Forgiveness

I've come to the term and agreement between me and myself that it's time to let certain anger and hatred go, that's it's not what i would like to live with or remember him by.. I've pour enough of blood sweat and tears to say that i've finally forgiven my father for the cause of his marriage divorce..

In a fragment of what i remembered when i was younger is only a small portion of what the real reality is..my dad is not a bad person, no dad in this world is a bad person..every father is this world is trying their best to give and provide by all mean necessary, it's just hard to see when you're not in their shoe or when you only see one angle of it.

Since the divorce I've always blame my father for everything that happened to it, I see him as this monster that killed the marriage and that whatever happened after that night is all because of him..many nights whereby there's lots of screaming, shouting, yelling, swearing,slamming terrified me through out..i never knew what to do yet I'm afraid if i don't do something, something else might happen.

They said that whatever happened to a person is almost certainly caused by past trauma in one's life..I was too young to really care or understand any of this till now, the sort of person my father is now is probably because of the kind of life my father lived when he was young, maybe his relationship with his father is nothing more but a string of blood, flesh and bone..maybe his father used to beat him up badly therefore the sin of the past come haunting the present now. I just saying maybe that what makes my dad and it's carry on to me..i have a very bad temper too when i'm ticked..which i regret to sometime..

I never really see or try to understand how my father felt at that time when my mum wanted a divorce. Some husband have no idea how lucky they are that their wife never come to term of using divorce paper as an option, my dad wasn't so fortunate.. one might say he bought this upon himself, but then again maybe my mum overacted..you know how women are, right. My dad lost everything that night when he hears those words, he lost a wife, probably his girlfriend for how many years.. i mean he'll gonna lose me and my sister, the house and everything else, he's never the same man to my mum again after that talk..it's like breaking up but in a higher ground.

Despite so, my dad still pay for mostly everything in the house..that's a sad life to be living, my dad spend most of his time in the room with his Facebook, yes he has Facebook because he can't stand being in the same area with my mother, remind me and my owner in Subang Jaya.. I thought it was hard to be the victim that have to sit through this but it's even harder to be the person that have to live through this. My dad is real nice and kind with the people around him, including my mum despite everything..i mean he even go as far as to buy a new handphone for her that was stolen in her office, and it ain't no cheap phone, he even collects tin can for some random garbage men just so that he'll have a few extra cents, how many people nowadays does that sort of things anymore?

So dad, I'm letting go of the anger, I'm tearing down the walls, I'm building you a bridge to come to the other side, I'm saying..i've forgive you.

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I've Rent My First Apartment

This time is a change of pace as i rent out my first apartment. Initially i thought this place will never get rent out as it looks like a big messy toilet, shit needed some plumbing metaphorically speaking..but God prove me wrong..

The first time i ever show it to a customer, they were upset, thinking that we agents are technician or plumber or carpenter, asking us how come we didn't do the place back for them. Dumb bitches never thought that if we do it whose gonna be paying for it right? Anyway, upset and all i thought this place will be a waste of time..again God prove me wrong..

So this second customer calls and wanted to stay, i told how shitful it looks from inside yet to my surprise the customer came back to me again..and surprisingly they still want to rent it out, i was pleased..it was an easy 650 i've ever made..

P.s the apartment i'm talking about is the one with the blue sticker..

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Easy A Review

Easy A is easily an A+ movie, excellent script and fantastic performance from Emma Stone

Fast Five Review

Fast & Furious was the best in the series until Fast Five came along and blow it's older sibling out of the toilet. Explosion, crashes, girls, race, money,thrill and excitement..a man's getaway to never ending car fantasy. Furiously dangerously good.

Gone Laden Gone

Osama bin Laden, the face of global terrorism and architect of the Sept. 11, 2001, attacks, was killed in a firefight with elite American forces Monday, then quickly buried at sea in a stunning finale to a furtive decade on the run.

Long believed to be hiding in caves, bin Laden was tracked down in a costly, custom-built hideout not far from a Pakistani military academy. The stunning news of his death prompted relief and euphoria outside the White House and around the globe, yet also fears of terrorist reprisals against the United States and its allies.

"Justice has been done," President Barack Obama said in a dramatic announcement at the White House.

The military operation took mere minutes, and there were no U.S. casualties.

U.S. helicopters ferried troops from Navy SEAL Team Six, a top military counter-terrorism unit, into the compound identified by the CIA as bin Laden's hideout — and back out again in less than 40 minutes. Bin Laden was shot in the head, officials said, after he and his bodyguards resisted the assault.

Three adult males were also killed in the raid, including one of bin Laden's sons, whom officials did not name. One of bin Laden's sons, Hamza, is a senior member of al-Qaida. U.S. officials also said one woman was killed when she was used as a shield by a male combatant, and two other women were injured.

The U.S. official who disclosed the burial at sea said it would have been difficult to find a country willing to accept the remains. Obama said the remains had been handled in accordance with Islamic custom, which requires speedy burial.

"I heard a thundering sound, followed by heavy firing. Then firing suddenly stopped. Then more thundering, then a big blast," said Mohammad Haroon Rasheed, a resident of Abbottabad, Pakistan, after the choppers had swooped in and then out again.

Bin Laden's death marks a psychological triumph in a long struggle that began well before the Sept. 11 attacks. Al-Qaida was also blamed for the 1998 bombings of two U.S. embassies in Africa that killed 231 people and the 2000 attack on the USS Cole that killed 17 American sailors in Yemen, as well as countless other plots, some successful and some foiled.

In all, nearly 3,000 were killed in the Sept. 11 attacks nearly 10 years ago, the worst terror assault on American soil.

Moments after Obama's dramatic late-night announcement on Sunday, the State Department warned of the heightened possibility for anti-American violence. In a worldwide travel alert, the department said there was an "enhanced potential for anti-American violence given recent counterterrorism activity in Pakistan."

