I almost bang a car with my car's rear end today while reversing
WTF..
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Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Sleep Deprivation
Why am i having trouble sleeping..what have i done to deserve this misery, this..inability to do one of the simplest thing in life, falling asleep..
Am I being punished for something..Am i only allowed to have one thing on this Libra scale? either only success or hours of sleep, if i take one then I'm destined to lose the other one..
God refused to let me sleep and I'm getting very pissed off with it. The more i lack sleep the more pissed off i get..and when that happened, bad thing comes along..i don't wish for it but look at what God is doing to me..
I'm thinking of popping pill's time..even if it ends up killing me..if that's what it takes..
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Am I being punished for something..Am i only allowed to have one thing on this Libra scale? either only success or hours of sleep, if i take one then I'm destined to lose the other one..
God refused to let me sleep and I'm getting very pissed off with it. The more i lack sleep the more pissed off i get..and when that happened, bad thing comes along..i don't wish for it but look at what God is doing to me..
I'm thinking of popping pill's time..even if it ends up killing me..if that's what it takes..
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Monday, September 26, 2011
National Service Part 3
So this is the finale of my dreadful National Services experience, the last time i left off i mentioned that i was in the program for only 2 days and 2 night thankfully.
Here's the funny thing, as i mentioned previously that all candidates are supposed to do a check up first weeks before saying goodbye to cruel world, but being living in Malaysia..things don't always go according to plan even when suppose to. That day when we went for check up there was supposed to be doctor, but there wasn't..on the same day the letter written that we're supposed to go to this place and meet doctors is also the same day where there's no doctor..can the government be more fucked up?
So anyway, snap back to the camp site, on the 2nd day some of the commander put a few of us into a van and bring to see a doctor..again. Inside there i finally met a doctor as planned before and to my surprise the doctor said some magic words to my ear and turn the whole thing upside down. According to her, candidate with asthma attack are not qualified to participate in this program..i stay calm and cool and steady on the outside acting like i don't understand what she's saying but inside..i was jumping all around.
14 years ago when i went under the knife, having stay nearly a year of my life in the hospital because of some kidney problem and asthma attack has finally come in handy. As the doctor was speaking, my mind went blank and all i can think about is the fact that I'm going home while them suckers continue to stay there at that hell hole with ghosts and cemetery and flies food and everything. I didn't even give the doctor my opinion, i just acted like if she says so then she says so..shut up and full stop.
Basically there's how it all went down, after 2 days there with head shaved, I'm going home.. It's probably hard for some people to believe that i was literally that lucky, i won't missed much of that place since i never like the idea of leaving home and doing all the training just because they think we'll be prepared if Melaka got itself into a war with another country..hell..i'll run off first clown face.
Days before i got up that NS bus i thought to myself on how much life i would be missing, i'll be missing on some media entertainment like movies, song and games..or my own room, nice good food and so many other more things to do besides fighting flies in the morning and mosquitoes at night, i even quit my job just because of this nonsense and i resume back to work the day after i was released. Sounds like prison..
A lot of people find it hard to believe that someone who was into in NS for 2 days have more story to tell than those who spend 3 month trying to type in their first paragraph. i gueesed i'm just me. The End.
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Here's the funny thing, as i mentioned previously that all candidates are supposed to do a check up first weeks before saying goodbye to cruel world, but being living in Malaysia..things don't always go according to plan even when suppose to. That day when we went for check up there was supposed to be doctor, but there wasn't..on the same day the letter written that we're supposed to go to this place and meet doctors is also the same day where there's no doctor..can the government be more fucked up?
So anyway, snap back to the camp site, on the 2nd day some of the commander put a few of us into a van and bring to see a doctor..again. Inside there i finally met a doctor as planned before and to my surprise the doctor said some magic words to my ear and turn the whole thing upside down. According to her, candidate with asthma attack are not qualified to participate in this program..i stay calm and cool and steady on the outside acting like i don't understand what she's saying but inside..i was jumping all around.
14 years ago when i went under the knife, having stay nearly a year of my life in the hospital because of some kidney problem and asthma attack has finally come in handy. As the doctor was speaking, my mind went blank and all i can think about is the fact that I'm going home while them suckers continue to stay there at that hell hole with ghosts and cemetery and flies food and everything. I didn't even give the doctor my opinion, i just acted like if she says so then she says so..shut up and full stop.
Basically there's how it all went down, after 2 days there with head shaved, I'm going home.. It's probably hard for some people to believe that i was literally that lucky, i won't missed much of that place since i never like the idea of leaving home and doing all the training just because they think we'll be prepared if Melaka got itself into a war with another country..hell..i'll run off first clown face.
