Bye Bye 2009 Hi Hi 2010

Blog And Facebook
Created a blog and a facebook account for myself, though intially at first i did not want either one, thought it was lame..well, guess i joined that lame-ness myself now..and i must admit, having a blog and facebook ain't so bad after all.

Work
Finally it has reached the Semester where we have to take our internship. I had my internship in KL..1 hour and 45 minute journey..work there for 3 month, 350 per month..was really tiring working there but glad it was all over already..

Music
This year totally lack of ne music..really really lack of new music, i had to dig through old songs just to give my ears something different to listen to, but only Eminem's music is worth mentioning since i'm a big fan of him, so glad that he's finally back..more than 20 new songs from him in 2009, another 20 more is coming in 2010, awesome..no new Jay Chou music this year though, he's the only chinese artist i listen to, so would like to hear his new material now please..

Movie
Every year is pack with enormous amount of movie..this year was no different too, except during August till November with lacked any good movies..was dry bored of movie during then, had to watch a bunch of crap ones.
My Favourite Top 5 Movie Of 2009
1. Avatar
2. Transformers 2
3. Star Trek
4. 500 Days Of Summer
5. Sherlock Holmes

Biggest Surprise
There was no dramatic surprises that happened to me this year, but if i had to chose one, i think it will be..me reading book..i hate books, i don't like to read and yet due to boredom, reading was the only way for me to burn time..poor me~

Biggest Disappointment
Eagle Point not hiring me..i really wanted to do my internship at that place, waiting for crazy for a reply, and the reply was "no"..well i guess it's ok cause i guess everything happened for a reason..

Friends
Met a few new friends during my internship, most of them are from MMU-Andrew, Kison, Joyce Alex, Tong, Ling, Jia Yong..those were good time. Had a gathering with my old friends in Melaka Raya, felt quite like high school again with those people, had not seen them for 3 years..though intially my friend's plan was to get all of us talking, together, but instead we're still feel closer to those we talked to the most..Last but not least, met a special friend, J..only through creating this was i able to meet her, she found me first, so this whole friendship thingy..i blame her for it, haha..

2010 Ahead
What i want for 2010, i only want happiness and be healthy, anything else is up to God to decide whether the time is right for me..i let fate decide my life.Stop Worrying and Start Living..

Sherlock Holmes Review

Went to MBO to watch Sherlock Holmes and was impressed again and again by the actor who played Sherlock, Robert Downey Jr..i thought the movie was pretty good and his performance was believable..it's has being a while since any good detective movie has being released for a long time..and i feel so "holmes" again with this movie..overall, it was good and entertaining..wishes to see a sequel as soon as possible..

Old Friends...

Went to Melaka Raya today..to meet old friends..went to Eilyki Music Cafe..chat up with old friends, i'm not really close with some of them, so instead of having everybody chatting with chatting..we all end up chatting with a few all night only..the boys all chat at one corner of the table, the girl all on the other side of the table..

THE GIRLS
THE GUYS

THE GUYS FROM NILAM CLASS
POSIN'

NO CAMERA ALLOW

ME AND MEI YI ME AND RACHAEL

ME AND NANTHA HOLDING HANDS

MIDDLE FINGER

FORMING A BAND

THERE WAS NO MIC AND I WAS NOT SINGING

AFTER CAME HOME
there will be more picture coming soon..as soon as my friends upload it on facebook..i'll post it here..expect to see some surprising pictures

Nicholas Tan April 6 1989

Was diggint thru some old photos and thought i show you a sneak peek of 20 years of my life.

My dad and mum when they were young..before it all became something else..

A natural born pianist..haha, ya right..no no..it's not true, i can't play..tried to learn from sister, but it's so freaking hard..

I spend nearly a year of my life in that damn freaking hospital for kidney operation..my dad spend countless of money and nearly a year of his life staying there with me..i hate that place..My mummy and i..the woman who birth me and nurse me..i will always be a "momma boy" till i die, that way she will never feel alone.

My dad and i..the man who will buy anything i want..Nicholas Sr and Jr..ready to be that dragon's meal..As an example of anything i want from daddy when i was a kid..look at my freaking Ultraman collections..i had Ultraman fever when i was young..crazy ultra maniac..My first bike..with McDonald toy collection..mum taught me how to ride it..

My sister and i..born in Johor..the little girl who will grow up driving her brother crazy eventually..

The dynamic duo..the children that will drive their mum crazy..and their dad, well, he was smart enough to leave the house and rather go to work instead..

Twenty years later..the final version of me..the sarcastic asshole..Nicholas Tan!!

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As for bonus feature..My Sister.......Even i thought she looks cute in this picture..she will kill me if she finds out about this picture being here..

Here 14 years later..no picture..she wouldn't let me take one..so a video instead..

