Paranormal Activity Review

I've heard buzz about this movie for a while already, finally i got the chance to watch the movie..this is a pretty creepy movie..will definitely leave nightmare on you after watching it..go watch it if you dare..
The good thing about this movie is that is start off slow and easy then as the movie goes on, it gets scarier and scarier..by the end of the movie, you will be terrified..this movie was shot in such a low budget way, in 7 days, in the director own home, no spedial effect or sort..yet it has been called by critic "the decade most scariest horror movie of all time"..amazing

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I fall into you too quickly, so easy..
It's just not right..
I always know it's can't be right,
It's surreal...
But this is how i am..
And you were so pretty..
I couldn't resist you..
I always know someday..this day might come..
Where we walk our seperate path already..
Will i ever talk to you again..i don't know..
Maybe yes..maybe no...
But now...
I'm trying to get you're outta my head..
I hate myself for feeling like this..

Cheah

I don't even know where to start with this..The title is actually referring to someone, a guy, a clown, his surname, another "Nicholas" but his spelling is "Nikolas"..okay okay, I'll just get it out of my systems..

I met this "Nik" when i first arrived at SEGi, he's is in photography department, i met him when we were in foundation, i didn't know him that well at that time until certain events that happened to him triggered me to realized that this guy is carrying my name around the world and making it sound like an "ass" name..let me show you what i mean..

Relationship
The first time i noticed him was when he was dating this girl called Sylvia, one of my friend..he and her were dating during our foundation semester..i remembered one day i saw them walking while holding hand, so i was like.."ok..they're dating"..In a blink of an eye, one day, they're not a couple anymore..then i was like.."huh, so fast..." I mean couple do fight once in a while, but this one was like permenant..finished..over..
Turns out after finding out the truth about what goes on behind the scenes..it turns out that Syl couldn't stand his childish behaviour..no surprise there..At first, she said that he was all sweet and stuff and that he reminded her a lot of her ex, and he was there when she was down..so she got attached to him..ya, right..now, true color's out and she can't stand the real person he is..the relationship only lasted for like 1 week or so..that's not even long enough to called it a relationship..
They have broke up about a year now..and he's always calling her a bitch in front of me, saying how she destroyed the relationship..ok, this is the thing about breaking up, one will always blame the other one for all the shit that ruined the relationship..hello? take a sec to see and think that maybe it's not her/him..maybe it's you..From where i'm standing, this one is definitely him..oh boy, how he has the super ability to make each relationship shorter than the previous one..
Oh ya, couple of month back, there was this girl liked, her name was "jasmine"..after much effort on making her his girl, the girl made him her brother..damn..

Moving on..

Driving Skill
The guy drives his Kembara recklessly, he made history in my Guinness book of record as the only guy i know that can possibly flip a Kembara while turning corner..the car literally flip over..like turtle on the back of it shell..it's an amazing achievement. He and another friend was in the car, luckily for his friend, he didn't die..luckily.After his dad knows this shit, instead of some deep ass whipping shit he'll get..he got an even bigger vehicle now..I don't know the name of the vehicle but imagine a bigger one than Kembara..I was thinking if he flip this one, maybe his dad will get him a tank, let see he pull this one off..
I sat his car so many times, not once i didn't pray to God hoping i'll making back to my apartment ALIVE..the guy is crazy behind the wheel..he told me before" don't worry, i got this Thailand God in my car, it'll keep us safe"..the size of the God is as big as my toe, it can't even protect itself, man..The only reason i sat his car was because, back then when he was still "in the group" no one wanted to sit his car, he feel pity for him, so i sarcificed myself, otherwise this post won't be here now..
My friend, Marcus who only sat his car once, fear for eternity now..i remembered the moment Nik start his engine, Mar was grabbing on the handle, the handle on the top of each side door window..it was so hilarious..it's like pulling the parachute way before jumping off a plane..i'm telling you man, even safety belt can't save shit in that car..

Moving on..

