCafe..and what did he do?

Video game over his girlfriend of course..

Actually i wanna thank all this people for screwing up because all this shit make me realized i can't be like this too..all these people have sacrifice themselves for people like me to be prepare for what's about to come in the future.

Actually i can already predict that i won't have anymore for games..and it all starts when i have a girlfriend again..It's not that girls don't let us do what we love to do, they just don't want us to put so much time on things like this..

Guys guys guys..guys need to learn to spend more time paying attention to their girlfriend instead of spending time on things like this..Now before the male species decided to kill me..take a second to think..which one is most improtant..a loving caring human being or a machine who you used to burn your time?

Truth be told, I rather have a girlfriend then a game console forever..like i said many times before..it's time to put behind things like this and grow up..As much as i hate to..i have to..I don't to end up like the guy in the video..hahaha

Meeting With The Devils

Today i had an internship meeting with Mr.Sharunizam and Mr.Ching Ping..the devils. At first, my time was 2.45 till 3..total of 15 minute meeting, Q&A and stuff like that..

Was so nervous..as usual..walking around the next room here and there..watching each intern on the other side of the room presenting their work to the devils..the room has a large glass, so we can see through the two rooms.

Some took fully 15 minute to present while others only took a few minutes..i was watching closely each interns mistake before me, in hope that i won't screw up the same way they did.

As my turn gets closer, the tension in the air gets heavier, palm gets sweatier, legs gets weaker, heart pump faster, time tick closer and....it's my turn.

Panic for nearly 10 minute and i end up finishing the faster..in fact, i felt like it all ended too quickly..like literally feels like i got nothing to show for. It only took me like 2 to 3 minute i think to sum up everything i've done in 3 month..plus, i was talking so fast that it makes the whole presentation finish even faster.

This was how the whole presentation feels like..i walked in..hi sir..bye sir..

Not literally..

But that how it feels like..

Anyway, the internship thing is finally official fully completed..everything done.Full Stop

Long Absence

I have not post anything for a week..i was long gone from blogspot..i went disappearing in my hometown..celebrating the joy of internship's done by playing video game, TV, internet and 10 percent of execrise.

Nothing special ever goes on during the last few months of every years..basically the same old same. In a blink of an eye, i realized..it's December already..time flies so fast nowadays. Next year i'll be 21..damn..

Life is pretty empty right now..i bet it's gets even emptier in the next few weeks..

2010 approaching us all..

Ninja Assassin Review

Finally i get to watch Ninja Assassin..it's story is seriusly ridiculous and over the top..but i knew that and i'm only here for the action..and the action is good. Blood and gore, arms and leg flying everywhere..cartoonish violence..Rain's performance is one dimensional, not much facial expresssion at all but his martial arts skill is pretty good though..good enough to enjoy. Overall, it's a so-so movie..nothing special at all.

A Christmas Carol Review

I've always admired Jim Carrey's performance..he is very flexible actor and here in Christmas Carol, he acted multiple character and all of them feels like such a unique character thanks to him. This version of Christmas carol i must say has to be the darkest of all..it's even like a horror movie at time..some might say it's too frightening for kids and i have to kinda agreed..anyhow, the special effect here is spectacular, making some scenes looks exhilarating.

The Day After Tomorrow

Is my last day of internship..finally it's almost over now~.

Funny People Review

This is a very moving movie, it'll aborb you right into it..imagine what will you do when you'll living your life like it's your last second..the movie is also filled with great celebrities like Eminem and Ray Romano..i personally find Eric Bana's performance the best, with his australian accent and his script is really good, he stole every scene he's in..love him here

Gaming

Video games..ah~my favourite past time..after enjoying 20 years of staring at tv screen with button pushing, suddenly i realized that someday, one day, all of this will end..

I grew up with video gaming..it was destined that human and machine are meant to bond together..so i was thinking after so many years of it, how would i ever stop playing it? Especially nowadays where we are living in a technologized(is that even a word?) world where almost everyone from child to adults are playing some video games somewhere..Since i grew up with it, i will be even harder now to do so, i mean it's like giving up my life..

As i grew older, i started to realized that i don't have so much free time anymore like i used to to play my games, and things ain't that cheap anymore. If i remembered correctly, i was living in Kuantan and my family and i were eating KFC and there was this game shop next to me, it got my attention, so i went over there and stood there like a tree and just watch poeple playing it..next thing i knew my dad decided to buy me one too, of course mum didn't want to..and then this is where it all begans..

My primary school years best friend..from standard 1 to standard 6..the reason i wore specs..

My high school best friend..the reason why many pretend to be my friend, the reason i skipped school, the reason i got bad grades..My college best friend..the reason i come back to my hometown for after months in college..

Can you imagine the amount me and my dad spend on these things..Sometime all this will stop being part of my life..I won't have anymore time for these machine no more..it's sad to see them go..but just all my other interests..passion will run out of fuel eventually..