Nokia N97 Mini

After i came back from watching Avatar yesterday, found my dad had bought me a new phone..again..this is Nokia N Series N97 mini..previously i was using N85..He bought two of them, one of him and another for me..i swear to God, i told him to never buy me another phone and he wouldn't listen..

Avatar Review

I went to watch Avatar today..after waited for a so long, and been hearing a lot of hype and praise for this movie..i wanted to see if the hype is real or not..and it was..

Here's the bad and good part of this movie:

Bad~few dragful scene..only a few..

Good~Pandora is an amazing world, funny and sharp script, visual effect is beyond anything i have ever seen, acting performance is fantastic..especially Zoe Saldana who played Neytiri..her acting really blow me away, soundtrack is outstanding and the final battle which lasted about 20 minutes..EPIC!!

Overall for a nearly 3 hours movie, the whole production is superb..even my mum was impressed..highly recommended..must watch it in 3D..

Akward

Define akward~a moment where two people are not comfortable with each other's presence.

Today afternoon, i have to buy lunch for my sister..as always..so as i was paying for the food, i stumbled across one of my old friend who live a few houses in front of my house..we saw each other and gave each other that's "i can't it's you" look..i waved but he just stood there and smile away or something.

Suddenly the feeling of akwardness rush through my whole body so instead of going to him and talk, i just grab my food and walk home..I just couldn't and wouldn't want to talk to him for some reason..it's just feels so akward..and i really don't know why i feel that way.

This is definitely not the first time i walk away after stumbling across an old friend. When i was in Subang, i came across my high school friend, he's a football player..i was walking and we both saw each other, he was with another friend, we both waved...then i walked away without even saying hello or anything to him..again, during that moment, akwardness occurred.

The question is this, is it just me or do others feel like this sometime..if it's just me then i have major problem next time in the future..Before even jumping to a future far far away, i have a gathering with my high school friend on 23 December..will i survive that day, i don't know..

I really don't know man..y'all leave a comment if you like.

Unfaithful

Recently i read about Tiger Woods affairs with another women..it's crazy..the guy's crazy..he ruined his own career. See the thing is that not only did he cheated, but he cheated with 13 different women..13..from what i read is categorized from cocktail waitress all the way to porn star..i'm not totally sure whether it real or not real about these women..but damn Tiger..

See what i don't understand is this, you are famous, you are rich, you have big house, big cars,a wife and kids, people look up to you and respect you..yet you wanna go to all these stupid things[i'm not talking about Tiger]..why would you do such a thing Tiger[now i'm talking about him]..If i were his wife, i would have just leave him forever..i feel pity for the wife and kids..can't imagine how she can pull this through.

See i think some people are just ungrateful and disloyal..Some people just like to do shit like this when they already had someone, and knowing the fact that, shit like this will been exposed someday and it will hurt. Some people just don't know how lucky they are when they found love, cheating behind someone else's back..it's pityful..Guess saying those 3 words means nothing actually, talk is cheap and action speaks louder than words..


Anyway, put the feeling of being cheated aside and let me introduce to you a movie called "Unfaithful"..pretty enjoying movie..not encourage to follow the cheater's footstep though..

and a song from Rihanna's Unfaithful..

6+4=10

Next year is gonna be a good year..i know it will..at least i hope it will..hpping it will, wishing it will, i mean..why wouldn't it be right? just look at my birthday 6 of april 2010..it perfect match..well, just my nonsense theory anyway..

All i wants for next year is happiness and healthy and not really anything else..oh more games..but if God have something good planned for me this year, i of course won't mind having a taste of it..

Anyway..2010, here i come..

I Loved My Wife

haha, bet i got all of you right with the title, i bet all of y'all click and open it just to see what's all the fuzz about Nicholas's wife..suckers..

Actually the real title is "I Loved My Life"..my life, the ups and downs, in and out, left and right, black and white of my life..you know throughtout 20 years of my life, there's a lot of crazy shit i went with..and though sometime all we can think about is how much life sucks. But we hardly ever get our head straight and take a minute to think..our life is so much better than some poeple's life out there..

Some people had suffered more than we had, and do they complain, of course yes, but they still live it like it's okay, everything alright style..that takes a lot of positive attitude. We have a house, a car, food and clothes, education in our school, yet all we do is complain and whine..it's really a bad habit..Life is all about ups and downs, we must give a little to take a little, it's just how it works.

We've all complain about our life not being fair on us..but sometime, try to look at the bright side..i saw this video once about this guy, he has only a torso and a head..the end. No arms and legs and yet, he has no problem being happy and just living..such an inspiration, we all ought to be like him..learn from him..his positive attitude at life is exactly what i'm talking about. If it were to happen to either one of us, i bet we would have just gave up on life, wouldn't we?