Days before i got up that NS bus i thought to myself on how much life i would be missing, i'll be missing on some media entertainment like movies, song and games..or my own room, nice good food and so many other more things to do besides fighting flies in the morning and mosquitoes at night, i even quit my job just because of this nonsense and i resume back to work the day after i was released. Sounds like prison..
A lot of people find it hard to believe that someone who was into in NS for 2 days have more story to tell than those who spend 3 month trying to type in their first paragraph. i gueesed i'm just me. The End.
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Friday, September 23, 2011
National Service Part 2
So when we last left out i was bitching about how i found out i was chosen all the way to the day i step foot on them soil and them terrible food and swimming lake..life is a bitch and i hear that she bites.
Well what's else i haven't bitch about yet, well did i mention that the public bathroom/ toilet is dirtier than some basement that i've seen where people get tortured in, the male's bathroom is that nasty that i can't imagine what sort of rainbow and sunshine the girl's side have..probably hellish as well. Nevertheless, it's also the place where you have to clean your clothes, scrubbing shit off your fashion like some goddamn stone age people..
Night time is actually pretty crappy due to the fact it's next to a cemetery, plus the dorm's door are not allowed to be closed like what the fuck? that's stupidly scary like horror movie in 3D and what's scarier than ghost..mosquitoes. But we ain't that bad since the girl's dorm is closer to the cemetery and them commanders said before that sometime when they went patrolling..they see "things". Ghost are perverts too perhaps?
I think i don't have to mention how scared them girls were..
I do remember one thing very particularly though, there was a Malay guy in my group that was suffering from some sort of dis capability if i would say so. He was having legs problem that cause him to walk limp..i guess one of his leg wasn't that good perhaps and yet no one and i mean no one offer to help him or even cut him some slack.
No one meaning the nurses from some hospital that we have to attend to before we went meet our death, everyone of us have to go through this procedure like injection and urine sample check up.
I mean ain't it obvious if you see someone with that guy's leg condition, ain't it obvious that he's in physically in no shape to participate in this nonsense crap that we got dragged into..ain't it clearly obvious enough? It doesn't take a genius to figure out that even without a doctor's approval right..some people just are so stupid.
It was a 2 night of hell and when i said 2 nights..i really meant 2 nights only because after that i was..
O.U.T
stay tune for part 3, the finale..
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Well what's else i haven't bitch about yet, well did i mention that the public bathroom/ toilet is dirtier than some basement that i've seen where people get tortured in, the male's bathroom is that nasty that i can't imagine what sort of rainbow and sunshine the girl's side have..probably hellish as well. Nevertheless, it's also the place where you have to clean your clothes, scrubbing shit off your fashion like some goddamn stone age people..
Night time is actually pretty crappy due to the fact it's next to a cemetery, plus the dorm's door are not allowed to be closed like what the fuck? that's stupidly scary like horror movie in 3D and what's scarier than ghost..mosquitoes. But we ain't that bad since the girl's dorm is closer to the cemetery and them commanders said before that sometime when they went patrolling..they see "things". Ghost are perverts too perhaps?
I think i don't have to mention how scared them girls were..
I do remember one thing very particularly though, there was a Malay guy in my group that was suffering from some sort of dis capability if i would say so. He was having legs problem that cause him to walk limp..i guess one of his leg wasn't that good perhaps and yet no one and i mean no one offer to help him or even cut him some slack.
No one meaning the nurses from some hospital that we have to attend to before we went meet our death, everyone of us have to go through this procedure like injection and urine sample check up.
I mean ain't it obvious if you see someone with that guy's leg condition, ain't it obvious that he's in physically in no shape to participate in this nonsense crap that we got dragged into..ain't it clearly obvious enough? It doesn't take a genius to figure out that even without a doctor's approval right..some people just are so stupid.
It was a 2 night of hell and when i said 2 nights..i really meant 2 nights only because after that i was..
O.U.T
stay tune for part 3, the finale..
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Wednesday, September 21, 2011
National Service Part 1
I remembered the day where i came back from work when i was about 17, months after my first job working in a gift shop..i came back to a horrific yet predictable news actually, it was a envelope on the table.
Inside it contains a nightmare i somewhat knew i have to go through, I have been officially selected to join National Service.. moment of silence please everyone..
I passed out for an hour before waking up and passing out again..
I was kinda prepared for this day but then again i mean seriously want to join such crap especially when making money is more important right. Anyway, i shaved my head a month before joining it cause either way I'm screwed so might as well get into the spirit of it in advance.. I even have to quit my job just so that the government doesn't have to send their ass kissing people over to capture me.