As news of bin Laden's death spread, hundreds of people cheered and waved American flags at ground zero in New York, the site where al-Qaida hijacked jets toppled the twin towers of the World Trade Center. Thousands celebrated all night outside the White House gates.

As dawn came the crowd had thinned yet some still flowed in to be a part of it. A couple people posed for photographs in front of the White House while holding up front pages of Monday's newspapers announcing bin Laden's death.

It's a moment people have been waiting for..USA USA USA!!

4 Days Straight

April 29th till May 2nd..my company have this plan to promote a new shopping in Melaka called Hatten City, from April 29 till May 2 was 80& living hell and 20% worth it of joy..

I've never experience in promoting a shopping mall before, selling off a house is as hard as it can be let alone a shopping mall so when it happened, alot of things occured in my mind bringing all kind of old memories back..every day was a long day so this might be a long post..

Day 1
The beginning of the end, since day one we can sense all kind of weird crap..I was up and ready to do this shit but the owner and the people in charge with services treated us unfairly. First thing first because the show room and art gallery and everything else is in, let's called it Place A..of course it'll be easier if our booth is near here as well but instead we got send off to the opposite of the building, about 3-5 minute walk just to reach there and come back forth. At the same time, they brought in agents from KL and Singapore but we're the only Melaka agent that's doing this. So instead of treating us all fairly in the game, we felt like outsider and in the end both KL and Singapore agents kicked our ass badly, why..because they get all the luxurious treatment..it was bad sale for us.

Day 2
Same thing all over again, we're cast further away from others, it's hard to show customer anything since our structure model of the building didn't even arrive and some customers used us just for explanation then they went off to buy the unit by themselves leaving us with no case closed deal. To make matter worse, within a day and a half, them agents have beaten us with more than 100 unit sales..they got brochures while we only get flyer, they get to bring as many customers as they want into the showroom while one of us agent are only allowed per time..see the obvious love they have for us..by day 2 we only managed to close 2 deals.

Day 3
By day 3 i was getting lazy to compete with all these other agents, obviously we are way behind any of them at this point and the unfair treatment only worsen things but we have no choice but to continue wasting our time at the booth day in and night out. Boss was pretty unhappy with the sales therefore pushing us to work till 9.30 at night..which was a stupid decision to make because we were wore out at that moment and pushing us harder will not make thing easier but only angrier, even if we did work longer hours, sale won't mean shit since we are so far behind anyone else. But in result of this stupidity, we end up jammed in parking lot for nearly half an hour and in traffic, reaching home with a low battery.

Day 4
Praise the Lord that it's ending soon because i just can't take it anymore, first experience and i hated it, i never really liked stuff like this, i rather go out there and find houses to sale, more freedom and less working hours without boss breathing down your neck every sec. Thankfully we get to go home earlier today otherwise might have to sit through another round of traffic jam..In the end i think we only managed to close like 5 deals..while other KL and Singapore Slut managed to close a combined of 200 units perhaps, sluts..

I spend most of my time giving out that ugly ass of flyer to people, reminded me so much of my days when i was working in Living Cabin. The most torturous part for me is my shoe, i don't know why but my feet don't like shoes like this, i don't know how you call them but i called them office shoes, the type that office people wear..my feet was arching every single second i start walking, it's hurts badly like high heel for girls at the beginning. No explanation to my situation just know that my feet hates shoe like that, i took off the shoe and it was breathing again..and swollen as well, crap.

That's basically the nightmare i have to go through 4 times..the 20% of joy comes from the 3 beautiful young hot models that accompany us and entertain us during this harsh time. Really hot but not my type, too skinny..

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New-Blog-Skin 5

I've changed the blog design again, the previous one was too white for me to stay interested for long, looks like a mine's blog..silent and quiet..

Anyway, i've changed alot of the design in this new skin, blogspot don't provide much design choices which is a shame

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Thor Review

Thor is electriying-ly good..Chris Hemsworth suits Thor perfectly..

Little Fighter

KUALA LUMPUR: He was fondly dubbed as the “little fighter”, but the fight just got too much for baby Koh Jun Hao.

After nearly a month battling against enormous odds to live, the baby passed away at 10.40pm yesterday at the Paediatric Institute at Hospital Kuala Lumpur (HKL).

Baby Jun Hao made the news after he was born on March 24 in Johor with ectopia cordis – a rare condition where the heart was located outside the chest.

The baby was the fourth born with the condition to be treated at HKL. The other three died as well.

Right from the time he was born, doctors had warned the parents that baby Jun Hao had only a slim chance of living.

But the fighter baby surprised everyone by surviving the next few days.

His father, Guan Siang, had really thought his son would make it through.

Both he and his wife had even temporarily relocated to Kuala Lumpur to care for their son. They stayed with a relative.

However, an emergency call from the hospital around 8pm yesterday dashed hopes of recovery when the doctors told the devastated parents that the baby was in critical condition.

“I rushed to the hospital with my wife and mother and waited by my son’s side. But a few hours later, he passed away,” said Guan Siang when met outside the mortuary.

He added the doctors had planned to go ahead with a procedure where specially-ordered artificial skin from America would be used to cover Jun Hao’s exposed heart.

Guan Siang said his son would be cremated and the family planned to scatter the ashes into the ocean.

Reading this kinda reminds me of the days where i spend my life in the hospital..for my kidneys..Rest in peace little boy, at least u don't have to suffer anymore since you're now in a much better place

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Paranormal Activity 2 Review

Terrifying to the bones as the movie slowly crawl inside your skin begging you to wish that the movie would just fucking end now..

The movie's climax slowly builds up to the point that daytime scene won't even let you catch a breath..