Studies
This guy also has a hidden talent..able to failed all subject in one semester..how many?..erm..i don't know..how about 3 per time..ya, you heard me, 3 subject at a time, but here's the twist..he only had 3 subject at that time..and he managed to failed them all.Here's another twist, he has been doing it since foundation..yes, foundation, the same semester where the "bitch" broke his heart..I wonder why he still continue..apparently he still can't give me an answer yet..Whenever we ask him "when your intern.."..he just "no comment" with us..right now, we don't even know what semester he's in..seriously.
One of SEGi lecturer, Mr.Fauzi..came up to him and question him on his studies..i didn't hear what they talk about, but judging from the face expression, i think the lecturer has gave up on him..i won't surprised there too, i mean, fail after fail after fail, maybe it's time to reconsider your future.I would rather work then to continue wasting my dad's money, it ain't like money grow on trees, you know..plus, he's in photography department..God, that's like the easier department of all, just snap snap a few picture to pass, how hard is that, Peter Parker?
He is always constantly hanging out at the cafeteria doing nothing..back then, when he was still "in the group", he will always make execuses like "no class..", "lecturer just call, class cancelled.."his best known lines..just so that he could hang out with the group..Now, now, i unfortunately have a class with him, BM, and he has the freaking testicles to come to college but not come to class and hang out at the cafeteria, then come and tell us that if anything, come update him..i'm like..fuck no.

Sigh, this guy make me feel like changing my name, man..it's an embarassment to share with same pronouncation but different spelling name with him..People will think we're related or something..shit..

Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatball Review

This is by far the best animation movie i've watched since Wall.E..i highly recommend it..it is very creative, highly imaginative, hilarious from start to finish, truly entertaining..I doubt anyone won't have a blast watching this..

My First Kiss

It was exactly 5 years ago in this month where i had my first kiss ever..now that's a lot of thing in my life that i'll never forget..this is one of them..Now since i was still private and quiet about not revealing my first girlfriend's name, i thought i let this one slide..just for y'all reading pleasure..so thank me later, haha..feel a little shy about typing this..haha..

Her name is Lavinia, she was a student in my high school, she was 2 years younger than me, i was 15, she was 13..i met her through one of my friend, she was mixture of Chinese and nyonya, combined them together, and i got one pretty girl, she was considered pretty to me at least..i thought she looks great. She was supposed to be my friend's girlfriend or something but i don't exactly remembered what happened, but they didn't get it on..but then me and her start to get closer and closer to each other..

I remembered one night we were on the phone talking, i was thinking why don't she come to my place and hang out, you know..so she said what are we going to do while hanging out, i initially joked saying that we can try kissing..haha..i was joking,okay..she knows i was joking too but yet she still want to come over to my place..so i was cool with it too.Next day after school, we walked home together..it was Friday..we reached my place..we sat down for a while, start talking but then suddenly i don't know why i felt like wanting to kiss her, even though i was just initially joking about it..

Here's how it goes, I sat close to her, slowly lean toward her and at first she was kinda shy, so was i..i lean toward her and slowly place my lips against lips and started kissing..gently of course, i don't know how to kiss, right..it was totally embarrassing..but then after a while, we got comfortable with each other and it became much more easier for me to get passionate with her too..haha..(oh my god, what am i typing here...)..We just gently touching each other's arm and waist and stuff like that..but it was sweet and passionate at that moment..we were kissing each other's face off for 2 hour..haha..It feels like "wet" and amazing when my lips first touches hers..it was like the best thing in life i have felt by far..suddenly i felt like i was flying..haha..it was a beautiful memories for both of us, since it's our first kiss ever..the next week to school, my friend were like wondering what wrong with me while her friends was wondering what's wrong wit her, cause we were both smiling like crazy.We became bf/gf during our first kiss.

But things was not going well for us during the 2 month of our relationship, so we broke up..it was difficult since she changed school and we can hardly see each other at all..things wasn't going well..it just had to end..I saw her again 2 years after that, at my working place in Tesco, she saw me while i was serving a customer, she waved, i said "hi.."..we talked for a while, like just catching up..and that was the last time i ever see her again..

Now, what I've learned is that don't ever rush in a relationship, rushing will only bring sadness quicker, i was riding the train too fast therefore it end fast too..should take time slowly to get to know each other even better before jumping into something so "next level"you know..i've learned my lesson..and also don't ever give your first kiss away so quickly, wait till time is right or at least the right guy/girl..otherwise you might regret it later...like me.

Goodbye, lavinia...

