Downhill

I'mma cut to the chase..July has been a terrible month for me, i don like it and hated it. I had high hope for July to be honest, given how June starts off with a bang i was expecting something as good or nearly as good as before..boy oh boy was i wrong..

Pretty much after i gotten the 10k cheque, life slowly went down the toilet like a quick flush..I only managed to get half a commission for one of my house, dad was acting like a bitch, business was dry like grass, i lost a few houses and a lot more to elaborate. I grateful for the 10k and i kinda have a feeling that with a huge number coming in like that..some sacrifice will definitely be made.

I had secret operation in July which costs me a fortune, after 8 month of hard work..gone and it's painful, in term of losing money. I had a lot going on in my life in July, it was a patience testing moment for me to endure so much in a month..i don't know what's more worse, dad acting like a bitch or having no business at all..winner, no business.

Given how I'm already broke as fuck and to pour salt into my wounds..no business was added in the mix. Guess it's a wake up from God asking me to work harder than ever since i told myself that i want to work harder not only to gain more money but also prove to myself that i can do it by myself in the future..maybe God is actually helping, in a mysterious way?

Anyway, August is tomorrow..and i hope things will be better than July..

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Captain America Review

Captain America is actually better than Thor, entertaining summer fun and have a much better ending than most Marvel movie..

I'm Supposed To Die Tonight

I was walking down the street today when out of no where this giant ass car from the right reverse her car so fast, it nearly killed me..and yes i said HER..

Female drivers.. the most notorious wrecking vehicle machines and human killing prototype on the road, men's most fearful arch nemesis, high competitive and reckless..anyway, that bitch just thought reversing her car without bother to see if anyone's behind, but luckily my spider sense was tickling fast enough for me to slow time down and dodge her incoming..

The bitch just acted like nothing and continue driving off like I'm not even there, i keep staring at her over and over. Now when i think about it, i should have throw at rock at her car hoping the smash at least a window and scratch her door or something..or even kill her..anything to make me feel good.

As my life flashes before my eyes, i thought of all the mixed rice I'll never get to eat anymore, all the beautiful green vegetable, all the delicious meat, and eggs, and squid and potato salad and all. Drool as i may, I'm over exaggerating. Today proves to me that men are better driver, women and vehicle control just don't seem to go together for some reason..

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Random 25

Somehow, somewhere, somewhat..

I kinda missed Subang Jaya..after spending three years there..

I missed the land where people actually can speak English..

I missed all the hormone rage teenage girls who seems to stop getting themselves pregnant..

I certainly don't miss the traffic..

November..

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Introvert Like Me

Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.
This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.

Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.
Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.

Myth #3 – Introverts are rude.
Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.

Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people.
On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.

Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public.
Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.

Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone.
Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.

Myth #7 – Introverts are weird.
Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.

Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds.
Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.

Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun.
Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.

Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts.
Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race.

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I've Sold My Sixth House

This house was considered sold in April..yes that long ago but..problems keep occurring until finally currently it's done..

First off, this house was sold to the very first customer who saw the house, so hands down this is the fastest selling house in my career so far.

Then first problem was the loan, the customer loan is approved but wasn't as high as he expected so switch from one bank to another till finally he use the owner's bank..this wasted 2 month..

Third problem is that customer will not sign agreement till damage to the house is done, owner finally completed the house for me..wasted another month..

So in conclusion, customers are a bitch..

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Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows Part 2 Review

One. It's good like super duper magical casting spell binding good
Two. The final battle between Harry and Voldermort is over way too quickly
Three. Emma Watson is still freakishly hot

Nicholas:Ice:Ghost

I was born Nicholas Tan Heng Tiam on April 1989..21 years ago..I was born Ghost in my high school year some class in 2004..7 years ago and i was born Ice in college by someone in 2008, therefore Nicholas IceGhost exist in very day as we speak..

I realize that every human being has many different side to themselves and i have divided those personality of mine into 3 different persona.