500 days of summer review

500 days of summer is a really really good movie..in fact it's the best romantic comedy i've ever watched..the movie is told in quite a unique way and it feels very original..very creative and fresh..and the ending is truly satisfying. Highly recommend

In This Month

November is here, the month where all SEGi college intern rejoiced because it's the last month of..I-N-T-E-R-N..so fast..it's really really fast actually, i thought it was gonna to be slow since internship was dreadful like hell. They say time flies when you're having fun, i wasn't having fun at all during internship so how come time flew by me so quickly..I'm not gonna complaint cause i'm grateful that it's gonna be over soon..

I still can't believe it's almost over..in one week from today..I'll be free..like as human..out from jail..I remember struggling to have an intern's place in August..was searching high and low, up and down, left and right, here and there for my internship. Countless of rejection hits me before BizAid decided to take me in, it was like a huge damn boulder off my shoulder..i could finally go home.

To be honest, i felt like i learned nothing form this intern at all..the only thing i learnt has nothing to do with internship..and that is how come go to work from my place using public transportation. Besides that, there ain't nothing important that I've learned from BizAid that can help me in the future..not all internship are the same, you might get to learn some or you might not..unfortunately, the latter is for me.

To think about it, i can't believed that i have woke up 5.30 in the morning for 4 days a week and coming back at 9 for the last 3 months..that's crazy, and it seems so natural by the time it's September without even realizing it. Everytime waking up to a dark cold night while everybody are still sleeping and finishing work at 6 and ride the bus for nearly 2 and a half hour just to reach back to "prison" Listen to me complaining about working for 4 days while other have to do it for 5, luckily i took BM classes during internship..if there's a shortcut, always use it.

Once intern is over, we will all wake up to a better morning..we will..


Suddenly, i realize..the real work hasn't even started yet..the real deal has not even begun yet.

Damn..

Teen Pregnancy

Recently i got news from one of my friend that she is pregnancy and expecting to due on May. I was kinda shocked at first, actually who wouldn't be, right..so anyway, the news kinda got me thinking..why do people especially teens nowadays all get married at such a young age..not only are they getting married at a young age, they are expecting a child too..

Teens nowaday are all having Pre-Marital Sex, doesn't the rule of staying a virgin until the day you get married mean anything anymore..anyway how, i'm happy for her since she got miscarriage from her previous boyfriend, and that jackass didn't want to take responsibility and now she has a baby inside of her, this time is with her currently boyfriend. At such a young age, i'm a little skeptical about it..like because she's still studying and so is the boy, so i was wondering if they can juggle 2 things at once..but as long as she happy then i will stand back from ruining her happiness..just hope she knows what she's doing..

This is dedicated to V and A..congratulation and wish y'all the best..if you happen to stumble across this post.

Debra And Me

Oh Debra, oh sweet Debra..how do you ever survive such horrific events over and over again..I mean you're amazing strong that you manage to hold on to it for so long..I salute you. Ladies and gentlemen, i would like to introduce y'all to Debra( in red shirt).. The show is called Everybody Loves Raymond

See her there? ya, she is one hell of a woman..see the old man and the old lady? ya..those two can't stand each other, one will always pissed off the other one anywhere they are, it's like cat and dog, it's like mortal enemies, it's like hatred and anger collide together..it's like my owner and her son.

See one thing me and Debra here have in common is that we both never, of course never want to live in a place where freak show is present almost 24 hours per day..but yet somehow, somewhere we both ended up in the same situation..in the middle of a battlefield between two sexes.Debra married Raymond(guy behind her with pattern clothes) and instead of just getting a husband, she got his whole family living right across them and everyday they will come over and drive her insane..literally..and she lost her temper so many times..why wouldn't she, right?

Now in present day, my own freak show story..see my big fat old owner and her faggot son are like knife and gun, they're always killing each other everyday in their life..that was of course before I'm came in, now that I'm here...they're killing my life too, well technically, they're just killing my ears, for i have to listen to their fucking nonsense argument everyday. Sometime i wonder if the mum and the son are meant to have each other, because i have never seen a mother and a son fight every single godamn day in every godamn month in every godamn years..it's crazy. Well everything happens for a reason right? yes, and that reason is for me to make this post possible..

Let me start with the son, tall and skinny, full of bullshit is one of the most laziest guy i have ever seen..like after eating, he couldn't even bothered to wash his plate, he'll just leave it there till the next morning for his mum to do. I guessed the reason his mum can't trust him is because of all his thug habits, and because his mum is also another asshole, whenever he didn't do something, he will get accused by his mum for no reason, and so, let the fight start. From what i can see is that he's is more logical than his mum, but because of all his old bad habits, he always end up fighting his mum if though he didn't do anything..but most fight didn't get started by him, but by his mum...