Here's is the link about the post on my first girlfriend, for some reason y'all might like to busybody about it..here you go, i got nothing to hide anymore..
http://upghostnpersonal.blogspot.com/2009/09/9-years-ago.html

Chasing The Butterfly

Don't chase the butterflies..the more you chase, the more it flies away..just let it come to you by itself..

Naturally it's very rare that something so beautiful can be in your hand, something so small and colorful, yet so beautiful..it's always so far away from you, but then one day, without realizing it, it flew right on your palm ,suddenly the butterfly represent something precious in your life, something that don't come often, something that only happen to you when you least expecting it.

It's only a matter of time before a butterfly will come to you, and when it does..it's best we hold on tight to that moment of life, every second, every minute, every breath you take, let it be like it's gonna be your very last one there..because in that way, then we can start to truly see how valuable life is and how much we should cherish it.

If you chase it, it'll fly away from you..but if you just stand still, it just might come to you. Don't chase after something you can't have, let life decide what you can and cannot have. We can't always have what we want so just live life naturally and let the rest happen by itself..

Don't chase the butterflies..the more you chase, the more it flies away..just let it come to you by itself..i'm done chasing the butterfly

My Boss Killed My Interest In Video Editing

You know when i first learn how to edit video.. i found so much fun doing it, i actually enjoy cutting and pasting video here and there and playing with their special effect..not to mention able to compose my own sound and create fonts to it..damn..video editing class was fun, i had a lot of fun doing it..idea was constantly generating in my brain, creativity was in the burst of using it..I wish i could show you some of my work, but the files are too big to put in Blogspot or Youtube..so..can't see it..

But that interest has been stabbed, killed, murdered by my boss..he killed it..

Here's the thing, i don't mind doing videos for him, it's my main job working here..but i don't like to keep coming back to the same bloody video over and over again..Imagine if you did this video in August..finished in September to put it in KLCC for display..done right?? no.........
He came up to you and say " let make more changes to the video.."..i'm like thinking in my head "what..make more changes..hell no.." I don't get it, the video is already passed up, peoples have seen it..it has been put out already, right..so why still need to make changes for..what's the point?

Ok, actually there another opening at some places..so that's the reason he wants me to make changes..but what i'm thinking is..why can't we just use the same video you displayed in KLCC and display it again in that new place of yours? i'm so wasting my time here as an intern by doing the same goddamn video over and over..hell, i'm even sick of looking at my own video now..I was so frustrated when i heard that i STILL have to make changes to my video, i was thinking that finally i could do something else now..but no..life ain't that sweet..instead i'm back to what i know, my video...

I feel like cursing..apparently my boss have some stupid chemical in his head that make him unable to make up his mind..one minute he wants this, the next he wants that.. it's October already, man..come on, let's me do something else.I felt like the video will never fully satisfy his hunger, i'm tired of being "his fingers"..and recently he told me that he was kinda disappointed in me because i have been slowing down lately..fuck( i finally cursed) you won't be having disappointment in me nor will i have this frustration in you if you would just have use the completed video in KLCC.See what i mean, do you see how an old man can kill a guy's interest..it's totally crushed, flattened..now i dislike to do video editing anymore..Man, now all i have left is graphic design..God, i think he might kill that too..he is gonna isn't he?

I just got news that i have to do 2 more video..new one this time..God, happy or sad..i don't really know..

See what you've done, faggot..you make me post this.

I-Design

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Here's my paper bag design that i spend 10 days..10 DAYS!! to do..you know why 10 days..because of boss, boss want this, boss want that..going in his office back and forth..change and change..being "his fingers" is no easy task..anyway, this is the final version, expect to see it around in KL in a couple of weeks..he said so to me..

Sense of achievement..nah..

Proud..nah..

Happy..nah..

Neutral..yes..

i'm just glad it's over..can move on to something else..you'll probrably wondering why am i like this..i don't know..i never feel like something like this is worth my time to feel proud..i'm so weird..haha..things i show to people, i won't feel proud of it, things i've done but never show to people, i'm proud of those instead..anyway, tell me what you think..

What Bloggin' Means To Me

What does blogging actually means to me..Well, when i first started off, blogging is nonsense to me. blogging was a waste of time cause you have to constantly update it, and that it's really for people who has nothing better to do, then to sit at home and stare at computer screen all day..well, i became a blogger myself in the end, and guess what..it feels good to blog..so i'm sorry about i said about blog before..i take it back.