Official day arrived and i sat in the bus while watching myself being taking far far away from my parents, after a while first thing i noticed is that there's a bloody cemetery next to the camp..why in God's name will they locate the camp next to a curse place? It's was in Alor Gajah by the way.. Getting down from the bus and the first thought come to me was..I want to go home now!
It was hot and dusty, kinda like from the desert of Mexico..everyone of us looks like some lost cowboy while the commanders looks like freaking cactus because if you touch them, they'll kill you. Nothing about that place impresses me except the large lake in the camp that's closer to the boy's dorm than girl's..because they're closer to the canteen so we get the lake right? wrong..apparently the lake is dirty and can cause rashes on skin if we swim in it..the curse from the cemetery has already begun apparently.
And just when i thought things couldn't get any worse, it did..the canteen that i've mentioned earlier that was closer to the girl's dorm..which makes no sense because girl eats less than guys, and yet we're the one here that needs to walk further for food, jeez. Anyway, that was just a minor, the major problem was that the place is so dirty that if you leave your food on the table longer than 1 minute, millions and millions of flies will be on it like literally covered completely and i ain't lying.
After a long exposing tiring sun burning dust swiping day, it was time for shower and sleep and boy oh boy did it felt good..and this is just day 1 basis..i barely even scratching the surface..stay tuned for part 2 soon..
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Inside it contains a nightmare i somewhat knew i have to go through, I have been officially selected to join National Service.. moment of silence please everyone..
I passed out for an hour before waking up and passing out again..
I was kinda prepared for this day but then again i mean seriously want to join such crap especially when making money is more important right. Anyway, i shaved my head a month before joining it cause either way I'm screwed so might as well get into the spirit of it in advance.. I even have to quit my job just so that the government doesn't have to send their ass kissing people over to capture me.
Official day arrived and i sat in the bus while watching myself being taking far far away from my parents, after a while first thing i noticed is that there's a bloody cemetery next to the camp..why in God's name will they locate the camp next to a curse place? It's was in Alor Gajah by the way.. Getting down from the bus and the first thought come to me was..I want to go home now!
It was hot and dusty, kinda like from the desert of Mexico..everyone of us looks like some lost cowboy while the commanders looks like freaking cactus because if you touch them, they'll kill you. Nothing about that place impresses me except the large lake in the camp that's closer to the boy's dorm than girl's..because they're closer to the canteen so we get the lake right? wrong..apparently the lake is dirty and can cause rashes on skin if we swim in it..the curse from the cemetery has already begun apparently.
And just when i thought things couldn't get any worse, it did..the canteen that i've mentioned earlier that was closer to the girl's dorm..which makes no sense because girl eats less than guys, and yet we're the one here that needs to walk further for food, jeez. Anyway, that was just a minor, the major problem was that the place is so dirty that if you leave your food on the table longer than 1 minute, millions and millions of flies will be on it like literally covered completely and i ain't lying.
After a long exposing tiring sun burning dust swiping day, it was time for shower and sleep and boy oh boy did it felt good..and this is just day 1 basis..i barely even scratching the surface..stay tuned for part 2 soon..
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Saturday, September 17, 2011
Weird Wired
Yesterday was apparently a holiday that i did not know of, some Malaysian Day or something created by some clown who feels like we need more holiday that we deserved..i say well done.
Anyway, yesterday my family is having some sort of a crazy fever to have the needs to constantly off the switch to the internet connection while I'm using it..3 times for crying out loud.
My mum did it in the morning so she could use the switch for her blow dryer, my dad then did it in the afternoon while he went for toilet then to finish the conclusion, my sister did it for the last time before going to bed. I repeat..all this while i was still using the internet, doesn't anybody sees me at all?
To make matter worse, a house owner wasn't a man of his words when he said he can meet me around 1 o clock to pass me a key to his shop. I called and asked if meeting around 1 o clock is convenience for him and he say yes but then sometime nothing is what it seems..i waited for 45 minutes before giving up on this clown and wouldn't bother with him anymore if he doesn't even bother to call back..and he didn't.
Luckily today he did..so i forgave him. Everybody seems to have some screw loose in their head last night. What a bizarre day.
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Anyway, yesterday my family is having some sort of a crazy fever to have the needs to constantly off the switch to the internet connection while I'm using it..3 times for crying out loud.
My mum did it in the morning so she could use the switch for her blow dryer, my dad then did it in the afternoon while he went for toilet then to finish the conclusion, my sister did it for the last time before going to bed. I repeat..all this while i was still using the internet, doesn't anybody sees me at all?