My big fat faggot owner..i think she has some sort of loose wire in her head, because from what I've observe, she's illogical and very childish at times, and is always the one that makes small matters worse, turning something small into a big chaos for everyone, for a 40 something old bitch, that's pathetic. She is very controlling over her son's action, every little detail she has know, the kid can't go or do anything without having to go through all her bloody requirements like where he goes, from what time to time, and if he's late...reason why, how much he spend, if a cent is missing..then where is it, what he bought, who he went out with, i mean like literally everything..man, what a life he has with a mum like this. Plus, when her son tried to explain to her honestly, she wouldn't listen, she act like she knows everything and all, but when in reality, she actually doesn't know shit!! oh ya, she also love to drag other peoples that has nothing to do with the situation in..then when they gave her advice, they end up getting scolding too..this is why I DON'T LIKE TO TALK TO HER.

I've been in her son's shoes a couple of times already..I got accused for something i didn't do(like her son)..i tried to explain to her stupid brain(like her son)..End up still can't get her to see the real picture(like her son)..

There are so many times when i wanted to kill her and don't even care about consequences..

The reason I've finally bring this shit up is because yesterday, as always..they fought..again..I really really wonder if this 2 jackass can be together in the same room without killing each other..because you see, i am like Debra right, i mean when i rent that room, i thought I'll just get a room, but noooooooooooooo...instead, i got a whole freak show right on the other side of the door. I've been part of this freak show for 2 years now, can you believe it? no? either can i...

Sometime life can be so much easier without all these people..this is just 2 of them, i haven't mention the uncle and aunt and her faggot sperm head boyfriend.

The Naughty Me Then..

I don't know why all of a sudden i remembered how naughty i was when i was young..like really naughty..pure evil..bad bad boy naughty.An angel in front of someone then a devil behind someone's back..and the things is these evil deeds makes me laughed out loud when i do it..Let me give y'all some example:

Coka Cola Shower
Me and one of my cousin was playing with another one of my cousin, which is also his younger brother..we ran around my grandmother house and climb up this stair and hide, so the small one was looking us. We were right above him and we took a can of Coka Cola and pour it on him..and he ran to my grandmother and she had to bath and changed him altogether..we laughed so hard then..so naughty right?

Yellow Washing Machine
Again, me and cousin saw the washing machine in the back of my grandma's house kitchen..and me, the evil little twisted mind genius that i am thought of an idea..what idea? pee in it.So i took the stool and stand on it and i peed inside the washing machine while activated..i forgotten what end result it got..hmm..still think i'm a good boy?

Graffiti A Flower Plant
I found a can spray in my uncle's room and i decided to get artistic with it while i have a eye sight target on a flower plant.The spray itself is black color so i went over and spray it on the plant..and i killed it on the spot..i got scolding from himself..there's a devil in me

Water Sister
I was helping my mum watering her flowers for her and my sis was sitting near the flower so again, the evil little boy that i am, slowly watered the flowers from the right side along to the left side and then i watered my sister too like she was part of the flowers themselves..got scolding from mum..bad bad boy

Dr. DogTonator
Found a little tiny tube, those that you can have in a lab..i found one and i start acting like a freaking smart scientist. I took all kind of stupid ingredient from the kitchen, grandma's kitchen to be specific..mix them up and fed it to some dog in front of her house..i think it died after tasting it..i think..i'm an angel in disguise

Coin Diseappearing
Took a lot and i mean A LOT of my dad's coin to play Counter Strike in CC, was very addicted to the game at that time, thanks to my friend who introduced me to it, mix with all kind of bad people there..dad wondered where all his money went..good boy my ass

Re-report My Report Card
I think I'm one of the few kids who have the actual guts to do this shit in life, sign his own report card, need i say more?..good boy gone bad

Grand Theft Stationary
I used steal a lot of stationary stuff from shops..pens, pencil, eraser..shit..I should put on a good boy face and just walk into the store, look around and wait till the shopkeeper is being distracted by other customers..bang..2 pen in my pocket..walked out undetected.There was this one time where i stole a whole lots of shit from a single shop in a single time..walked out undetected..evil little bastard ain't I

I Want My Controller
There was this one time when i did quite bad in my exam, my mum decided to punish me by never allowing me to play game again until the end of the year..so as a game addict that i am, i hack and rack this little drawer where i found where she hid my controller. I pull and push, twirl and swirl and finally pull it out by force..I played my games for a couple of weeks before she found out her drawer is broken. I called it an achievement as this is the first time i managed to find where she hid it..and she is VERY good at hiding my stuff..mummy's little angel no more

Heartbreaker
Breaking a girl's heart is definitely the naughtiest thing that i have ever done and this is only one evil deed that i regret doing..lies after lies after lies..i mean the girl was played like a puppet and karma came back and bite me where it hurts..hey, my name is Naughty, Naughty Tan

See how evil i was back then, am i still evil now? you tell me..