Everybody has a story to tell..

Now blogging to me is like a diary i keep, except this one..is for people to view..The reason i blogged is because i realized that someday i'm gonna get old and forgetful and blogging is one of the way i can always look back and see how my life was before. Life is like a roller coaster, up and down, up and down, it's full of shit to post about..and every chapter should be full of stories to read,

No story is not worth listening..

To me, blogging is for me to keep track of events that has happened in my entire life while i'm still breathing, anything that is worth mentioning will be in it. anything bizarre shit that happened will be in it..anything in my past that i recalled will be in it. So, blogging is kinda like my album..Each post in every month is like an album i put out for people to hear, each post itself is a song that contents different things in my life, like a song that tell story, story-teller song..

My song, my words, my stories..

I put it out for y'all to hear, telling you what's in my mind, in my life..so when I'm posting..i say whatever the hell i wanna say, things that bothered me that I'll never say to your face, i'll say it here, things that fucked up my childhood life, I'll say it here, people that pissed me off, i'll piss you back here, you act funny with me, I'll make you a clown here. But i'm not using blog to show hatred, i'm just expressing..because you people's stories are also worth telling to the world..i'm making y'all "famous". But if i post about something once..I'll never post it again..I never post 2 same things in my blog..you'll hardly find the post that has same similarity to one another..I'm always trying to tell new stuff, why talk about the same shit over and over again..

Life is like a chapter in a book, every pages is different..

Blog is my gateway to express feeling like music is my gateway to relate and like games is my gateway to escape from reality..i have expressed some of my darkest secret in here..things i never talked about in public, i only expressed and write them here to tell you how i was back then, how much i wrote down is only how much you'll get out of me, further little detail i will not let it out..meaning I'll always have little secrets in me no one will ever know..Back then when i have difficulty in telling people my problems, has all bottled up inside.. all the little old memories back then has now found a place to unfold it's stories..

Everyone keeps secret..

The title is called "Up Ghost N Personal"..the "Ghost" means me, i'm ghost, my nickname and it has the word "personal" on it..so don't expect me to go soft on topics that are sensitive.i spit however i want to spit..because everthing about my life is worth mentioning..well, they are my stories after all..and these are what I'll be leaving behind me when I'm gone, carrying it on like a legacy, like a dynasty..I would like to open Blogspot 10 years from now to look back at my life and laugh and reminisce at it..

Story of my life, searching for the right..

Jane, if i never had this blog, i would have never met u..^^

Paranormal Activity

Paranormal is a really strange phenomena to me..i personally believe that paranormal really does exist in the world, strange activities that goes on in the world that we have seen and yet unable to figure out an explanation of it.

The reason i believed in paranormal is because i have people throughout my entire life that has experienced such activities.. now before i say anything, I'm only going to talk about one type of paranormal only..ghost. I ain't going to talk about UFO, because that's bullshit, UFO are not real..ghosts are..to me at least.

I have heard of a lot of stories about ghost since young like my mum's friend in Sarawak, which i know too, have being haunted by ghosts since young, she have been possessed by ghost more than anyone could count..and she has the "third eye" or some might say "the sixth sense"..so yea, so that's crazy, that's is hard to live with, imagine not being to go anywhere without having to see one of those things..

My supervisor AKA my big sister, too have experienced such a thing. She told me that she was sleeping when this ghost came on top of her, pressing himself against her, so she pretend that she was sleeping, but then the ghost whisper to her, in Chinese, "i know that you know.."Wow, that's was really creepy when i heard it..

Now i myself has never experience it before..and i hope i freaking never..but things like these really DO exist and though it never happen to me directly, there's always a feeling like somethings around me, like some kind of aura, or a white flash light and stuff, you know..like the feeling that you're constantly being watched by someone or something..an unusual feeling in your heart..ghost sighting..it's really creepy to me..i never go and disturb things like this..ever.

Kinda reminded me that i saw this movie, The Exorcism Of Emily Rose..really really freak me out..This movie really really make me truly finally believe that ghost does exist..the movie is based on a true story about this girl named Emily Rose who was possessed by 6 ghost..i remembered after watching it i couldn't sleep that night..it was really creepy.By the way, Jennifer Carpenter(girl in picture) did outstanding performances in this show.