So i wanna just take this moment to thank God for everything that happened to me in my life..everything that happened has a reason for it to happen.

Look What My Paternal Grandmother Turn Out To Be

So it turns that my paternal grandmother is a totally bum..that's right, a lame useless bum..

oh dear Nicholas, how could you say such a thing, how rude?

Well i don't care..see turns out today after having a little discovery from my mother, my grandma ain't the real person i thought she was. Actually i don't really know anything at all about her, till now..

My mum said that she used to be spoiled her sons constantly, including my father of course..Last time when one of my uncle did something wrong, instead of her teaching them a lesson, she gave him a few money and him to run away from home and hide for a few days, so my grandpa won't whoop his ass..can't you believe that? And i found that there also a "Chris Brown" in my family..my third uncle, yes..he beat his wife months after she gave birth to their first child and what my grandma said? she said this..

It's okay la, this kinda of things happens all the time, husbands beats wives all the time..

She doesn't know how to do or say anything, OMG..and that uncle of mine..sigh, i can't do anything since he's my uncle, otherwise i would have beat his ass to hell..i hate abusive men! There was this one time when my mum was still pregnant with me, she asked whether it's a boy or girl? my mum said it's a boy, then she said good, boys are better, girls are useless..wow..my mum was so pissed off during that moment, i could even imagine the tension of that second. Wonder what she thought of when my mum had my sister? my sister said she wants to kick her ass too..

Maybe she wasn't taught or bought up right by her parents or something, either way what she said here is just wrong you know, especially that "Chris Brown" uncle of mine..anyway she's still my father's mum, so i will still show respect to her by all means necessary...only because she's my dad's mum...only because of that..

Please Don't Hate Me..Again

So guess what guess what..my previous post..about those kittens..guess what..you wanna know what happened?..well guess what..let me break it down for you..so guess what guess what..

THEY CAME BACK!!!

they freaking came back..i highly doubt that they came back by themselves..the mum bought them one by one..ah, a mother's love~So anyway after discovering this shit first thing in the morning when i woke up, i had no choice again but to?

that right..*those 3 words again*

I'm really sorry again, i can't apologize enough for what i've done in just two days..for two days i've done nothing but evil deeds. But this time i had to threw them away farther..somewhere their mummy can't find..i'm really sorry..i feel so guilty because they're so cute and now their mummy can't be with them anymore and they will probably starved till death..forgive me again for i have twin sin.

I'm gonna have kitten nightmare tonight..life is shit..i mean just imagine..what if you're the mummy cat and someone threw your kids away and you'll never find them again..

Please Don't Hate Me..

There was this 3 kitten in the back of my house..i didn't know what to do with it..i ask my dad what should we do with the kittens..guess what he said..

Throw them away..

I'M SORRY!!!!!!!

I'm sorry to all pet lovers or cat lovers..please don't send people to kill me..if you know my address that is..please don't curse me either..i didn't mean to..but what am i to do right?

I can't keep them..and i can't just keep one of them and throw the rest away, that's insane..i felt so guilty after what i did..

i put the 3 of them in a plastic bag( i didn't tie it up) and put them somewhere outside my home..with their mum..i'm so sorry..please don't hate me..forgive me for i have sin.

What Ever Happened To You?

When i was young, very very young..i think about maybe 4? 5 years old maybe? i met this..Caucasian girl. Her father is a friend of my grandfather..i really don know a lot of anything about them at all..but i remember this girl..this Caucasian girl.

I don't remember how she looks, i don't remember her name, i don't remember if she an Australian, English, or America or whatever, i don't even how old she was back then..but this is how i remembered her..my mum.

My mum keep teasing me..last time..a lot about this girl..she said she kissed me or something..i don't really remember unfortunately..so the point not about the kiss..it's was too young to even call it illegal..it's about who this mystery girl is. She may not be important..but it'll be cool to meet her again..i don't have any foreign friends, so it will be so cool to have one..if only we were still keeping in touch with each other.

Only a fragment of memories about her..so i wonder whatever happened to her?

Make Up Break Up Wake Up

This year is a very unfavourable year for love my people..a lot of my friends are going through break up this year..here and there, everywhere i'm getting that this couple is breaking, those couple are breaking..

Recently some of my friends was torn apart by love..some crazy stuff, such a broken person right now..watching him being like this is difficult..Breaking up can be a real serious pain to anyone, especially if you really thought that that someone is "the one"..and that you love and care so much about her/him.

Breaking up is really not easy, i've been through some break up myself and i can say that it's no east task, getting someone off your mind that you have spend moments of your life with is hard..difficult..in fact..