Zombieland Review

This movie is pretty good actually, it's funny, it's exciting and it's gory..it's like the parody version of L4D..As you can already guess from the movie's title..it's about zombie killing spree and instead on focusing on how the mass zombie attack started from, it just jump straight into the action, comedy, romance and fun of it..can't wait for a sequel..

2 Minutes Rain

Okay okay..Today waiting for bus at KL Sentral, as usual..but bus got here early and throughout the whole road home, traffic wasn't terrible at all..what i meant is that there's of course traffic on road, but it's not jammed..
So it was a pretty smooth journey back home and i fell asleep in the bus, so when i woke up near Sunway there, suddenly the hourglass turn upside down and the whole damn is jammed, not any usual type of jam that I've used to, this one is seriously jammed..
So, half way to Summit, there was this Malay girl who decided to walk, so i followed along, since it's only a few minute to Summit..

Suddenly..

It starts raining on me like it has never rain before for the past 100 years..i mean i was walk for like 30 second..it just start pissing down on me like crazy. It was raining bloody heavily, man..like dog and cat..like woof woof and meow meow all over me.
I wasn't prepare for this of course, so i didn't have the enough seconds to take out my umbrella~ella~ella..i am wet literally on the spot..kinda wish i was in the bus now..Maybe this is God's way of saying to me like "Boy, you can choose to take this path or stay where you are.." I chose Path so i got pissed by the clouds..the rain only lasted for 2 minute then it stop..what do you think it trying to say..

The answer: it's trying to say: stay where you are..

Damn, i hate rain..since young..because if it raining, you'll get wet, you'll get sick, you can't go out..sigh, i was inpatient, but what you want me to do, I'm an Aries, we are extremely impatient..

Rain rain go away, don't come again another day~

Law Abiding Citizen Review

Ok, i have never heard of this movie until only recently and since i got nothing to watch, i watch it anyway..First of all, i find the story pretty interesting because you see, Gerald Butler(guy on pic, the bottom one)is a guy turned criminal, he confessed his killing and was send to jail, but even though he's in jail, he can still manage to killed like 10 people outside in the living world from inside the prison..how does he do it..you'll have to watch to find out..
But unfortunately, the 3rd act of the movie was kinda disappointing because i thought they would have an interesting new unique never heard before way on telling how he killed those people from the inside, but instead i get the same type of twist that i've seen before in some other crime movie..

Nevertheless, the whole movie was pretty decent enough to enjoy..

Jennifer's Body Review

Okay, where do i start with this movie..ok, here..i knew from trailer that this is a standard medicore movie and i was right..the cons overwieght the pros here..here how:

Cons~boring story, lame girl fight~especially the last one, lame ending, lack of originality

Pro~surprisingly decent sense of humor, get to stare at Megan Fox for 1 and a half hour.

For those who wants to look at Megan Fox longer but didn't get to in Transformers 2, then go watch this movie then boys..

Paranormal Activity Review

I've heard buzz about this movie for a while already, finally i got the chance to watch the movie..this is a pretty creepy movie..will definitely leave nightmare on you after watching it..go watch it if you dare..
The good thing about this movie is that is start off slow and easy then as the movie goes on, it gets scarier and scarier..by the end of the movie, you will be terrified..this movie was shot in such a low budget way, in 7 days, in the director own home, no spedial effect or sort..yet it has been called by critic "the decade most scariest horror movie of all time"..amazing

Untitled

I fall into you too quickly, so easy..
It's just not right..
I always know it's can't be right,
It's surreal...
But this is how i am..
And you were so pretty..
I couldn't resist you..
I always know someday..this day might come..
Where we walk our seperate path already..
Will i ever talk to you again..i don't know..
Maybe yes..maybe no...
But now...
I'm trying to get you're outta my head..
I hate myself for feeling like this..

Cheah

I don't even know where to start with this..The title is actually referring to someone, a guy, a clown, his surname, another "Nicholas" but his spelling is "Nikolas"..okay okay, I'll just get it out of my systems..

I met this "Nik" when i first arrived at SEGi, he's is in photography department, i met him when we were in foundation, i didn't know him that well at that time until certain events that happened to him triggered me to realized that this guy is carrying my name around the world and making it sound like an "ass" name..let me show you what i mean..