To make matter worse, a house owner wasn't a man of his words when he said he can meet me around 1 o clock to pass me a key to his shop. I called and asked if meeting around 1 o clock is convenience for him and he say yes but then sometime nothing is what it seems..i waited for 45 minutes before giving up on this clown and wouldn't bother with him anymore if he doesn't even bother to call back..and he didn't.
Luckily today he did..so i forgave him. Everybody seems to have some screw loose in their head last night. What a bizarre day.
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Thursday, September 15, 2011
Secret Operation: Progress
Well it have been 2 month since i had my secret operation and well overall things are going pretty smoothly as i hoped for..
Though my health is getting better my wallet ain't sharing the same fate, i guessed you have to sacrifice one to get another one..oh well. So far all i did was just going over to the place twice a week to get check up and let them people do their things, all girls for some reason.
The place is nice and dark and even gloomy..quiet most of the time, feel kinda haunted if i think about it..not to mention can smell the place from a distance, now that's powerful shit they're using on me. Sometime when i walked up the stair (yes, it's on the second floor) i keep remembering the first time i walked into that hell's kitchen wondering how will all this turn out to be and how much will it cost me, apparently 10k ain't even enough..
So i've left about 8k more to pay, seems like it's taking forever to pay this due, all of my ass kissing, blood sweating, heat soaking hard earn money went down the drain for this crap. Being totally happy for my health condition will always be 50/50 only no matter what..because everytime you think about it, you think about money..and how much of it have u wasted unnecessarily.
Long story short, this is just half of the full story..will update more next time.
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Though my health is getting better my wallet ain't sharing the same fate, i guessed you have to sacrifice one to get another one..oh well. So far all i did was just going over to the place twice a week to get check up and let them people do their things, all girls for some reason.
The place is nice and dark and even gloomy..quiet most of the time, feel kinda haunted if i think about it..not to mention can smell the place from a distance, now that's powerful shit they're using on me. Sometime when i walked up the stair (yes, it's on the second floor) i keep remembering the first time i walked into that hell's kitchen wondering how will all this turn out to be and how much will it cost me, apparently 10k ain't even enough..
So i've left about 8k more to pay, seems like it's taking forever to pay this due, all of my ass kissing, blood sweating, heat soaking hard earn money went down the drain for this crap. Being totally happy for my health condition will always be 50/50 only no matter what..because everytime you think about it, you think about money..and how much of it have u wasted unnecessarily.
Long story short, this is just half of the full story..will update more next time.
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Monday, September 12, 2011
Stupidity At It's Best
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click to enlarge I don't need to say much, u click it and see it for yourself..the true patriotism of carrying more Malaysia flag than our prime minister, this is an act of someone who love his land, sarcastically.
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Saturday, September 10, 2011
Mis*Marriage
August time i was talking about marriage..i was talking about how couple should spend more time and effort thinking the real deal in a relationship which is marriage..and i went on and on about what i would do with my marriage if i get myself one, then lately..
Lately..well lately i don't know what have gotten into me but for the first time in my life I'm actually considering the intention of not getting married at all for eternity..hm, i even surprised myself. To be honest i have no explanation on what caused i to think such thing, anyone who knows me long enough would know that i can't wait to have a little girl of my own and i love looking at women..so what's up?
I'm guessing that maybe all these while my interests peek at the thought of being married but in reality, life ain't that easy breezy. I was thinking that i hate doing the most things married couple have to do for or with each other like family reunion during CNY or what not, the wedding itself and other stuff that i don't want to get too into..maybe the problem is me here myself. Am i afraid of commitment?
I don't think so..maybe I'm worried i won't be a good father or husband..or maybe I'm worried about sharing the same fate as my parents because divorce is seriously not an option for me. I'm also worried whether or not i can provide for more than one mouth, wit the current position that I'm in..money is at the top of my fucking skull. I'm stuck at dilemma..having silly thought about future plans when I'm barely even at the next chapter yet.
I spend more time thinking about having a little girl than about having a wife, clearly shows that my interests is not stable whereby I'm just using a woman's body to birth me a daughter, other than that.. the page stays blank..what happened to the wife? i don't know nor do i care, damn. Some might said that when the right person comes along, the mindset will change..but i don't think the problem will stop there, I'm actually seriously considering not getting married at all.
Ignore me..I'm just questioning myself
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Lately..well lately i don't know what have gotten into me but for the first time in my life I'm actually considering the intention of not getting married at all for eternity..hm, i even surprised myself. To be honest i have no explanation on what caused i to think such thing, anyone who knows me long enough would know that i can't wait to have a little girl of my own and i love looking at women..so what's up?