Now the real reason i bought up this topic out of the blue is because i heard of this new movie called Paranormal Activity. I heard that it has been named as one of the scariest movie of all time, heard it got rave review and people who has watched the show in cinema, came out shaking..physically.It's amazing how people can use so little special effect and so much camera tricks to make an incredible movie..i have not watch it but i really want to, just to see if it's really THAT scary..y'all should check it out too..if you ain't got a weak heart or anything.

Surrogates Review

A decent action movie..decent enough to keep you awake from falling asleep in cinema..but nothing mind blowing or breath taking or breaking new ground..at least it's way better than Gamers.

Venus Vs Mars

They say that men are simple, women are complicated but i think that's only partially true.. i think sometime men are complicated too..but i truly think that men AND women are actually both simple and complicated at time to time.

Complicated Men:

men that required their girlfriend to change their appearance totally so that he can show her off to his friends..like their must have a hot body and ass and boobs..beauty and class..sigh~

Simple Men:

men that just want a caring girlfriend..that's all..haha..

Why women think men are complicated:

Women only think men are complicated because they think men don't listen and have all these crazy sexual fantasies and needs..i just have to say that some guys do listen and fantasies are just fantasies.

My thought:

Hello?? men on earth, do you know that women don't like it when you tried to change them too much, they'll really appreciated it if y'all could accept them the way they are..just like the way they accept you..she ain't a trophy wife you know.

Simple Women:

Women always say this" All i want is just him to love me, as long as he loves me,i'm happy..that's all i need"..actually i think it's true. See, some women don't need men's money with big car big house or anything..all women really need is love.

Complicated women:

Women that likes men that is flirty rich, that can shower them with jewelry and shit..in big house with big car..with expensive vacation here and there..shit~

Why men think women complicated:

Men think women are complicated because they are fussy, difficult, nagging, bitchy and always want to cuddle..is it really that bad if she wants to cuddle?

My thought:

Women only only only wants love AKA thoughtful, caring and attention..a boyfriend's job is quite easy if you learned to master it..is just to pay attention and love the girlfriend..as long as he knows what his girl wants..happy!.

Here's a book about men and women's relationship from John Gray, which i read in Popular a few weeks ago..i forgotten most of it already but the stuff i remembered kinda change my perspective on women..and..why is it that all books like this are freaking "bestseller"??

Example of the difference between men and women from my favourite sitcom "Friends"..the comparison of men and women..men=simple, women=all the things you're bout to see.

Here's a song titled Venus Vs Mars from Jay Z..

~me Im from the apple which means Im the Mac,
Shes a PC, she lives in my lap~Jay Z

Friends Vs Friends

Through our entire life, we always have friends on one corner talking bad about friends the other corner, friends that talk bad about others behind their back, friends that point out their negativity..and i, always end up the referee.

It's funny how 2 people who looks like friends from the outside actually hates each others guts from the inside..people are phony, two face, liar cheat and steal..These few days, i have been hearing people talking about other peoples, and these few peoples are consider friends to each other, it's like suddenly i realized that we are so negative..I'm not going to say out names or anything, don't want to create more chaos than it is through this post. I'm not excluding myself at all, i too, have talk bad about other people behind their back, just never realize how bad it sounds till now..like i said, I'm the referee, I'm caught in the middle, left side ear hears this shit and that, right side ear hear that shit and this..in the end, i don't know whose real and whose fake..in the end, i just node my head..what am i supposed to say?

But i believed that every friends we meet are or at least a lesson partner in our life..they bring something in our life..but i wonder why can't real friends stay forever you know, the real ones..those are the one that take you for who you are, those are the one that doesn't use you just to get to something..those friends..i know nothing lasts forever, but is it so difficult just to at least able to keep friendships together? Friends that to always hang out with are now strangers, friends that use to go school with are now in different places, friends that i used to able to smile with are now a totally different persons..friendship is crazy, friends comes and go..One day you think you have found another long lasting friendship with this person..BANG!! reality bites you where it hurts.

Sorority Row Review

This movie is plain stupid, lousy, empty and lacking of everything..don't watch it.

Random 05~No Smokin'

Stupid-idiotic-no-good-lousy-dead-brain-punk-ass-jackoff-asshole..

Some people just don't know how to think for others or at least know HOW to read a goddamn a sign. but if y'all are blind, then at least have a goddamn brain to think..