Relationship
The first time i noticed him was when he was dating this girl called Sylvia, one of my friend..he and her were dating during our foundation semester..i remembered one day i saw them walking while holding hand, so i was like.."ok..they're dating"..In a blink of an eye, one day, they're not a couple anymore..then i was like.."huh, so fast..." I mean couple do fight once in a while, but this one was like permenant..finished..over..
Turns out after finding out the truth about what goes on behind the scenes..it turns out that Syl couldn't stand his childish behaviour..no surprise there..At first, she said that he was all sweet and stuff and that he reminded her a lot of her ex, and he was there when she was down..so she got attached to him..ya, right..now, true color's out and she can't stand the real person he is..the relationship only lasted for like 1 week or so..that's not even long enough to called it a relationship..
They have broke up about a year now..and he's always calling her a bitch in front of me, saying how she destroyed the relationship..ok, this is the thing about breaking up, one will always blame the other one for all the shit that ruined the relationship..hello? take a sec to see and think that maybe it's not her/him..maybe it's you..From where i'm standing, this one is definitely him..oh boy, how he has the super ability to make each relationship shorter than the previous one..
Oh ya, couple of month back, there was this girl liked, her name was "jasmine"..after much effort on making her his girl, the girl made him her brother..damn..

Moving on..

Driving Skill
The guy drives his Kembara recklessly, he made history in my Guinness book of record as the only guy i know that can possibly flip a Kembara while turning corner..the car literally flip over..like turtle on the back of it shell..it's an amazing achievement. He and another friend was in the car, luckily for his friend, he didn't die..luckily.After his dad knows this shit, instead of some deep ass whipping shit he'll get..he got an even bigger vehicle now..I don't know the name of the vehicle but imagine a bigger one than Kembara..I was thinking if he flip this one, maybe his dad will get him a tank, let see he pull this one off..
I sat his car so many times, not once i didn't pray to God hoping i'll making back to my apartment ALIVE..the guy is crazy behind the wheel..he told me before" don't worry, i got this Thailand God in my car, it'll keep us safe"..the size of the God is as big as my toe, it can't even protect itself, man..The only reason i sat his car was because, back then when he was still "in the group" no one wanted to sit his car, he feel pity for him, so i sarcificed myself, otherwise this post won't be here now..
My friend, Marcus who only sat his car once, fear for eternity now..i remembered the moment Nik start his engine, Mar was grabbing on the handle, the handle on the top of each side door window..it was so hilarious..it's like pulling the parachute way before jumping off a plane..i'm telling you man, even safety belt can't save shit in that car..

Moving on..

Studies
This guy also has a hidden talent..able to failed all subject in one semester..how many?..erm..i don't know..how about 3 per time..ya, you heard me, 3 subject at a time, but here's the twist..he only had 3 subject at that time..and he managed to failed them all.Here's another twist, he has been doing it since foundation..yes, foundation, the same semester where the "bitch" broke his heart..I wonder why he still continue..apparently he still can't give me an answer yet..Whenever we ask him "when your intern.."..he just "no comment" with us..right now, we don't even know what semester he's in..seriously.
One of SEGi lecturer, Mr.Fauzi..came up to him and question him on his studies..i didn't hear what they talk about, but judging from the face expression, i think the lecturer has gave up on him..i won't surprised there too, i mean, fail after fail after fail, maybe it's time to reconsider your future.I would rather work then to continue wasting my dad's money, it ain't like money grow on trees, you know..plus, he's in photography department..God, that's like the easier department of all, just snap snap a few picture to pass, how hard is that, Peter Parker?
He is always constantly hanging out at the cafeteria doing nothing..back then, when he was still "in the group", he will always make execuses like "no class..", "lecturer just call, class cancelled.."his best known lines..just so that he could hang out with the group..Now, now, i unfortunately have a class with him, BM, and he has the freaking testicles to come to college but not come to class and hang out at the cafeteria, then come and tell us that if anything, come update him..i'm like..fuck no.

Sigh, this guy make me feel like changing my name, man..it's an embarassment to share with same pronouncation but different spelling name with him..People will think we're related or something..shit..

Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatball Review

This is by far the best animation movie i've watched since Wall.E..i highly recommend it..it is very creative, highly imaginative, hilarious from start to finish, truly entertaining..I doubt anyone won't have a blast watching this..

My First Kiss

It was exactly 5 years ago in this month where i had my first kiss ever..now that's a lot of thing in my life that i'll never forget..this is one of them..Now since i was still private and quiet about not revealing my first girlfriend's name, i thought i let this one slide..just for y'all reading pleasure..so thank me later, haha..feel a little shy about typing this..haha..

Her name is Lavinia, she was a student in my high school, she was 2 years younger than me, i was 15, she was 13..i met her through one of my friend, she was mixture of Chinese and nyonya, combined them together, and i got one pretty girl, she was considered pretty to me at least..i thought she looks great. She was supposed to be my friend's girlfriend or something but i don't exactly remembered what happened, but they didn't get it on..but then me and her start to get closer and closer to each other..