Nicholas is the kind of guy that is casual, everyday normal ordinary guy doing ordinary stuff in daily life..This is the side of me when I'm just chilling and hanging or doing my own stuff when i'm alone, it rare that i ever act normal but when i do, it's because of this side of me.. basically it's just me being me.

Ice is the kind of guy that like to make people laugh, he's funny and goofy and quirky and silly all in one package and nothing should be taken seriously. This is the side of me that likes to just have good time with everyone around me, laughter is the best medicine after all and not to brag but i think i inherit this joker side of me form my father, the way we both like to talk crap sometime, calling people not by their names..come join the like father like son comedy club, basically everything that anyone loves about me it's this guy's doing.

Ghost is the kind of guy that nobody likes and everybody hates usually when in a bad mood time, pissed off and easily ticked off..not the best type to linger around with. This is the dark side of me that i don't know how to get rid of or at least control it, it's really bad actually..this is the side of me where i realized i have anger issue and maybe it's due to trauma and bullies that i became this way. Sometime it's hard to cage in such emotion when it's part of me despite trying to..luckily i don't turn green though.

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Can't Sleep Again

Guess what..

That's right..

Can't sleep again..

Last night..

Rotate bed for 3 hours plus..

I'm dying..

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Man Of The House

Previously on the last post..i talked about my top secret operation that I'm going through with, why i didn't tell my parents about it and why i chose to pay the bill by myself..

I feel like I'm a big boy now and that there's certain things that i can or should try to do it by myself without any assistance.. independence is important right. I chose to learn how to be more independent now than ever is because i want to know what's it feel likes to be the provider in the family.

For 20 years of my life, my dad provided almost everything for his family, a huge burden and crazy amount of responsibilities..yet he managed to do so, being his junior..and hopefully being able to be a father too sometime, i need to know that i'm capable.

That's the solely reason i did what i did.. the reason i didn't want to tell my parents cause then i have to explain everything to them then they'll try to help me pay for it and all, i love to..but i don't want to. The other reason is the same reason as the other one, independence.

Paying for the bill, i can officially confirmed that I'm bankrupt..broke and desperate in need of money to pay finish for the rest of the bill. While being broke right now i realized that without money i have more motivation to work hard like never before..with the mindset of independence, it's bad but not all that terrible after all, I'm a cow that needs to be slap on the butt in order to move.

I feel like now would be the best time to start training myself to realize the power of money struggle and how my father felt all those spending moneys on us after having to kiss so much asses just to make a few buck..time for me to fill in those shoes now.

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Secret Operation

Recently i've been going through some top secret operation that no one knows, not even my parents..that's how top secret it is..

So anyway, I've been checking with some doctor and they told me that i've been not taking care of myself very well therefore my body is not in good condition that i should be in, not to say my body has ever been in healthy condition due to kidney operation when i was young. Currently going through this battle by myself, want no one to stand by me or anything like that..this is my battle and I'll face it alone..

The bill is not cheap, not cheap at all..shit is gonna cost me about 18k for the whole thing. It's intense to know that i can't just consume every food i like, having to approach a more healthy diet, do execrise and sleep well. I can't do any of those things and have not being doing any of those things.. I guess it's best that i found out now rather than later cause who knows what worse could have happen.

I postponed everything that i was supposed to be doing because of this secret operation, and i'm officially bankrupt.. 9 months of hard ass kissing job commission is vanished to dust paying all these doctors and it's still not enough.. I need more money..

Tune in for the next post to see why i chose to face this battle alone and why i chose not to borrow money from my parents.

Transformers Dark Of The Moon Review

Pros
The Transformers franchise has always done well in the action sequence and this one is no exceptional, siting that the last action sequence which lasted very nearly to an hour long is absolutely loud and fantastic

Cons
Terrible story, some really unnecessary scene from new character in the show like Ken Jong's character..felt like it try too hard to be funny but end up awkward.

Bonus
Rose Huntington-Whiteley, Megan Fox replacement is smoking hot with that accent

Taipei Exchange Review

A very simple and heartwarming story, easy to follow and understand..great performance from both Kwai Lun Mei and Zai Zai Lin.