I'm guessing that maybe all these while my interests peek at the thought of being married but in reality, life ain't that easy breezy. I was thinking that i hate doing the most things married couple have to do for or with each other like family reunion during CNY or what not, the wedding itself and other stuff that i don't want to get too into..maybe the problem is me here myself. Am i afraid of commitment?
I don't think so..maybe I'm worried i won't be a good father or husband..or maybe I'm worried about sharing the same fate as my parents because divorce is seriously not an option for me. I'm also worried whether or not i can provide for more than one mouth, wit the current position that I'm in..money is at the top of my fucking skull. I'm stuck at dilemma..having silly thought about future plans when I'm barely even at the next chapter yet.
I spend more time thinking about having a little girl than about having a wife, clearly shows that my interests is not stable whereby I'm just using a woman's body to birth me a daughter, other than that.. the page stays blank..what happened to the wife? i don't know nor do i care, damn. Some might said that when the right person comes along, the mindset will change..but i don't think the problem will stop there, I'm actually seriously considering not getting married at all.
Ignore me..I'm just questioning myself
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Thursday, September 08, 2011
Colombiana Review
B rated summer fun movie, undeveloped plot and no character development what sort ever..but Zoe Saldana is one hot killer
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
Conan The Barbarian Review
Brutal, absolutely brutal, totally brutal, grossily brutal..other than that, crap.
Monday, September 05, 2011
I've Rent My Third House
The house was a God's gift from heaven..beautiful and big and i was chosen to help rent it out, truly grateful I am..there's nothing much to say about the house background story except it all happened so quickly, within a month of holding it on someone want it which I'm not surprised at all if a house looks this good.
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Friday, September 02, 2011
Ghost Month
Let me be clear that August wasn't a very good month for me..life wasn't terrible at all but just was hoping for something decent enough for me to be happy.
I don't want to sound like I'm bitching about life whenever it takes a route that i didn't plan for..but maybe sometime worries and curiosity takes too much of a toll for me.. you know the feeling when certain things isn't going well for you and you just want to know that if it'll ever get better again.. life wasn't at it's best shape for me in August, going through a lot of different shit nearly everyday
August was what the Chinese like to call ghost month festival or something and i got frustrated with sleeping. I find it very difficult for me to sleep but stupidly easy to get woken up by even the slightest noise made by anything or anyone near my radius, so sleeping is super important for me. I nearly lost it over a night of sleep, imagine that.
I got my payment for the last house i sold about 3k plus and only getting 1.8k plus for splitting it with company, not that i don't like it but just that that is the last sale i got in term of selling since June, so ya it's been 3 months since anything new. With that said, I'm just worried about myself not able to make ends meet with this job..p.s, I'm broke again.
Reason for being broke.. paying medical bills, but at least i noticed it's getting better and i feel better so that's most important for me. i have paid about 10k for now and another 8k more to go..feel like I'm bleeding dry on money here. I guess the real major problem i have right now is mostly because of money issue otherwise i would be fine..money is always an issue in life.
I repeat i ain't bitching about life but just getting shit off my chest, keeping it all tight down inside of me can be overloading sometime. So I'm hoping September will be a better month for me..the ghost month because I'm Ghost, get it? No?
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I don't want to sound like I'm bitching about life whenever it takes a route that i didn't plan for..but maybe sometime worries and curiosity takes too much of a toll for me.. you know the feeling when certain things isn't going well for you and you just want to know that if it'll ever get better again.. life wasn't at it's best shape for me in August, going through a lot of different shit nearly everyday
August was what the Chinese like to call ghost month festival or something and i got frustrated with sleeping. I find it very difficult for me to sleep but stupidly easy to get woken up by even the slightest noise made by anything or anyone near my radius, so sleeping is super important for me. I nearly lost it over a night of sleep, imagine that.
I got my payment for the last house i sold about 3k plus and only getting 1.8k plus for splitting it with company, not that i don't like it but just that that is the last sale i got in term of selling since June, so ya it's been 3 months since anything new. With that said, I'm just worried about myself not able to make ends meet with this job..p.s, I'm broke again.
Reason for being broke.. paying medical bills, but at least i noticed it's getting better and i feel better so that's most important for me. i have paid about 10k for now and another 8k more to go..feel like I'm bleeding dry on money here. I guess the real major problem i have right now is mostly because of money issue otherwise i would be fine..money is always an issue in life.
I repeat i ain't bitching about life but just getting shit off my chest, keeping it all tight down inside of me can be overloading sometime. So I'm hoping September will be a better month for me..the ghost month because I'm Ghost, get it? No?
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