I remembered one night we were on the phone talking, i was thinking why don't she come to my place and hang out, you know..so she said what are we going to do while hanging out, i initially joked saying that we can try kissing..haha..i was joking,okay..she knows i was joking too but yet she still want to come over to my place..so i was cool with it too.Next day after school, we walked home together..it was Friday..we reached my place..we sat down for a while, start talking but then suddenly i don't know why i felt like wanting to kiss her, even though i was just initially joking about it..

Here's how it goes, I sat close to her, slowly lean toward her and at first she was kinda shy, so was i..i lean toward her and slowly place my lips against lips and started kissing..gently of course, i don't know how to kiss, right..it was totally embarrassing..but then after a while, we got comfortable with each other and it became much more easier for me to get passionate with her too..haha..(oh my god, what am i typing here...)..We just gently touching each other's arm and waist and stuff like that..but it was sweet and passionate at that moment..we were kissing each other's face off for 2 hour..haha..It feels like "wet" and amazing when my lips first touches hers..it was like the best thing in life i have felt by far..suddenly i felt like i was flying..haha..it was a beautiful memories for both of us, since it's our first kiss ever..the next week to school, my friend were like wondering what wrong with me while her friends was wondering what's wrong wit her, cause we were both smiling like crazy.We became bf/gf during our first kiss.

But things was not going well for us during the 2 month of our relationship, so we broke up..it was difficult since she changed school and we can hardly see each other at all..things wasn't going well..it just had to end..I saw her again 2 years after that, at my working place in Tesco, she saw me while i was serving a customer, she waved, i said "hi.."..we talked for a while, like just catching up..and that was the last time i ever see her again..

Now, what I've learned is that don't ever rush in a relationship, rushing will only bring sadness quicker, i was riding the train too fast therefore it end fast too..should take time slowly to get to know each other even better before jumping into something so "next level"you know..i've learned my lesson..and also don't ever give your first kiss away so quickly, wait till time is right or at least the right guy/girl..otherwise you might regret it later...like me.

Goodbye, lavinia...

Here's is the link about the post on my first girlfriend, for some reason y'all might like to busybody about it..here you go, i got nothing to hide anymore..
http://upghostnpersonal.blogspot.com/2009/09/9-years-ago.html

Chasing The Butterfly

Don't chase the butterflies..the more you chase, the more it flies away..just let it come to you by itself..

Naturally it's very rare that something so beautiful can be in your hand, something so small and colorful, yet so beautiful..it's always so far away from you, but then one day, without realizing it, it flew right on your palm ,suddenly the butterfly represent something precious in your life, something that don't come often, something that only happen to you when you least expecting it.

It's only a matter of time before a butterfly will come to you, and when it does..it's best we hold on tight to that moment of life, every second, every minute, every breath you take, let it be like it's gonna be your very last one there..because in that way, then we can start to truly see how valuable life is and how much we should cherish it.

If you chase it, it'll fly away from you..but if you just stand still, it just might come to you. Don't chase after something you can't have, let life decide what you can and cannot have. We can't always have what we want so just live life naturally and let the rest happen by itself..

Don't chase the butterflies..the more you chase, the more it flies away..just let it come to you by itself..i'm done chasing the butterfly

My Boss Killed My Interest In Video Editing

You know when i first learn how to edit video.. i found so much fun doing it, i actually enjoy cutting and pasting video here and there and playing with their special effect..not to mention able to compose my own sound and create fonts to it..damn..video editing class was fun, i had a lot of fun doing it..idea was constantly generating in my brain, creativity was in the burst of using it..I wish i could show you some of my work, but the files are too big to put in Blogspot or Youtube..so..can't see it..

But that interest has been stabbed, killed, murdered by my boss..he killed it..

Here's the thing, i don't mind doing videos for him, it's my main job working here..but i don't like to keep coming back to the same bloody video over and over again..Imagine if you did this video in August..finished in September to put it in KLCC for display..done right?? no.........
He came up to you and say " let make more changes to the video.."..i'm like thinking in my head "what..make more changes..hell no.." I don't get it, the video is already passed up, peoples have seen it..it has been put out already, right..so why still need to make changes for..what's the point?

Ok, actually there another opening at some places..so that's the reason he wants me to make changes..but what i'm thinking is..why can't we just use the same video you displayed in KLCC and display it again in that new place of yours? i'm so wasting my time here as an intern by doing the same goddamn video over and over..hell, i'm even sick of looking at my own video now..I was so frustrated when i heard that i STILL have to make changes to my video, i was thinking that finally i could do something else now..but no..life ain't that sweet..instead i'm back to what i know, my video...

I feel like cursing..apparently my boss have some stupid chemical in his head that make him unable to make up his mind..one minute he wants this, the next he wants that.. it's October already, man..come on, let's me do something else.I felt like the video will never fully satisfy his hunger, i'm tired of being "his fingers"..and recently he told me that he was kinda disappointed in me because i have been slowing down lately..fuck( i finally cursed) you won't be having disappointment in me nor will i have this frustration in you if you would just have use the completed video in KLCC.See what i mean, do you see how an old man can kill a guy's interest..it's totally crushed, flattened..now i dislike to do video editing anymore..Man, now all i have left is graphic design..God, i think he might kill that too..he is gonna isn't he?