Let me tell y'all what happened..i was at Summit, in some food store, taking my rice( mix rice) then i reliazed this clown ass malay guy was holding his bloody cigarette while taking his food, i mean doesn't he knows how bloody unhealthy that is for other people, i was so pissed that i felt like stabbing with my fork..he can't even put that shit down for 5 minute? stupid bastard..

It's bloody common sense, Jesus...maybe all those smoking cause his brain to be relocated in between his 2 ass cheek..

Like Father, Like Son

A lot of time i spend thinking about me and my dad..if y'all has read my post about my dad about a few month ago, y'all should know the relationship between me and my dad, if no, then here i go again..

Me and my dad are really almost the same person, that's why it's called like father, like son, right..i mean the relationship between us is really no words to describe it..
...because there's really no words between us..me and my dad hardly talk or have anything to say to each other..we always almost always talk about the same stuff, then after 2 line of conversation, it ends there..i wonder why almost all relationship between father and his children are like this?

I realized how i am like my dad is like this, both of us loves to spend unnecessary money as soon as we get them, like the moment my dad got his money from clients, he would spend ridiculous amount of it on stuff, like stuff that costs a lot, u know( use your imagination) and me, i remember the moment i got my first salary, i went to buy an Xbox360( sold already)..see, instead of saving it, both he and I love spending it..so we are quite a big spenders..

Me and my dad hate talking to people we find bloody annoying yet still living with them..dad=mum, me=apartment owner. Seriously i realized both me and my dad give the same expression to these people, we just don't talk to them and hate talking to them and hate listening to them talk..it's scream bloody murder for both of us. My dad and my mum are divorce so there's no need for explanation there, me and my faggot owner are like mentos and coka-cola, put us together, one of us will kill the other..explosive battle will occur..

Both me and my dad have some really spontaneous sense of humor, like we will just make jokes out of the blue, jokes that no one see coming..but my dad's jokes is short and stay IN the zone while mine is sarcastic and sometime tend to get OUTSIDE the zone..i have not hear him joke for a long time already..

Both me and my dad have anger management, really, no kidding..i have seen some of my dad's worse behaviour, and he ain't even need to get drunk to do that, like if he turn into Hulk, furniture will fly, Neighbour will hear, shit will break, mouth will curse and other..with my case, shit will break, attention will gather, i will yell, i will hit( except women), mouth will curse..sigh, but neither of us have reach to the point where we kill, stab and hit any women..This is actually one part of me that I'm trying to get rid of, but sometime trouble just comes looking for me, you know..it's tragic.

It's hard to say everything, but at times i do feel like my father..wonder if he feels like his father when he's my age..

Time Fly

As i just realized..in a blink of an eye..internship has passed a month already..just like that..i remembered like yesterday i was all new and unexperience in the office..now..it's has been a month already, time fly so fast, and i'm thankful that it fly fast..because i want to end this endlessly so not fun internship..i'm working worthless sweat for worthless check..just realized mine is not 400 per month..it's around 350..why, because i don't come to work every Monday, so deduct from there..which now thinking about it, it even more unworthy to do all those publicity work for BizAid..so what if my stuff get displayed in public..boo hoo..ain't mean shit to me if my payment is so little..since i'm working now, money is very important to me..MONEY!! MOOLAH!!.anyway, just wanted to say about how time fly fast instead i end up complaining..haha, sigh..1 more month to go..

1st Of October

Wa..1st day of october was a good jump start for me for this month..despite September being seriously dry. Let's see what happened today..

+My work for my video editing gets displayed in KLCC..my boss wanna use it to promote and attract audiences for their new shop or something in KLCC..i didn't go and see..lazy..don't really care about it to be honest, because i never being bothered with my work shown in public, i never feel like i achieved something..because if i feel like that then i will start to get cocky..really cocky, y'all ain't never seen it before only..and y'all don't need to..
+My laptop returned..have to pay 300 for it..sigh..hey baby,welcome home..despite having to live with no laptop for like what..a month..life was hard then..now i can have lunch and watch "Friends" on Youtube already..can go spend more time on blog and shit..ahh..the joy..
+4 games will be coming this month..i got stuff to play already..

Actually that's all..haha..but it's a pretty good stuff right..for me at least..