Today, i went out with my friend who just broke up with his girl..though he act like he's happy, calm, normal and all..deep down, he really broken into pieces. I swear to God i know exactly how he feels..fragile, vulnerable, heartaching, not focus, moody..love can be so beautiful yet it can do so much damage to a human being. Anyway, i just hope he's feels better soon..told him to get occupied with hobbies and job to keep his mind off her. We all have been through his shoes before, haven't we..

But the reason we all do break up is just something we have to go through in life..we shouldn't hate all these people but rather we should thanks them for being our "lesson partners"..Everything happen for a reason and break ups are no different. Everyone we had loved has someway taught us a lesson in life and love both..eventually when it's all set and done, we will guarantee meet the right one..when time is right.

For those who had break up from their love, no worry..love will find it's way to you again..

Insomniac

It's 4.20 a.m. in the morning and i am not asleep..why?

I have no idea actually..it's a bloody habit of mine. This is the second time i have stood up awake instead of being asleep like everyone else. I don't know why sometime i couldn't sleep..sometime i do know why..it's cause of something that bothers me like my family's thing, other time i just don't know why.

I'm up here, typing this post, thinking of a real reason behind my insomnia. Sometime my brain is just too stubborn, it's like it has a little brain inside my brain, that is telling him to stay awake instead of going to sleep. Maybe the reason too could be because i like to think..too much at times. I'm my own little director when i'm trying to sleep..meaning..i like to think of shit everytime before i go to sleep..in result?..

End up not sleeping at all..rolling on bed here and there..

I'm afraid this could turn into something even more worse as time pass by..I don't want to have to take sleeping pill for christ's sake. so please please little brain..let me go to sleep..

Boys With Toys

I was watching this video and realize how much girls hate it when their boyfriend spend too much time on things like this..it's not the first time i have seen this kind of reaction coming from a girl before.

I have this female friend of mine who has this loser boyfriend who came back from some place after being away from her for some time already and he promised her he wants to spend time with her..but..instead..his friend ask him to join them for some games in CyberCafe..and what did he do?

Video game over his girlfriend of course..

Actually i wanna thank all this people for screwing up because all this shit make me realized i can't be like this too..all these people have sacrifice themselves for people like me to be prepare for what's about to come in the future.

Actually i can already predict that i won't have anymore for games..and it all starts when i have a girlfriend again..It's not that girls don't let us do what we love to do, they just don't want us to put so much time on things like this..

Guys guys guys..guys need to learn to spend more time paying attention to their girlfriend instead of spending time on things like this..Now before the male species decided to kill me..take a second to think..which one is most improtant..a loving caring human being or a machine who you used to burn your time?

Truth be told, I rather have a girlfriend then a game console forever..like i said many times before..it's time to put behind things like this and grow up..As much as i hate to..i have to..I don't to end up like the guy in the video..hahaha

Meeting With The Devils

Today i had an internship meeting with Mr.Sharunizam and Mr.Ching Ping..the devils. At first, my time was 2.45 till 3..total of 15 minute meeting, Q&A and stuff like that..

Was so nervous..as usual..walking around the next room here and there..watching each intern on the other side of the room presenting their work to the devils..the room has a large glass, so we can see through the two rooms.

Some took fully 15 minute to present while others only took a few minutes..i was watching closely each interns mistake before me, in hope that i won't screw up the same way they did.

As my turn gets closer, the tension in the air gets heavier, palm gets sweatier, legs gets weaker, heart pump faster, time tick closer and....it's my turn.

Panic for nearly 10 minute and i end up finishing the faster..in fact, i felt like it all ended too quickly..like literally feels like i got nothing to show for. It only took me like 2 to 3 minute i think to sum up everything i've done in 3 month..plus, i was talking so fast that it makes the whole presentation finish even faster.

This was how the whole presentation feels like..i walked in..hi sir..bye sir..

Not literally..

But that how it feels like..

Anyway, the internship thing is finally official fully completed..everything done.Full Stop

Long Absence

I have not post anything for a week..i was long gone from blogspot..i went disappearing in my hometown..celebrating the joy of internship's done by playing video game, TV, internet and 10 percent of execrise.

Nothing special ever goes on during the last few months of every years..basically the same old same. In a blink of an eye, i realized..it's December already..time flies so fast nowadays. Next year i'll be 21..damn..

Life is pretty empty right now..i bet it's gets even emptier in the next few weeks..

2010 approaching us all..

Ninja Assassin Review

Finally i get to watch Ninja Assassin..it's story is seriusly ridiculous and over the top..but i knew that and i'm only here for the action..and the action is good. Blood and gore, arms and leg flying everywhere..cartoonish violence..Rain's performance is one dimensional, not much facial expresssion at all but his martial arts skill is pretty good though..good enough to enjoy. Overall, it's a so-so movie..nothing special at all.