I just got news that i have to do 2 more video..new one this time..God, happy or sad..i don't really know..

See what you've done, faggot..you make me post this.

I-Design

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Here's my paper bag design that i spend 10 days..10 DAYS!! to do..you know why 10 days..because of boss, boss want this, boss want that..going in his office back and forth..change and change..being "his fingers" is no easy task..anyway, this is the final version, expect to see it around in KL in a couple of weeks..he said so to me..

Sense of achievement..nah..

Proud..nah..

Happy..nah..

Neutral..yes..

i'm just glad it's over..can move on to something else..you'll probrably wondering why am i like this..i don't know..i never feel like something like this is worth my time to feel proud..i'm so weird..haha..things i show to people, i won't feel proud of it, things i've done but never show to people, i'm proud of those instead..anyway, tell me what you think..

What Bloggin' Means To Me

What does blogging actually means to me..Well, when i first started off, blogging is nonsense to me. blogging was a waste of time cause you have to constantly update it, and that it's really for people who has nothing better to do, then to sit at home and stare at computer screen all day..well, i became a blogger myself in the end, and guess what..it feels good to blog..so i'm sorry about i said about blog before..i take it back.

Everybody has a story to tell..

Now blogging to me is like a diary i keep, except this one..is for people to view..The reason i blogged is because i realized that someday i'm gonna get old and forgetful and blogging is one of the way i can always look back and see how my life was before. Life is like a roller coaster, up and down, up and down, it's full of shit to post about..and every chapter should be full of stories to read,

No story is not worth listening..

To me, blogging is for me to keep track of events that has happened in my entire life while i'm still breathing, anything that is worth mentioning will be in it. anything bizarre shit that happened will be in it..anything in my past that i recalled will be in it. So, blogging is kinda like my album..Each post in every month is like an album i put out for people to hear, each post itself is a song that contents different things in my life, like a song that tell story, story-teller song..

My song, my words, my stories..

I put it out for y'all to hear, telling you what's in my mind, in my life..so when I'm posting..i say whatever the hell i wanna say, things that bothered me that I'll never say to your face, i'll say it here, things that fucked up my childhood life, I'll say it here, people that pissed me off, i'll piss you back here, you act funny with me, I'll make you a clown here. But i'm not using blog to show hatred, i'm just expressing..because you people's stories are also worth telling to the world..i'm making y'all "famous". But if i post about something once..I'll never post it again..I never post 2 same things in my blog..you'll hardly find the post that has same similarity to one another..I'm always trying to tell new stuff, why talk about the same shit over and over again..

Life is like a chapter in a book, every pages is different..

Blog is my gateway to express feeling like music is my gateway to relate and like games is my gateway to escape from reality..i have expressed some of my darkest secret in here..things i never talked about in public, i only expressed and write them here to tell you how i was back then, how much i wrote down is only how much you'll get out of me, further little detail i will not let it out..meaning I'll always have little secrets in me no one will ever know..Back then when i have difficulty in telling people my problems, has all bottled up inside.. all the little old memories back then has now found a place to unfold it's stories..

Everyone keeps secret..

The title is called "Up Ghost N Personal"..the "Ghost" means me, i'm ghost, my nickname and it has the word "personal" on it..so don't expect me to go soft on topics that are sensitive.i spit however i want to spit..because everthing about my life is worth mentioning..well, they are my stories after all..and these are what I'll be leaving behind me when I'm gone, carrying it on like a legacy, like a dynasty..I would like to open Blogspot 10 years from now to look back at my life and laugh and reminisce at it..

Story of my life, searching for the right..

Jane, if i never had this blog, i would have never met u..^^

Paranormal Activity

Paranormal is a really strange phenomena to me..i personally believe that paranormal really does exist in the world, strange activities that goes on in the world that we have seen and yet unable to figure out an explanation of it.

The reason i believed in paranormal is because i have people throughout my entire life that has experienced such activities.. now before i say anything, I'm only going to talk about one type of paranormal only..ghost. I ain't going to talk about UFO, because that's bullshit, UFO are not real..ghosts are..to me at least.

I have heard of a lot of stories about ghost since young like my mum's friend in Sarawak, which i know too, have being haunted by ghosts since young, she have been possessed by ghost more than anyone could count..and she has the "third eye" or some might say "the sixth sense"..so yea, so that's crazy, that's is hard to live with, imagine not being to go anywhere without having to see one of those things..

My supervisor AKA my big sister, too have experienced such a thing. She told me that she was sleeping when this ghost came on top of her, pressing himself against her, so she pretend that she was sleeping, but then the ghost whisper to her, in Chinese, "i know that you know.."Wow, that's was really creepy when i heard it..

Now i myself has never experience it before..and i hope i freaking never..but things like these really DO exist and though it never happen to me directly, there's always a feeling like somethings around me, like some kind of aura, or a white flash light and stuff, you know..like the feeling that you're constantly being watched by someone or something..an unusual feeling in your heart..ghost sighting..it's really creepy to me..i never go and disturb things like this..ever.

Kinda reminded me that i saw this movie, The Exorcism Of Emily Rose..really really freak me out..This movie really really make me truly finally believe that ghost does exist..the movie is based on a true story about this girl named Emily Rose who was possessed by 6 ghost..i remembered after watching it i couldn't sleep that night..it was really creepy.By the way, Jennifer Carpenter(girl in picture) did outstanding performances in this show.

Now the real reason i bought up this topic out of the blue is because i heard of this new movie called Paranormal Activity. I heard that it has been named as one of the scariest movie of all time, heard it got rave review and people who has watched the show in cinema, came out shaking..physically.It's amazing how people can use so little special effect and so much camera tricks to make an incredible movie..i have not watch it but i really want to, just to see if it's really THAT scary..y'all should check it out too..if you ain't got a weak heart or anything.

Surrogates Review

A decent action movie..decent enough to keep you awake from falling asleep in cinema..but nothing mind blowing or breath taking or breaking new ground..at least it's way better than Gamers.

Venus Vs Mars

They say that men are simple, women are complicated but i think that's only partially true.. i think sometime men are complicated too..but i truly think that men AND women are actually both simple and complicated at time to time.

Complicated Men:

men that required their girlfriend to change their appearance totally so that he can show her off to his friends..like their must have a hot body and ass and boobs..beauty and class..sigh~

Simple Men:

men that just want a caring girlfriend..that's all..haha..

Why women think men are complicated:

Women only think men are complicated because they think men don't listen and have all these crazy sexual fantasies and needs..i just have to say that some guys do listen and fantasies are just fantasies.

My thought:

Hello?? men on earth, do you know that women don't like it when you tried to change them too much, they'll really appreciated it if y'all could accept them the way they are..just like the way they accept you..she ain't a trophy wife you know.

Simple Women:

Women always say this" All i want is just him to love me, as long as he loves me,i'm happy..that's all i need"..actually i think it's true. See, some women don't need men's money with big car big house or anything..all women really need is love.

Complicated women:

Women that likes men that is flirty rich, that can shower them with jewelry and shit..in big house with big car..with expensive vacation here and there..shit~

Why men think women complicated:

Men think women are complicated because they are fussy, difficult, nagging, bitchy and always want to cuddle..is it really that bad if she wants to cuddle?

My thought:

Women only only only wants love AKA thoughtful, caring and attention..a boyfriend's job is quite easy if you learned to master it..is just to pay attention and love the girlfriend..as long as he knows what his girl wants..happy!.

Here's a book about men and women's relationship from John Gray, which i read in Popular a few weeks ago..i forgotten most of it already but the stuff i remembered kinda change my perspective on women..and..why is it that all books like this are freaking "bestseller"??

Example of the difference between men and women from my favourite sitcom "Friends"..the comparison of men and women..men=simple, women=all the things you're bout to see.

Here's a song titled Venus Vs Mars from Jay Z..

~me Im from the apple which means Im the Mac,
Shes a PC, she lives in my lap~Jay Z

Friends Vs Friends

Through our entire life, we always have friends on one corner talking bad about friends the other corner, friends that talk bad about others behind their back, friends that point out their negativity..and i, always end up the referee.

It's funny how 2 people who looks like friends from the outside actually hates each others guts from the inside..people are phony, two face, liar cheat and steal..These few days, i have been hearing people talking about other peoples, and these few peoples are consider friends to each other, it's like suddenly i realized that we are so negative..I'm not going to say out names or anything, don't want to create more chaos than it is through this post. I'm not excluding myself at all, i too, have talk bad about other people behind their back, just never realize how bad it sounds till now..like i said, I'm the referee, I'm caught in the middle, left side ear hears this shit and that, right side ear hear that shit and this..in the end, i don't know whose real and whose fake..in the end, i just node my head..what am i supposed to say?

But i believed that every friends we meet are or at least a lesson partner in our life..they bring something in our life..but i wonder why can't real friends stay forever you know, the real ones..those are the one that take you for who you are, those are the one that doesn't use you just to get to something..those friends..i know nothing lasts forever, but is it so difficult just to at least able to keep friendships together? Friends that to always hang out with are now strangers, friends that use to go school with are now in different places, friends that i used to able to smile with are now a totally different persons..friendship is crazy, friends comes and go..One day you think you have found another long lasting friendship with this person..BANG!! reality bites you where it hurts.